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I had to have been sitting out in my car for a good five minutes. To say I was nervous would be an understatement. When I had pulled up to the house, most of the lights were on and I knew he was up because the man could never go to bed if a single light was left on. I really don't know what I had to be nervous about, I was out with family…so to speak. If I really had to think about it, it was probably the fact that this is a side of me he has never seen and because of the guilt racking up a storm in the back of my mind. I turned off my car and got out, it was now or never. I started up the stairs to my front door, taking off my heels in the process. I walked into the house and the moment I did, Derek was in front of me, enveloping me in his arms. He held onto me tight as he whispered, "Where have you been? I have been so worried about you!"

I wrapped my arms gently around his back and pulled him into me. "I'm sorry baby, I was out visiting the family and I must have lost track of time." I was trying hard by this point to hold in my tears and not let my voice crack

He pulled back a smile on his face. "So you did decide to see your family again?"

I nodded my head and gave him a kiss on the cheek before pushing past him. "You look different today. "He commented as he walked over towards the kitchen

"Yeah well get used to it, that's how the women dress in my family." I looked back at him, he was leaning on the doorway to kitchen drying off a dish in his hands.

"I'm sorry about tonight I know I said I would make you dinner—"

"Don't worry about it, you were with family what can I do about it?"

No it's a big deal because that wasn't what I was doing at all. I looked back towards our bathroom "Um I think I might go have a bath."

Derek smiled at me and I basically took off to the bathroom. My mind was on overload and once I was in the bathroom I turned on the tap for the bath. It was quiet for a few minutes and I watched as the water flowed from the tap. A knock came to the bathroom door and Derek voice came through the door. "I just want you to know that I'm okay with this, I'm not running away...I actually think it is a great idea that you're seeing your family again."

I kept staring at the water, completely aware that it was now not the only thing leaking water. "Me too." I replied, keeping my voice as calm as I could

"That's good baby, I love you."

"I love you to." I hated how my voice sounded, it isn't full of emotion it was more robotic then anything.

I didn't hear anything from him so I supposed he had moved away from the door. I shut the water off and removed my clothing and settled into the tub.

(Flashback)

I gave out a long shriek as I watched the floor bob in my vision. Tig had thrown me over his shoulder and started to walk to the bathroom. We had just finished flinging cupcakes, batter and icing at each other, Gemma was going to be furious with us since those were for her charity event she was hosting tomorrow but, in my defense Tig had started it. By the end of our war, I had surrendered as I no longer had any ammo and he went to run us a bath. The thing with our bath was it was like a mini Jacuzzi. It was big enough for the both of us and I loved it. Tig had snuck up on me as I was cleaning up our mess in the kitchen and he had thrown me over his shoulder. I pounded my fists against his bare back and I got a well-deserved grunt and a laugh in the end. "Tig! Put me down!" I shouted

Tig came to an abrupt stop and next thing I knew I was surrounded by water, clothes and all. Granted that I wasn't really wearing much to begin with, I had a light green spaghetti strap chemise and a pair of plaid pajama shorts that ended at mid-thigh. I giggled as I looked over to Tig, my eyes admiring his body. Tig stood in front of me in just his boxers and his evil broad smile on his face. Next thing I knew he had basically jumped in beside me, causing water to spill over the sides of the tub. I swatted his chest and retorted, "Look at the mess you are creating now."

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me forward so that I was laying on his chest in between his legs. I placed my hands on his chest and laid my head on his chest so that I was facing towards him. He started to caress my face with the back of his hand. I loved this side of him, I am the only person who can see this and it makes me feel special. I was feeling brave and wanted to try and approach the subject again, "So...Dawn is coming down again and I was thinking about what it would be like to have a little one of our own."

I mentally hit myself for saying it when I watched the same look cross over his face. At first he looked confused then he looked compassionate and then worried. I knew from everything I heard about his last attempt at a family that it was a touchy subject with him. So, he did the same thing he did every time, he pulled my head down and kissed my forehead whispering, "Someday baby."

(End of flashback)

Why did Tig have to say what he did...I had come to terms with it, the way we had left things...sort of. It was getting harder and harder to stay away from him now and the more I thought about it, the more I felt guilty for the thoughts that were going through my head. I could taste the salty taste of the tears that escaped my eyes. I placed my hand on my temples as I tried to not let any sound escape my lips. It was over between us and I needed to accept that.

It had been late when I had gone to bed so, when I woke up to voices in the kitchen, curiosity got the better of me. I had wrapped my robe around my body and walked into the kitchen, rubbing at my dry and sore eyes. To be truthful I wasn't that surprised to see Gemma and Tara sitting in the kitchen, a coffee in hand talking with Derek. "Someone had a late night I see." Gemma called to me as I walked to the fridge for some orange juice.

Once I turned around I gave Gemma one look that told her to shut it and asked, "May I inquire to what you're doing here so early in the morning."

