Chapter 6
A couple of weeks later, Neji rang the bell of his boyfriend's house. Yes, they were together now. And Neji was going to do something that would change his life forever, probably. He was going to tell Sasuke who he really was. And he.. was going to tell what he had done. He'd told everything to his family. But he was going to tell him that he loved him with all his heart too. But it was going to be hard.
After a moment, Sasuke opened the door to Neji and smiled at him. "Hi." He said and let Neji into his house immediately. Neji had been given the key from his porch, since Sasuke didn't want Neji to have to call him every time he came over.
"Hey." Neji said with a smile, a bit nervous. He gave Sasuke a kiss on his mouth and then went in, taking off his jacket.
Sasuke closed the door again. "So how was your day so far?" He asked as the two walked into the living room and sat down on the couch together.
"Well, it was.. nice." Neji said as he breathed in deeply, once he was sitting comfortable on the couch. He'd better tell it now. "..Sasuke.. I have to tell you something. But before I tell you, you have to know that I've never been in love with someone like I'm with you in my whole life.. for if you'd doubt it in a few minutes.."
Sasuke looked at him confused. He just stared at him for a little while. ".. Why would I doubt that? What do you have to tell me?" He finally asked.
"...I lied to you about my... well.. family life." Neji softly said, not daring to look at Sasuke. He then moved to his eyes with his hands as he removed the contacts with his hands. "...I got an appointment to get you to fall in love with me.. and then tell everything I found out to my.. family.." He bit his lip as he had the contacts removed and then looked at Sasuke, while tears filled his eyes.
Sasuke just stared at Neji in disbelief. Neji's eyes were not brown. He had known all along that didn't fit. They were white. White.. just like that of the Hyuuga's.
".. Hyuuga.." He whispered. Damn this hurt.
Neji bit his lip as he felt himself becoming sick.
"..I'm Hyuuga Neji.." He whispered, looking back. "..I'm so sorry Sasuke.."
Sasuke looked at Neji, feeling himself start to panic. What should he do now? Kill Neji? Get his family? What should he do? He felt angry. Betrayed. He finally pulled out his gun and pointed it at Neji's head. He said nothing though.
Neji swallowed as he kept looking back at Sasuke, startled. Afraid even. But he couldn't stop the tears that came out of his eyes.
"...S-Sasuke I love you..." He softly said.
"Shut up." Sasuke hissed. "Get up the stairs now." He snapped. It was all he could do. All he could do was to keep Neji here, locked away, until he knew what to do.
Neji looked at Sasuke and then stood, a bit shakily, as he walked towards the stairs. He heard that Sasuke was following him. It hurt so much.. he knew Sasuke should be angry, but it still hurt now he finally told the truth.. but it was right that Sasuke acted like this. Neji betrayed him. And not a little bit.
Sasuke made Neji walk up the stairs and into his room, where he could keep a good eye on him. "Get on the bed." He snapped. It still hurt to do this. Neji betrayed him.. But he was probably very good at getting people to love him. Because Sasuke sure as hell did.
Neji bit his lip again as he crawled on the bed and then looked at Sasuke. What would he do..? Would Sasuke kill him? Torture him for information..?
Sasuke was breathing raggedly and then walked to his cabinet. He pulled out a rope and still held the gun pointed to Neji. He then pushed Neji to the bed and started binding him up. It took him far more effort to keep tears from streaming down his face though.
"..S-Sasuke I'm so sorry.." Neji whispered. "..I wanted to s-stop, but I couldn't because of my family, they'd stop me from seeing you if I s-stopped the job.." He didn't struggle as Sasuke tied his arms in front of him.
"Shut up Neji, I don't want to hear it. I don't know what your plan was when you told me this, maybe you thought I would trust you then. But I don't. And I will never fall for it again. Or you." He snapped and then pulled Neji up, pushing him onto a chair. He then made sure Neji got tied up to the chair too.
Neji looked at Sasuke while he breathed in deeply.
