AN here's the new chapter yey. haha, there's a hint in this chapter about the things that will happen later in this story, maybe you'll guess it :D

Miley leaned against the wall at her backstage. She was exhausted after her concert and somehow this particular concert had been really exhausting, emotionally and physically. Seeing Nick after all this time came as a shock and she didn't know how to process seeing him. She didn't care for him like that anymore, but there was this connection between them. They inspired each other in so many ways that no one else could ever understand.

Her family, manager and some people who helped her with her new record came to congratulate her. They had watched her from the backstage and loved every second of her performance. Miley smiled at them and thanked them, they were the reason she is where she is today. And her fans of course. They moved to a bigger area, where they had a private party to celebrate her new record. Soon her friends joined them and Miley jumped to Demi's neck.

"Giiiirrlllll, that was pure awesomeness!" Demi screamed over the music. "I can't believe your performance, and you voice, God, you are so good!"

"Thanks Demi, but you are way too kind to me." She acted as she didn't deserve all her compliments, but her heart jumped up and down. She loved to shock people and was sure that all the magazines and gossip sites would be all over her tomorrow. There was no better thing in the world. Somehow over the time she had started living for the fame. It didn't matter if it was good or bad, as long as her name was on the covers of every magazine.

She looked around and hugged everyone; Joe, Oliver, Lilly, even Justin who was Selena's older brother. Her eyes gazed for the one brown haired boy, but she didn't saw him anywhere. After a few minutes she noticed him standing next to a table with all the beverages and started walking that way but someone took her hand and stopped her.

"Don't break him Miley, he's been trough enough." Joe whispered to her ear and Miley looked at him confused, what was he talking about? Had something happened to Nick during the year they had lost contact? No matter what that something was, Miley was sure she had nothing to do with it and nod to Joe and ran to Nick.

"Nickkyyyyyy!" Miley yelled and jump to Nick's back. She gave him a kiss on his cheek and turned him around. She had no idea what kind of effect her lips touching his skin had to him. He was nearly fainting, his legs were shaking and butterflies flew around his stomach. "What's up! I see you are back to states. You should've told me you were coming to my concert." Miley smiled to him.

"Well it was kind of a sudden decision." Nick muttered and looked for an excuse to leave this conversation. He didn't feel like getting his heart stabbed today, and every second with Miley felt just like that.

"Oh yeah? How's that?" She asked still smiling and looking at his eyes. They were the same as always, but there was something wrong with them. It looked like he was here, but his mind was really somewhere else. Not in this room with her, somewhere else. And it scared Miley, but she didn't want to show it to Nick.

"Joe kind of dragged me here." Nick admitted, but as soon as he saw Miley's face falling he corrected "But only because I was too tired! Thank God I came, your show was amazing, like always." He said friendly and pressed her hand. "I'm sorry, I think I have to go now, jet lag, you know?" And with that he walked away. Seeing Miley was too hard for him, he couldn't handle it. And she acted like everything was okay with their lives. How fucked up is she? Nick thought. With the two of them, it was always all or nothing. And at this point it was nothing, Nick realized. But he had a plan. He knew Miley was still the same, even though she acted something else for everyone else. Nick knew how to get to Miley's head. He walked away, outside to get some air and started looking at the stars.

Miley was left with nothing but wonder. She wanted to talk with Nick, after all they hadn't spoken in a year. But Nick was clearly not ready to spend time with her, so she ran back to Liam and put her arms around him while talking to some of their friends. Then someone poked her hand and she turned to see who it was. Joe stand there with vicious face.

"You, me, outside, now." Were the only things he said and Miley nodded and followed him.

Once they were outside Miley and Joe glared at each other in silence.

"So you had to do it." Joe said

"Did what exactly? Joe I have no idea what you are talking about." Miley said truthfully

"Well you had to drive him away.." Joe asked and looked sad for change. "I can't find Nick anywhere and last I saw was you two talking.."

"Joe, Nick said to me that he was leaving, but I didn't do anything, I swear. Joe.. What's going on with Nick? I couldn't ask him about it, considering our last conversation.. but will you tell me? I'm dying to know." Miley looked at Joe with her big eyes and Joe started talking. He told her everything from the promise ring to Nick getting caught by the paparazzi and screwed over by girls in London. Miley listened carefully and nodded once in a while. This was the first conversation that the two of them had ever really had. This one was deeper then the previous ones. They both opened up and talked about everything that had anything to do with Nick, or anything at all.

"I'm afraid I will lose it all." Miley said suddenly after a few minutes of silence.

"Huh?"

"The fame. What if it all goes away, what if my album doesn't sell or my acting career drops. Who am I then? Who am I without my fame?" She asked almost crying now

"Miley. You will be Miley, that's who you are. You've never been anything else, just you." Joe reassured her and took her under his arm and hugged her.

"But I'm not myself right now. Joe this "dress less, shock more" - Miley isn't me. That's not all I want to be, but I don't see a future in front of me, if I don't turn out as a pop star like Britney or Gaga, or someone like that." She poured her heart out to Joe. Why Joe? She didn't know but it just felt right.

"Miley, look at me. You are wonderful, everyone loves you. Well except some double standard parents who don't let their kids like you, but still. You may not be 'america's sweetheart' like Selena, but we all know that that's all act. You are real, even when you try more than you have to. You are so real and all of us envy that. We can't be like that, we couldn't take it if someone teared us apart."

"Thanks Joe.." Miley smiled a bit now

"And hey, if you feel like that then think about me. My older brother is happily married and loved by all, my younger brother is doing his solo thing and is so successful. Me on the other hand, I'm nothing, I'm the douche who dumped Taylor and Demi. Think about that." Joe admitted his fears to Miley.

"Joe, you know that's not true. You are not a douche, or maybe a little. But still, you said the most wonderful things to me just before and made me happier about myself. How can you even think for a second that you are less than your brothers!" Miley cheered her friend up.

They looked at each other and smiled. Miley had never noticed that Joe and Nick had the same kind of eyes. They were so similar that it frightened Miley a little. Miley hugged him and pressed her lips against his cheek, but he turned a bit right then and their lips collied. It was nothing more than a second, but they both turned around from each other, their faces getting read. Like they were reading each others minds they got up at the same time, took a one last look at each other and walked back in.

Nick looked at his phone for a minute, he was shocked. He had witnessed the love of his life and his older brother, kissing. And he had a photo that showed it.

He had heard when someone came outside and looked from his hiding place. He had seen Miley and Joe and listened as they talked. He had thought that it would be a two minutes conversation, but it had turned out to be one hour conversation. He had stayed in the hide and heard as the two of them talked about their biggest fears in the world. He thought about taping it, so he could use it against her at some point. But when his phone was on the camera mode, that's when the two of them had kissed and he had taken the money shot.

He was angry, sad, disappointed and bitter. The two of them, how could they do this to him? And Miley had a boyfriend! She's such a slut, she hasn't changed a bit. Nick thought and got angrier and angrier every second. He caved a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and light one up, maybe it would calm him down. After smoking his cigarette he had made up his mind. He knew what to do, and then he headed back inside.

AN okay so I once again hate the stupid googledocs and wordpad and nothing ever works with me.. i had some modifications to the text like some parts were italic, but whatever... hope you enjoyed this chapter, now people start reviewing ! cause i like to get nice reviews, it makes my day :) and by the way, if you like the secret life of the american teenager, check out my tslotat fic :) love ya xx

ps. this story WILL in the end be niley, so bare with me :)