"Well one it's almost noon and did you forget what today is?" Gemma said

I raised one eyebrow at her and judging by Gemma's judging look and Tara's giggle, what I forgot had to be important "Gemma was just telling me about the event you guys are putting on for kids with no homes or ones that come from an abusive home." Derek answered for me

Shit, I had completely forgot about it and I'm sure I'll hear about it later. I had to get ready seeing as if what Gemma said about the time was true, I had an hour to get ready. I looked over to Derek to see he was fully ready to go which means that he was coming as well. Knowing Gemma's rules when it comes to these things that meant that Tig would be there to. I put on a tight smile for everyone before I walked away to get ready. I slipped on a pair of dark blue jeans that tucked into a black pair of wedge boots with a set of three buckles on each side that came up to my calf and a light gray loose tank top that dipped low at the chest and a letter jacket over that. I left my hair down with my waves giving it slight volume and I gave it a bit of a messy look. Once I approved of my look I grabbed my purse and headed back into the kitchen. I reached for my keys and let Gemma rush me out of my house.

I was put in charge of the food part and making sure that everything was going as planned unfortunately Gemma looked like she was ready to blow a gasket seeing as none of the boys were here yet. Some of the boys had promised her to do little things for the kids, like Bobby and his Elvis act that he did every charity event. I breathed a deep sigh of relief when I came into the house to get the last plate of food and in came Bobby, Tig, Chibs and Clay. At least Bobby was in his outfit this time, he opened his mouth to let out some Elvis saying he thought was funny enough to get away with being late like he did every time but, I held up a finger and grabbed the plate of food before rushing Bobby out of the house into the backyard. "Don't even go there mister, Gemma is going to have a panic attack I swear to god. Now get out there and start your gig before she finds you."

Booby took my advice and scattered to his corner and I looked back at what had arrived with him, giving them a hard stare before I asked, "Now where are the rest of ya? Gemma is going to come down your throats when she finds out only you four showed up."

Clay stepped up towards me and gave me a kiss on the cheek, "Don't worry I will go deal with my wife, and just go do whatever she has you doing."

I rolled my eyes and left but not before I shot them one more glare. I walked over to where Lyla was leaning against my table popping a grape into her mouth. I pulled what was left of the grape vine out of her hand and placed it back on the plate. She raised one of her eyebrows at me and I looked down rearranging the table. "Don't give me that look that's for the kids, go inside and snack on what's in there if you're hungry."

She took the hint that I didn't want to talk and left for the house. It was quite a big turn out this time from the last one I remembered, I couldn't help but smile at all the happy faces running around. I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and pull me back into him, it took everything I had to not stiffen as I knew it was Derek. He kissed my neck through my hair and reached for something to snack on. I slapped his hand and said, "That's for the kids don't touch."

I heard him groan in my ear and I could help but smile at his childish behavior. I felt a pair of eyes on us and when I looked up I could see Tig and Clay in the distance watching us, I didn't like the look that Tig was giving us, it was full of anger and jealousy. Before I had a chance to do anything I heard a high pitch squeal come from the entrance of the house. When I turned to see who made the sound I could see a little bundle of blonde running towards me, arms wide open. I leaned down to catch Abel just in time, I wrapped my arms tightly around him and pulled him into me, giving him a bunch of kisses all over the place before he pulled away enough for me to see that bright smile and bright blue eyes. He gave me a kiss on the cheek before he said sweetly, "I miss you auntie."

I smiled back and replied, "I missed you lots to."

He gave me an even brighter smile if that was even possible before he wrapped his arms around me once more. I looked over Abel's shoulder to see Jax and Tara walking over to us, with a bright smile on their faces as well. Once Jax reached us, he slipped his arm around Tara waist and said "I thought you would like to see him again."

I smiled at him and adjusted Abel onto my side so I could get a closer look at the other bundle in Tara arms. "And who would this be?" I asked while I let the little baby play with my finger

"That's Thomas." Abel said from beside me

I looked over at him to see him twiddling with his fingers, I looked between the two brothers and couldn't help but see a lot of Jax in both of them. "How old?"

"He is only six months now." Tara replied

"Wow he is big."

I looked over to Abel and asked, "You excited to be a big brother?"

He looked around shyly but nodded his head. I felt someone bump into my back and I looked behind me to see Derek looking around confused. I forgot that he was behind me and that he had only meet Gemma and Tara. I stepped to the side so he could get in on the circle we had formed "Derek this is Jax, Gemma's son and Tara's husband and these are his two little boys Thomas and Abel and everyone this is Derek." I pointed around to everyone

Everyone gave a smile to him before Jax pulled Abel from my arms and leaned into me and whisper in my ear. "Can I talk to you for a second?"

I nodded my head and I gave Derek a kiss on the cheek and ruffled up Abel's hair before I walked away with Jax.

