ok so this is Esme's pov on her change and joining the Cullens!! hope you enjoy and please review, it makes me happy!!
Esme-Chapter 1
Tears formed in my eyes and they threatened to never stop falling. Two words, repeated over and over in my mind "my baby!" he was only a few days old!! Why? What did he do to deserve to die? My mind could not think of a coherent answer.
So I stood standing at the cliff edge. I peered over the edge to the dark abyss below.
" I'll join you soon my darling boy" I sobbed aimlessly into the cold night air. I removed my shoes and peered around one last time. I took one last breath of air and jumped. I let out a piercing howl and I saw the land below getting bigger and bigger. That moment of impact was coming soon. I closed my eyes and then everything went black.
I woke up to a bright room and I was in a bed. "Was this heaven?" I thought. I felt like a force was keeping me lying down on this bed and I felt very tired. I looked around and was greeted by the most beautiful topaz eyes. Oh, yes, I was in heaven all right!
"Miss Platt, Hello im Doctor Cullen" his voice rang, like the sweetest symphony I had ever heard.
"I know who you are. Hello, so I'm not dead then?" I moaned. I wanted to join my son!! I remembered Doctor Cullen from when he fixed my leg when I was 16.
"Yes, do you not wish that?" he asked, clearly confused.
"Obviously, otherwise I wouldn't have jumped would I?" I replied stubbornly.
"Quite, quite. Still like your old self" why was he so calm? I was having an emotional breakdown and he just sat there!
"Just thought I would let you know Miss Platt that you are at the morgue not the hospital.
"What? Why?"
"Your injuries you have sustained from the jump are too severe. I have done what I can but to be honest you will not last more than an hour like this."
"Then why did you help?" I asked curiously
"Because I wanted too. I believe the term is called 'love' Esme, love" he looked no different to what he did 10 years ago, how is that? He walked over to the window; by the sun coming in the room I would say it was about 6 am now. A ray of sun caught Doctor Cullen's face and I couldn't believe what I saw. He looked like an angel! He sparkled like diamonds and I was hypnotised.
"W...What are you?" I asked in awe.
"A vampire" he said simply
"Doctor Cullen, am I going crazy?"
"Please, call me Carlisle, and I sure hope not"
"Then your real?"
"As real as yourself. Yes."
"So. You love me?"
"Yes, dear Esme, I can't explain it, I feel a strange pull towards you and I don't think I could live without you" this wasn't right; he was explaining the feelings I had suddenly felt for him.
"Hmm I feel the same way" I said dopily. " I feel very peculiar" I announced
"Yes it's the morphine" he explained, "It makes the person feel tired and paralysed. Right now it's the only thing that is stopping you feeling the pain that you should"
"Are you here to save me? My knight in shining armour?"
"If you wish it. I can save you from dieing and you can live with me and my son, Edward." Edward? That was going to be my son's name! Maybe I didn't have to have a son, I would treat Edward like the son I never had.
"Oh I would love that very much Carlisle! Please save me"
"Very well my angel but be warned the pain is excruciating"
"I don't care," I said finally and then Carlisle was by me in an instant and he kissed me full on the lips and then travelled to my neck. I couldn't tell when he bit me, I was completely desensitised but soon after I felt a scorching blaze spreading rapidly from my neck to every other part of my body. I screamed in terror
"What is happening?" I screeched
"The unthinkable, my dear, you are slowly turning into a monster, like me and Edward"
"Why, the pain?"
"Let's just say its part of the package" he smiled wryly, "screaming doesn't help," he added seriously.
"Fine I won't scream, too much, for you" I said with such devotion. I couldn't explain this feeling, Carlisle seemed to have his own gravitational pull on me and I was being pulled in. Oh, I was glad he had found me.