An analysis from afar

by Whavey

We had it all, we thought... It was shortly after my promotion when my feelings popped up. It was her that made me feel reborn, warm, safe and most of all, alive. In a period where homophobia was a thing, I wanted her more than I wanted anything. But was the team going to suffer too? (repost from my Wattpad story An Analysis From Afar, account name also Whavey)

6. Chapter 4

Eefje

I dragged Trevor to the small janitor's closet and closed the door. "What is it Eefje?" He asks me and I look at him. "I don't think I am as straight as I thought I was." I tell him and he looks at me. "Is it that DMF jungler?" He asks me and I nod "It is so weird. The one moment she looks at me and I feel all warm and cosy inside, and the next one she is flirting with men and I am so jealous." I say and he pulls me in a hug. "Trevor, I don't understand it. One second I am fine and one look later and I have trouble focussing. I had so much trouble today when she was there." I tell him and he looks at me. "You sound like me, when I first started to get together with Becca. I was too shy and too proud to admit that she was the part of me that completed me, but now? I am so happy I proposed to her." He says and I shrug. "Yeah but you didn't have to face the fact that you were gay, did you?" I say and he nods. "That is a problem, but wait for it. I am pretty sure that Lizzy isn't who people think she is. Sure, she is flirty but I doubt that any of it is really true. I think she is not as straight as she lets people think she is." Trevor says and I nod, looking down. "I don't know Trevor. I mean, I knew I dated Mitch, and that David and I have been messing for a while before deciding we weren't the true ones for one and another. I gave up on it. I mean I even joked that I date my computer, and then she comes and I don't know anymore." I say and Trevor pulls me in a tight hug. "Eefje, calm, it will be okay." He whispers in my ear and I nod, fighting the tears back. We walk out and I go to my apartment and he to his.

I lay awake in my bed, tossing and turning. At one point I accept the fact that I really can't sleep and get out to drink something. As I boil water for my tea, I see people tagging me in a tweet from DMF_FeedMe. I open the tweet and hold in my breath.

"Tweet from my heart. Crush officially noticed me. Too excited to sleep. Love my G"

I gasped. People were suggesting it was either me, Yulia the referee, Krepo or Deficio. I sigh as Mitch send me a text. "Saw her tweet?" He asks and I sigh. "Call?" I ask and he sends back that he is in a skype call with Yulia and Deficio. "Add me too." I send back as I start up my PC. I put on my headset and pick up the call. "I don't believe why everyone is hinting at us though. I mean they all know we aren't the most active on the dating side of life." Martin says and I laugh bitterly. "That is why Martin. Don't you get it. The notice was an obvious hint to the non-dating caster. After I spend time in NA with first David and then Mitch, I gave up on dating. Everyone knows I don't date." I say and Mitch hums. "Also same for me. As soon as Eefje and I were over, I didn't date anymore. Tried, yes, but gave up not much later." He tells us and I sigh. "And the G at the end is a possible hint to a girl. On the EU side, Eefje and I are the only girls that are live. That is why they tagged me in it. They all know we are the only possible girls on the EU side." Yulia adds. "That just doesn't explain Martin." I say after a long silence and suddenly a voice pops up. "It does." Says Mitch and I frown. "What do you mean?" Martin says and Mitch laughs and sends a link in the chat. We all open it and facepalm. It is from Ao3 and it is pretty smutty. "What is this based of?" Yulia asks as we read it. "Week 3 day 1 when Lizzy blew a kiss to the Caster desk. And since Quickshot is clearly engaged, it had to be for Martin." Mitch says with his voice laced in pure bitterness. I sigh and rub my head. "Guys I am going to try to defeat my insomnia and sleep. This is giving me a headache. We will talk tomorrow." I say and they all say goodnight before I disconnect.

The next morning, I wake up after two hours of sleep. I send a text to mama to ask how it is at home and read the Daily Dot. Suddenly I feel an urge to check twitter and open it. I gasp as I see what Lizzy posted. "Seika Laurent new CEO of Darkness My Friend SeikaL_DMF" it reads and a link is added too. I click the link and it links to their brand new website. "DMF starts a CS:GO and Overwatch team, rumours about a Dota2 team." The headline reads. I sigh. Of course this was a next step for them. They are trending. Another tweet pops up from Lizzy. "Also welcome our new Analyst, Freyja! Freyja_DMF" It reads as Freyja poses with Lizzy. I see that Mitch calls me and pick up. "DMF is getting in the game world." He says and I hum, opening my internet browser and googling Seika and Freyja. "Do you know any of the new people she hired?" I ask. "Yes. Seika has been a good friend of Lizzy for a while. Her main mod on Twitch and a trusted person. Freyja is a mystery. Some rumour it is a close friend of the coach, but I doubt it." He tells me and I nod. "I will see you at the rehearsals. I am gonna eat now and then I will head out to get early at work." I say and he closes the call.

Once I arrive backstage, the complete research team is busy with the latest facts. Kikis, who left G2, has now signed with an unknown team, also team was yet to be revealed, and of course Lizzy's tweet had to be treated. I open Instagram to post a "at work" selfie as I see a picture of Lizzy in her sport clothing. It is a clip of her breaking her former record and I can't help but stare at her flat stomach, that is visible because she is wearing a crop top. It isn't tanned or anything, just super flat and it suits her so good. Trevor comes next to me. "How are you doing?" He asks and I shrug. "Just a bit tired. Insomnia kicked in last night, barely 2 hours of sleep." I mutter and he smiles. Becca comes to stand with us and passes me and Trevor a cup of coffee. "Who is on the Post-Game lobby?" He asks and I shrug. "Probably Sencux or Gilius. Maybe Steve or Exileh." I answer and she looks at Trevor. "I got to get back to my place, but have fun tonight." She says, giving him a quick kiss before heading off. "She is amazing." I say and he nods. "And I am lucky that she is mine." He says and I smile.

