Chapter 6
He knows. Oh Merlin he knows! I pace my rooms and than I just stop in the middle. Fuck that he knows I will not let it stop me from living my life.
Three days have past that I have not seen him nor heard from him. I do send out a little pray for this miracle but I should not count my blessing for it may end sooner than I think. In a week I have to go to poppy for my ultrasound to see how my baby is and if I can find out the sex of it would be nice. I try my hardest not to speak of my pregnancy at the teachers table for not even two seats away from me there he seats [I had changed my seat to try and get away from him and thanks to Mione she helps] that with Hogwarts having ears for walls, the whole school population knows of my pregnancy and have been trying to stare at me to see if it is true: I wish I could tell them to F*** off and show them the finger but alas I am a teacher and must show 'discipline' that I cannot, but that does not mean I can't take points off, this year all houses have a negative 400 points…mmm, I wonder who did that?
Anyway, aside from that I lean close to poppy so know one can over hear us and tell her what time would she like me to met her for the appointment and this woman not knowing what discreet is said out loud that Wednesday in the morning would be a good time for the ultrasound to be done. Can I kill her? Make it look like an accident. Well do you think I can? No, no Albus would be angry with me and than my child will be daddy less and I don't want that. I secretly glanced to the direction of Harry and it SEEMS as if he didn't hear it so I am going to go with that he had not heard and finish my meal to start my day.
Urgh! Idiots! They are becoming more stupid than they are! How the hell can you make your cauldron melt with just boiling WATER how is that possible even! What the hell did they do! And my own house nonetheless was the ones who did this. I feel so ashamed, but with the five-foot long essay I handed them and to write it in five-point size writing I am feeling a bit better.
Getting out of the shower and curling up in my favourite sofa with my hot chocolate [tell anyone and you die!] and my favourite book, I settle myself to a little me time that not even ten minutes into my book that someone had the grace to knock on my door. I glare at it to see if that would make that person go away but alas the knock still continued. I place my items on the table and angrily I walk to the door, yank it open and with 'F*** U' on the tip of my tongue it dies when I see who was standing there.
'Harry'
NO. NO. NO! I did not want to see him right now! I wanted a little piece and quite! Why can't I get that!
What do you want Mr. Potter
Oh. So we are back to our last names are we now.
I have no time to play games Mr. Potter to I ask you to leave
I wanted to slam the door but that stupid foot wouldn't allow me the pleasure. Wish I did not leave my wand on the table with my book.
May I come in Severus, I wish to speak with you
No you may not
Please it will only take a moment of your time
No
I beg of you just…
What part of NO do you not understand Potter! NO I do not want to speak to you! NO I do not want you in my rooms and NO I don't want to spare that moment. Goodbye now!
Shit. Being pregnant has made me weak. As I was going to slam the door again I get pushed back and he steps in and closes the door. Oh! I hate this!
I asked you kindly and by hell you we will talk Sev
DON'T CALL ME THAT! You have no right to call me that
Like hell I do! You are carrying my child and I have the right to be here with you!
No you don't! You've lost that right when you slept with Malfoy so do not come to me and say you have rights like hell you do!
OKAY! So I made a stupid mistake but Sev that is my child also and I should be able to be here for him.
No! No just leave! Please leave.
I have these emotions! I don't want him to see me cry! I know it had happen three months and some weeks ago but it feels like it was yesterday I turn around to not face him and try to stop these stubborn tears to stop flowing.
Sev. I am sorry, it was a stupid mistake that I did and I am paying for it with you not being by my side. I know you cannot forgive me for that and it will be hard to forget but please allow me to be there for my child. Even, even if you do not love me no more, which I hope you still hold a bit of love for me, to allow me to see my child. Please, I wont ask for more than what you will allow me.
I feel a hand on my shoulder and oh how I wish to turn around and hug him! Bury my face in his shoulder and tell him that I love him but I shake it off, wipe my face and turn around.
I will never forgive you for what you did to me. I don't want you near me but for my child I do not want to take away the love of his two parents. You are not allowed a FOOT in my rooms and I will tell you when and where we will meet. Do not touch me, hold me, hug me or kiss me. I want you to leave my room now.
Thank you. Has he turned around and was about to exit the room I tell me about my appointment at eight in the morning on Wednesday with Poppy and if he wants to be there to be on time. And I just killed myself, after I said that he turned around and gave me this smile that I had not seen for so long and says I love you Sev and thank you I fall in my sofa and cry. I must be strong to pass this.
Harry's POV
Leaving his room I walk a few steps away and jump with joy! Even though it was just his shoulder I touched, I TOUCHED him! I felt his heat against my fingers! I smelled his scent, I feel drunk with just that bit and when he said about the appointment I overheard poppy speak with him and have him invite me to it I am over the moon! I have so much to fix so we can be together again that I want it fast but I know it has to be done in baby steps. Sev, you are so close to me but yet so far for me to reach. My love we will be a happy family, I know that for sure.
Author note: sorry guys that I have not been on here for a while. Busy at work. Man! I am a part-time worker but they give me full time hours, not that I am complaining cause I do need the cash but still I want to relax. X3 well write some more… when I dunno when my next break is LOL JA NE!