A/N: So sorry it has been awhile since i updated. I recently started my junior year of high school and needed to just focus on that for the beginning. Hope you guys like this story so far.

Mark: "So why strawberry ice cream of all flavors?"

Meredith: "It's always been my favorite. It's very comforting. What's your favorite flavor?"

Mark: "Mint for sure. Are you doing okay with everything that happened earlier?"

Meredith: "Yeah I think I'm fine. I mean yeah it hurts everything resurfacing the way it did but now my head it clear. Back in Seattle I had this image of Derek and he was nice and there for me but now I see the real side of him. The New York Derek."

Mark: "I get it. Just remember if you need someone to talk to I am here for you. You and I were once the dirty mistresses. We are part of a club." He just couldn't take his eyes off of Meredith. " I honestly do not see why he let you go before. I know that if I were him I never would have given you up for anything."

Meredith: "Well it's all in the past now. Even though there is part of me that still loves him I don't think I would ever be able to trust him again. He broke me back in Seattle and I don't know if he realizes how badly."

Mark: "He never will if you don't talk to him about it. I know he is probably the last person you want to talk to but I can tell you don't know what you want to happen between you two and the only way you really will know is if you sit down and talk to each other… away from the hospital."

Meredith: " I know. But let's not talk about that right now. So about this club that you and I are in… Who is the Founder you or me?"

Mark: "I would have to go with me. I mean when I slept with Addison I knew he she was married to Derek. You didn't know that Derek was married. You can be the cofounder though."

Meredith: "Fine by me."

Mark: "So tell me something about you that Derek didn't know happened because he's told me everything he knows about you."

Meredith: "Well did you ever hear about how a couple years ago there was a patient that had a bomb in his chest?"

Mark: "Yeah it was all over the hospital here just because of Derek and Addison had worked there."

Meredith: "Well the paramedic, Hannah, had her hand on the bomb when they came in. I was assigned on the case. After a while she got scared and myself, my bestfriend, Dr. Preston Burke and a guy from the bomb squad were in the OR with her. I was next to Hannah and she was so scared after a while she pulled her hand out. When she did she ran out and everyone dropped on the floor,except me. I put my hand on the bomb quickly before it had time to shift."

Mark: "Oh my god. You're the intern that did that. We were never told the name."

Meredith: "Yeah I was. After we got the bomb out of the guys chest the guy from the bomb squad carried it out and followed behind him. Then the bomb went off and he died. Right in front of me. It was like I blinked and he was gone."

Mark: "Wow… Thats crazy."

Meredith: "Yeah it is. I think I am going to call it a night. Thanks again Mark for letting me stay here."

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Alex: "The day was crazy. I don't know how this is all going to work while we are here."

Cristina: "It will be fine. If I know Mer she will try to stay away from him and she will have meaningless one night stands like she did here. Then she will realize that she thinks she needs him and will go back."

Alex: "But what if going back to him isn't what is best for her. All he is going to do is hurt her again. They aren't even back together and he already did it."

Cristina: "That may be true Alex but if he does hurt her again maybe she will finally be able to move on from him. She didn't get closure before… He just left without a look back."

Alex: "Yeah and it doesn't help that Addison is no longer the She-Shepherd."

Cristina: "Wait what?"

Alex: "Yeah they got divorced after being out here a year. At least that's what Sloan said."

Cristina: "And Shepherd didn't even think to come back out here if he still loved Meredith like he said he did."

Alex: "That's what I was thinking. Something is not adding up on the side of the New York surgeons. They are keeping something from us I can tell."

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The next morning back at the hospital.

Derek: "Good morning Meredith."

Meredith: " . Any cases today? And I would prefer if you didn't use my first name in the hospital."

Derek: "As of now just an aneurysm to clip. I assume you want to assist?"

Meredith: "Sure."

Derek: "I'm sorry about yesterday. Let me make it up to you by going to dinner tonight. We can talk about everything that's happened."

Meredith: "Fine."

Derek: "Wait really? You aren't going to try to fight me on it?"

Meredith: "I mean you want me to say yes right? I can change my mind and say no. Last night Mark told me that talking would be good for us to do."

Derek: "You talked to Mark about me?" 'I cannot believe she actually was talking to Mark about me.'

Meredith: "Yeah. Even though you may think I sleep with everyone I don't."

Derek: "I know you don't sleep with everyone. But what about what you said before you left yesterday?"

Meredith: "I was pissed and I know how you get. Remember you calling me a whore in the stairwell years back? I wanted to get under your skin and I knew I could if i said that to Mark."

Derek:'Okay that hurts but I deserved that. Or did I? I left seattle because it was the right thing to do not because I wanted to and now she is saying it's my fault that she sleeps around?- No that's not what she is saying. This is the woman I love I need to stay calm.' "Wow. I don't know what's worse. You doing that just to hurt me or if you actually would have gone and slept with Mark. Maybe dinner tonight isn't such a good idea. You're not the Meredith I met in Seattle."'Fuck why did I let that side of me talk. Im pushing her away.'

Meredith: "And you are not the Derek that I met in Seattle. You wanna talk about hurt? You hurt me everyday in Seattle once Addison showed up. You always acted as if in Seattle you were able to be yourself. I now realize that that was a lie. You just wanted different than the real you. You just couldn't come to terms with the fact that you didn't like who you are."

Derek:'This is my chance to fix what I just fucked up more.' "That's not true. The only reason it looks like that is because it's impossible for me to be me without you by my side. You are what makes me me. You make me complete and no matter how much you push me away I love you."

Meredith: "You what?"

Derek: "I love you."

Meredith: "No you don't. You are just saying that so I won't be mad at you."

Derek: "Meredith listen to me. I mean it and I will keep saying it until you understand that I mean it. Just ask Mark or Addison. I love you Meredith Grey and there's no one else for me in the world because like I said, I am not me without you."

Meredith: "There's only one thing I know what to do in this situation and I'm going to do just that."

The next thing either of them know is that they are kissing.

Meredith: 'What the hell am I doing this is the man that broke me. But he's Derek. But I can't.' And as quickly as it started it stopped. "I can't do this Derek"

A/N: So Derek and Meredith kissed at the end. Next chapter will be the reaction of both Derek and Meredith when they both think about it and also everybody else when they find out. Sorry again for taking so long to update.