An hour later we are in the studios. Today it is with Mitch and Andy. We are talking about some last minute things that came in and we check our twitter. I let one of the camera crew guys take a picture of me and post it on twitter. "Live in 10, come join us!" I tweet and I get a tweet back. "But we play last game, can't join :(" Lizzy tweets and my heart flutters. "5 minutes!" A voice behind the camera is heard and I put on my headset, grab my notes and a pen and sit straight. Some last minute touch-ups are done and suddenly we are live again.

"And then the last game, match of the week, Darkness My Friend versus Fnatic. Any thoughts on this match?" I ask. I haven't been too distracted but now DMF pops up, my heart starts to flutter. "I think DMF is gonna show up big time here. Especially FeedMe and I only Jungle have been growing this split. Where FeedMe wanted to be the hero and I only Jungle was the more silent guy in the back, they both grew to be more in balance with the teams. That is a change we haven't seen in Fnatic who really is a team of moments now. Plus the fact that we haven't seen FeedMe play her soloqueue main Evelynn, and let me tell you, she is good with that pick." Mitch says and I smile. "Let me guess, you played against her?" Andy asks and he nods. "She came from behind, ulted and got a quadra before having to use her W to get out." He says and we laugh. "Andy, your expectations?" I ask and he smiles. "I am going with either a tie or Fnatic wins. Ezzieboy and SeaAngel are two different compartments in the team, where Fnatic is a team in every stage. Also if FeedMe picks the off meta Evelynn, there are plenty of ways to counter her, preventing early ganks and making sure she is zoned off." Andy explains. "We are sending this over to Quickshot and Tsepha to cast this game, and see who is going to win." I say and they nod.

An hour and a half later we are super surprised. The first game wasn't that exciting. A facecheck from Yellowstar decided the game. There were FeedMe, I only Jungle and ButtMuppet and they jumped. Because Yellowstar couldn't peel Rekkles anymore, they got I only Jungle a doublekill and when Febiven tried to engage, he got killed by FeedMe. They won the game of that.

But then the second game was different. FeedMe got her Evelynn and was an absolute pain in the ass for everyone. Spirit couldn't spot her but his jungle was gone constantly. What he didn't knew was that she had only been in his jungle. At one point she started to select her targets very well. She went to top, to remove a chance of TP, since the lane was pushed pretty fast. Then she ran botlane to gank and got off a quadra there. She was so fed at the end of the midgame that Fnatic bought the most pink wards in a EU LCS game ever, trying to stop her. At this point she was 8/0/3, and she was hungry for more. She threw away everything she didn't need and soon sleeper build Eve was facing Fnatic. Fnatic was defending their base when suddenly DMF retreated. We assumed they were Baron, and they were, but it was all bait. The ward that was at dragon pit brush showed three members, while FeedMe and SeaAngel were guarding the Baron. As soon as Fnatic appeared there to trade Baron for Dragon, FeedMe popped. We all sat in silence as the announcer voice went: "Shutdown, Double kill, Quadra kill, PENTAKILL, shut down." We stared at the screen. The camera focussed on FeedMe showed her grin as they pushed for their Nexus. "Send PiraTechnics to FeedMe?" I hear someone ask and I nod. "Yes please." Mitch says.

We sit there and look at the screen as FeedMe is being interviewed.

"So FeedMe, this was quite an interesting game, and I forgot to bring my cue cards because I don't think I will need them. Do you think you made Evelynn viable now?" Pira asks and she shakes her head. "Absolutely nod. I just had some good ganks when I got the penta, and SeaAngel knew my weak spots so when Fnatic showed up, he set it all up. We were just super lucky." She says and I look at Mitch. "They weren't" he mouths me and I nod. After a couple more questions, it is send to the shoutcasters and back to us. "Well thank you Deficio and Quickshot, and we are back after this intense last game. I think we all sat there in awe. Mitch can you kick things off with what you thought of the game?" I ask and he looks at me. "I mean I don't think FeedMe is going to see Eve in the next few weeks. She is very dangerous with Evelynn and she knows how to pick her fights. But then her team makes her the eye catcher, which makes me wonder, is there another hidden secret behind the focus on FeedMe." He says and Andy jumps in. "Not only that, but we also saw ButtMuppet being a huge master at baiting the botlane into over extending and then being punished for it by FeedMe or Ezzieboy. I think we have to wonder what they can't play." Andy says and then Exileh, who joined right after his game, opens his mouth. "She is the worst nightmare of every midlaner. We often roam and make sure our side lanes are safe, but she makes it impossible. She knows how to force you from farm to stay alive, and I really think she is the Faker of the jungle. But also Ezzieboy, I think he is the replacement of Febiven or Faker, because holy shit that guy has talent. He knows how to force the enemy in wasting mana while he plans out the ganks way before he calls for it. And ButtMuppet and I only Jungle are the botlane of doom. They have more map awareness than the average player and are very flexible when it comes to picks. Ezzieboy and SeaAngel have a small champion pool but their jungle and botlane makes up for that." Exileh tells us and we nod. "Well lets open the post-game lobby after quite a day." I say and we go on. At this moment we didn't knew what their plans were for the next week, where they faced Fnatic and H2k. We didn't knew about their ideas and drafts. The only thing we did know, was that they had a chance of going to worlds.