"I know you have reason enough to hate me now Sasuke.. I just well.. want you to know that I really love you.." Neji said. He could easily get loose like this, with his hands bound before him. He had a knife nearby, and if Sasuke found that one, he could loosen himself with his teeth. Was Sasuke doing this because he wanted him to escape..? Or was he too confused to think clearly?
"Shut up!" Sasuke yelled and pulled the ropes tighter out of frustration. "You're staying here." He snapped as he finished tying Neji. It wasn't his best work, but Neji wouldn't get out once he locked the door. The window was too high to jump off.
Neji bit his lip again as Sasuke pulled at the ropes so hard. He then nodded, but he knew that he had to get out of here. Although.. if Sasuke locked the door, he wouldn't get out that easily. But the window had to work. There were stuff enough in here to use to get out. Like those sheets on Sasuke's bed.
Sasuke started searching for guns or knives and found a couple. He threw them away. "You know, I really thought you liked me. I really thought someone finally accepted me. But you were just here to kill me and get information. You'll pay for that." Sasuke snapped as he bound Neji's feet to the chair now, realising he forgot that.
"...I love you Sasuke, I swear it.. why would I tell you all of this if I just wanted to kill you?" Neji asked, but he didn't talk loud. "...And what are you going to do to me now?" Pay for it? The way Sasuke said that wasn't sounding all too friendly. But that wasn't strange.
"I.. I don't know yet." Sasuke snapped. "And I don't believe you either. Now shut up." He said and then turned around, walking to the door. He couldn't handle this at all. He had been so close to being happy and Neji just ripped it all away from him. It had all been a lie. Nothing more.
Neji looked at him and then looked away, feeling tears rising up in his eyes again. Damn it.
"I hate you." Sasuke managed to get out before he shut the door closed and locked it. He then finally broke down into tears. Something he had promised himself he would never ever do. But he had said that about falling in love too.
After a while, the door opened again and Sasuke came storming inside. "You know! I just can't believe you did this! It was a nasty trick you pulled and you are the worst person I know! You're worse then anyone in my family and they killed more people then all other murderers together!" He yelled to Neji, furious and upset.
Neji looked up to Sasuke now. Those words hurt, but they were true.
"..Sasuke I already told you what happened." Neji said. "And I know it was cruel. But it was an order.."
"I don't care! It was all just a big fat lie! Do you really think I will believe you Neji!? Do you!? Because I don't! I don't believe you care, I don't believe this hurts you and I don't believe you EVER loved me! It was all a lie! Just like you!" Sasuke yelled and hit a cabinet next to him.
Neji looked at Sasuke a little startled.
"...I know you don't believe me." He muttered.
"Then don't try to convince me! It's hard enough without you lying to me over and over again about that you love me! You don't love me! And I hate it! I hate you!" Sasuke yelled. He pushed Neji's chair over, making it fall onto it's back. He couldn't look at him and he had anger management problems after all.
Neji winced as the chair fell back and then to the side, so Neji was laying on the floor on his side too.
"But I really love you!" Neji yelled now.
"NO YOU DON'T! SHUT UP NEJI! I hate it how you try to manipulate me like that! I won't fall for it again! I'll never fall for it again! You ruined it! It's not like you care, but you did!" Sasuke yelled as he threw a book to the wall now. He hated this so much. Yelling was all he could do. He couldn't break down in front of Neji. No matter how much he wanted to.
"I 'do' care!" Neji yelled. "It was an act in the beginning but after a few days I really started to fall in love with you! I'm in love with you and I love you!"
"Shut up!" Sasuke yelled and kicked the chair again. He couldn't hear this anymore. He just couldn't. One more 'I love you' and he 'would' break down. If Neji just shut up.
Neji stared at the ground where he was laying on now while the tears kept coming.
"..I'm sorry.." He whispered, closing his eyes. "...You should just.. kill me.."
"Yes I should!" Sasuke yelled. It was all he could say right now. He knew he should. He knew it. But he couldn't. And it was stupid and unprofessional. But he couldn't help it. He loved Neji.
Neji looked at Sasuke now.