What was up her ass? She wouldn't even give me a second look except to glare at me. I knew that her boyfriend was going to be here since Gemma called and warned me but, even though I thought I was prepared for it. I wasn't prepared to see him all over her that should be me, that should be us. I narrowed my eyes at them and when her eyes meet with mine, I knew that she wasn't comfortable that way. But, it couldn't be the way they were since we used to do that together all the time. Hell when we used to be together for the first time, it was her that got me to do that stuff with her and eventually I started to like it to. I was so focused on them that I didn't notice that Clay stood beside me until he said "She is looking pretty good today."

I gave him a glare that told him to keep those comments to himself, he shrugged his shoulders and looked around, "That her new boy?"

"I suppose so. You find Gemma?"

"Yeah."

"Bet you had to suck up quite a bit to be standing here unscathed." I laughed, letting my eyes leave her to look at him

He smiled and started to pick at his teeth with a toothpick. "No more then you are with little princess over there."

I rolled my eyes and looked back over to Victoria, I didn't see her anymore but I did see her boy walking away to the corner of the yard, where Bobby was. "Gotta go." I said to Clay

I needed to find out what was so important about this guy. "Don't start something here Tig, it won't only be Gemma that has your head and I am not getting involved in that."

I only nodded my head before I turned around and walked towards him. Once I was within reaching distance he turned and looked at me, showing me a smile and holding out his hand. "Names Derek I'm here with Victoria?"

"Tig." I said shortly not offering my hand to his

He held his hand out for a few seconds longer before he got the hint and lowered his hand. He looked around uncomfortable as I looked him over. I didn't understand what she saw in him, he was small in my eyes, barely any muscle, had a stupid pretty boy haircut and that I'm so innocent look on his face, he was everything I wasn't. The only thing I could see going for him is that he could support her but, I could do that, so why did she love him and want him over me? "So you're her ex-boyfriend I take it?" He asked braking me out of my thoughts

I looked at him surprised that she even mentioned me to him, "Sure I guess you could say that."

"Um Gemma told me…but, look man if you're trying to do the whole scare routine to make sure that I'm treating her right, then you don't have to worry."

I crossed my arms across my chest and snorted. "I don't have that worry, she can take care of herself. Thought I would come and see what her new boy was like."

I knew I was testing the waters with what I was saying but, I was curious to see how far I could push this guy. He took notice to my words but, I could tell he choose to bite his tongue as he smiled tightly at me and started to walk away from me. "I don't know what you meant to her but, your nothing now. She is with me, she left you for a reason so let her be happy."

What was he saying? That I couldn't make her happy? That I was the reason she ran, that I ruined her life? I clenched my fists and looked up, my eyes meeting with Bobby's who was telling me to leave it be but, I couldn't let it go. I took a few steps towards him and I puffed out my chest slightly, "Who do you think she truly loves huh?"

I watched him stop in his tracks and turn around stalking up to me. I let my hands rest at my sides still in fists. I knew what was coming and I was willing to let him take the first swing before I tore him a new one. I felt his fist collide with my jaw and for a little guy he did have quite a punch. I cracked my knuckles and threw the next punch, making him fall backwards from the impact.

Me and Jax had just finished making arrangements for me to babysit the boys so he could take Tara away to a surprise getaway for the two of them. Just as I agreed I could hear fighting coming from the backyard and Gemma's voice screaming at two people to stop fighting. I ran outside with Jax to see all the kids at the edge of the yard and some of the boys pulling two people apart. I ran forward until I stood beside Gemma to see the two men I loved fighting to get out of the boys grips and Bobby standing in between them. "She loves me so back off man!" Derek shouted.

"The fuck she does! I bet in the end she will come back to me!" Tig shouted back almost getting out of Chibs and Happy's grip

"You better get a hold on your boy's baby before I do." Gemma whispered threateningly into my ear

I stepped forward so they would both notice me and I placed my hands on my hips. "Both of you should be ashamed look at where you are! Grow up and go home now!"

Once I was done speaking both of them calmed down enough to be let go of. Derek came up and tried to wrap his arm around my shoulders, "Let's go home babe."

I shoved him away from me and pointed back to the door, "No, I won't be going home, I meant you go home now. I did not bring you here to make a fool of me now go!" I said angrily

Derek looked at me hurt and looked back at Tig who when I looked back at him was looking at Derek with a smug look and his chest puffed out. I walked over to him and jabbed him in the chest with my finger, "You to, go home now!"

He looked down at me defiantly, "Do not test me right now Alexander Tragger, I will not tolerate it."

At the use of his full name he started to walk towards the front door before he stopped his eyes wide, "Wow, you're a buzz kill." A female voice said from behind me

I looked to where Tig was staring and saw Dawn standing there with a backpack over her shoulder. Perfect.