Author's Note: I apologize for the long wait but to be honest I didn't think I would come back to this story…I did it because there are still people reading it and they deserve to more than an unfinished fragment…I'm sorry that this chapter is a bit rough, I'll work it over later.
If someone told me he could see Cyclops flaring anger through his ruby-lensed visor I would have probably laughed right in his face. But I can feel the heat in his gaze, the suppressed rage. "I have been looking for you.", those six words, spoken so calm, so controlled, send a shiver down my spine. For the first time ever I am scared of him and I think I may have gotten a glimpse of what his enemies get to see, before he is about to strike.
I am so afraid I am paralyzed, I can't look away from him and that makes it so much worse.
Jubilee however doesn't seem fazed by her former leader. She greets him and immediately starts to tell him how she found me…he doesn't seem to be listening. At least he isn't looking at her. His gaze is still locked with mine. What made him so furious? Who made him so furious?
Finally, after what feels like an eternity, he pries his gaze away from mine and focuses on Jubilee.
I'm not really paying attention to what he says because I am suddenly hit with the realization that his voice sounds completely normal while he is talking to her. He isn't mad at me, is he? I didn't do anything wrong. Maybe his chilly tone was just my imagination…but then again I did definitely not imagine his ice cold stare.
I am brought out of my silent pondering by Jubilee, who once again hugs me so tight it squeezes the air out of my lungs, before waving a quick good bye to Scott while walking away.
Where is she going? Why did she leave me alone with him? I am afraid to look up because I fear Cyclops will once again hold my eyes captive if I let myself look at him for a second too long. It is scary though, not to see what he is doing, what his expression looks like. I still feel his gaze on me and that makes me even more uncomfortable than the silence that settled around us since Jubilee left.
It is only seconds before he speaks again, but to me the silence feels like an eternity. And yet I would have preferred the silence if I had known what was about to come…
"Why are you here?", his voice is calm but dripping of cold anger. I struggle to hide the shiver running down my spine. Somehow I start to feel cold although the sun is still shining brightly. Why am I here? Good question. I asked myself that a couple of times already…and yet I have no idea why he should be mad at me…I mean I didn't do anything wrong, right? I just went to the garden…I mean I wasn't going to run away or anything…What is the big deal? Somehow he managed to activate my stubborn streak because his anger is kind of fuelling mine. What right does he have to be angry with me? I didn't do anything! Stupid righteous prick! He's probably just angry because I didn't follow his orders…Well I am not a lapdog for him or the professor to order about! I force myself to lock my gaze with his which turns out to be a huge mistake, because somehow I loose my spunk once I see his fury directed at me and I want to start apologizing…although I still have no idea what I could have done wrong…
His patience seems to grow thinner since his eyebrows are almost touching by now…I should really come up with an answer…and fast…
"I asked you a question." Oh oh…think woman…think! I'm dead. Really I'll die. I'm sure of it.
"I wanted some fresh air?", somehow my mumbled response sounds more like a question. He is really scaring me now. I wonder if the crime I committed was evil enough to earn myself some laser burns from those gorgeous eyes…now where did that come from? Anyway Scott wouldn't really attack me, right? He looks as if he's thinking about it though…
"Fresh air? Really? Then open a window, damn it!" Wow Cyclops and sarcasm…he's really losing it. I just stare at him. It would really help if I knew what this was about but I am way too scared to ask now…
"What were you thinking?", I am not sure Scott is aware of the fact that by now he is very close to making a scene. Already some heads were turned our way and only the fact that Scott's angry voice apparently was pretty quiet saved us from one so far.
"Maybe we should discuss this inside?", once again my suggestion turns out to be a question.
"Yeah. Sure why not. And where exactly would we go, huh? The kitchen? Yeah let's keep Logan and Jean some company or maybe…", he must have noticed now that I had no idea where he was going with this…because he stopped his sarcastic lecture to swear under his breath. At least I think he swore. Cyclops swearing is a bit weird isn't it? But Scott can swear apparently…oh I really have to stop thinking about his as if he was two persons…
"You have no idea what you did right?" He lets out an exasperated sigh. His anger seems to have calmed down some though I still feel on edge around him.
I finally get enough of my wits back to ask: "Please, can we just go somewhere else? Everybody is staring…maybe...upstairs?" Even I can hear how timid I sound and I think it is just plain childish that I can't bring myself to say his room…but I can't say it. No way. He is still my teacher after all. Plus you never know who is listening which reminds me…oh crap. ..No. He is looking at me as if I turned completely insane and the shame makes my cheeks flush bright red. Jubilee said that she thought I was in the South…because that's what everyone said. Because the professor may be ok with me living together with my teacher and captain but the other students might come to different conclusions…Oh god. I feel so stupid. Now I have to go back to my old room…and Logan will come to talk to me and…I don't realize my heavy breathing until Scott…Cyclops…Mr Summers…I don't even know how to call him now puts his hand on my shoulder. "Calm down, Rogue, okay? Think of the scene we would make if you fainted on me now, okay?" I nod and try to control my breathing. I could kill myself for my stupidity. And poor Scott…he said he needed me and now I screwed up. Royally. We both had to go back to suffering alone now. "I am so sorry, I didn't think and I really just needed some space…I already wanted to go back inside once your door closed behind me but then I realized I had no key and…god…I'm really sorry. I'll go back to my room right away and then you won't get any problems, I'll just say I was sick the last couple of days and…he smiles down at me and I know his anger vanished as quickly as it came. "That won't solve the problem. "Only then I see the hint of sadness in his eyes. "Jean knows you haven't been with Hank…And besides…are you ready to face Logan again?"
He must have seen the fear in my eyes because his gaze became soft and his hand gave my shoulder a light squeeze. "Don't worry, I'll work something out so you can stay with me…If you want that is?", yes I wanted nothing more (besides being with Logan of course) than stay with him but I didn't want to get him in any trouble…"I don't want to get you in trouble…", I voiced my thoughts. His smile grew at that. "That the only reason you are hesitating?", "Yes. I already messed up your life enough…I think…", I got a laugh out of him with that. I don't know why though. It didn't sound funny to me. "Then come. Let's go back inside. I have to word something out. With that he had his arm around my waist and led me inside. Not caring if anyone saw or not. I was horrified. He was so dead. And he didn't even care! The smile in his face had vanished though so he must have known what he was doing…I hoped…
Just before we reached the door he leaned down to me and whispered softly in my ear: "And FYI you leave like that again, be sure that I'll come for you. If you want me to or not."
He was so close I felt his breath tickle my earlobe, but that wasn't what would keep me up that night. I was that voice. The same cold fury I heared when he caught me talking to Jubilee.
Boy was I in trouble.
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