"...Then do it." He said.
Sasuke stared at Neji for a while, his lip trembling. He then broke out in tears again. "..I c-can't.." He said, hiding his face in his hand.
"..Sasuke I.. I did something horrible and I should've cancelled it.. but... I j-just didn't want to live without you anymore.." Neji softly said.
"..D-don't say that.. You're just trying to get back on the mission.. to get out.. I can't believe you but I don't w-want to lose you.." Sasuke sobbed as he kneeled down on the floor, putting his head in his arms.
"..Sasuke... why would I tell you this...?" Neji softly asked. "...If I wanted to go on with the mission, I'd never have told you.. The only thing I want to reach now is that you know the truth.. because you have the right to.." He then sighed. "You should just kill me now... since if you won't, your family will.. or 'my' family will.."
".. I love you.. I can't kill you, I love you.." Sasuke said desperate. He looked at Neji now and pulled the chair up again. He then started untying Neji, tears still pouring down. "Go home.." He softly said once he was done.
"..Sasuke I can't... and I can't watch you being sad either.." Neji softly said, looking back at Sasuke. He kept sitting on the chair.
".. Just go OK.." Sasuke said and didn't look at Neji. It was over either way. They couldn't continue this. Not even if Neji loved him back.
"...T-then.. can I kiss you for the l-last time..?" Neji asked, once again, tears in his eyes. He stood now, still looking at Sasuke.
"..I don't know.." Sasuke said, taking a step back from Neji. ".. It didn't mean anything to you did it?" Sasuke asked softly.
"..You mean everything to me Sasuke.." Neji said, looking away, while biting his lip once again. It was becoming quite a habit. "..Can I please.. please... kiss you one last time..? I just.. don't want everything to end without having kissed you.. if only to apologise."
".. I don't want it to be a last time.." Sasuke said and finally looked at Neji with watery eyes. ".. You should've never done this.."
"..I'm glad I did it.. else I wouldn't have met you.." Neji said, knowing that he was going to break down. "..W-whatever happens now, whatever I do, I'll be killed.. and I prefer it to be you then my family.. or yours.. who already took the life of my father and mother.."
".. I'm sorry.." Sasuke said. His family had killed Neji's parents after all. ".. I can't kill you Neji.. You can't ask that of me.." He said, feeling more tears make its way down his face.
Neji looked at him and then nodded, swallowing.
"..Then m-my family will." Neji softly said. "..I just want you to know.. I love you with my whole heart Sasuke.. I'm glad I met you.."
".. I love you too.. Don't go Neji.. Please.." Sasuke said softly and looked at Neji desperate. If Neji went, he would never be able to trust. And worst of all, he would never be able to love anyone again, he was sure of that.
Neji looked at him and then tossed himself into Sasuke's arms, breaking down.
"...I'm so, 'so' sorry Sasuke.." He sobbed.
Sasuke grabbed Neji and started crying again too. ".. I g-guess it's not your fault.." He said. If Neji left he... he would be so unhappy.
"..It is.. it is.." Neji sobbed, clenching himself to Sasuke. "..S-Sasuke I love you so much.. I always will.." This was so hard. He was going to be killed as soon as his family found out about this.. if Sasuke's family wouldn't kill him first. He'd never be together with Sasuke.
".. Neji we have to figure this out.. Please.. They don't have to know.." Sasuke sobbed, holding onto Neji for dear life. He had never felt so close to someone in his life. And especially not in such a short time.
"...I'm s-scared.." Neji said, so soft it was almost not hear able. He'd never been scared. But now he was. Scared to lose Sasuke. Scared to be apart of him. And scared to die.
".. It's OK.. We'll figure it out.. I promise we will.." Sasuke said and couldn't help but smile a little. Neji really was vulnerable right now.
Neji nodded as he held onto Sasuke even more tight.
"..I'm so sorry.." He whispered again.
".. I know.." Sasuke softly said. He sat himself and Neji down onto the bed. ".. It's just a crappy situation."
Neji sat down onto Sasuke's lap.
"...I swear this is no part of the plan.." He softly said, putting his head onto Sasuke's shoulder.
".. I know.. Not even for the top missions would someone like you say you're scared." Sasuke said and pulled Neji closer.
Neji nodded as he closed his eyes.
"..That's true.." He softly said, feeling so tired all of a sudden.
"..Don't ever lie to me again.." Sasuke said as he stroke through Neji's hair. He still felt bad about it all.
"..I won't.." Neji whispered. He sighed as he stroke through Sasuke's hair. "..I really screwed up, didn't I..?"
"Yes you did.. But it was just your mission.." Sasuke said. It felt bad to say it, but that was all it was.
Neji nodded.
"..It was.." Neji muttered. He then looked at Sasuke, leaning back a little. "I'll do everything to make this up to you Sasuke.. everything."
Sasuke smiled a little, although it was fake. "It's OK Neji. It was a mission, you had to do it." He said.
"..I had." Neji said, looking away. "..I hate the missions they gave me.. they gave everyone. I never liked the whole Mafia thing. It's just.. not my thing. I don't know.." He sighed, as he looked into Sasuke's eyes again. "..What would be wise to do now? What would you do?"
".. I don't know Neji.. I really don't. All you can do is go back and pretend that I still don't know anything about this.." Sasuke said and looked away from Neji. It was hard to stare in those white eyes after having got to know brown ones.
Neji looked at Sasuke sadly. It sounded like Sasuke didn't wanted him anymore.
"..Perhaps.." Neji muttered. "..They will know very soon.. but if you think that's the best solution I will do it.. I'm sorry.."
"I told you it's OK." Sasuke said. "And maybe they will know.. We can't get out of this anyway.."
Neji nodded as he bit his lip, looking away as well. At that moment, they could hear the door downstairs close, and Neji looked at Sasuke, a bit startled. Who would be there?
Sasuke looked at Neji and then quickly looked away again as his eyes met Neji's white ones. He then pushed Neji of his lap. "It's my family. Neji you.. You have to get out of here." Sasuke said.
Neji looked at Sasuke, hurt that the love of his life didn't even wanted to look into his eyes anymore.
"You know I can't Sasuke, I can't get out of this window." Neji softly said.
"Sasuke are you there?!" Itachi's voice suddenly sounded from downstairs.
"Yes I am!" Sasuke yelled back to his brother, knowing otherwise they would search the entire house anyhow. "We have to think of something. They can't find you." He hissed at Neji.
"What do you want me to do, hide in your wardrobe?" Neji whispered, looking at Sasuke.
"Alright, we're coming!" Itachi yelled from downstairs. They often went upstairs to go to Sasuke, when he was upstairs. Only sometimes, like the other time, they were too lazy and just stayed downstairs. But now, footsteps could be heard on the stairs.
"I don't know Neji." Sasuke said, desperately thinking of a plan. Maybe his family wouldn't notice Neji's eyes. Or the chair. Or whatever. But the chances weren't big. The Mafia wouldn't think this was normal. Nothing was normal to them.
Neji frowned as he looked at Sasuke, and at that moment the door flew open and there was Itachi, with an arrogant smirk on his face.
"Hello baby brother." He said to Sasuke and then looked at Neji. "Oh, am I interrupting a romantic moment?" He teased, when he heard Kenji and Satumo enter as well.
"I'm not a baby. And no.. We were just.. talking." Sasuke said. Dammit, how was he supposed to get Neji out of here alive?
"But you are my little brother." Itachi said, bringing up an eyebrow. "And alright. We're going to have another meeting, and-" He stopped talking as he looked at Neji. At Neji's eyes. Neji himself inwardly swallowed. Oh god...
"Hey Itachi, what's up with you? He's Sasuke boyfriend remember, you can't ogle him." Satumo said and frowned. Sasuke stared at Itachi. God he knew. Sasuke was so sure he knew. What should he do now?
"Satumo, would you be so nice to get mister 'Hyuuga' downstairs with me?"