James: I Can Die a Happy Man

"So you told her everything?" Remus said.

I told the guys that I told our secret to Lily and they were actually okay with it. Knowing Remus, he might have gotten really pissed, but he's cool with it. I'm not the only one who thinks she's trustworthy.

"Who cares about that? You kissed her and she didn't slap you or hex you! That's a great start mate!" said Sirius patting my back.

I smile whishing hard he was right. Yesh, I sound like a love sick puppy. If she wants just friendship, I'll take it, because being with her feels right and easy. You see what I mean when I say love sick puppy?

"You sound like a girl Padfoot." I shouldn't be talking, I feel too warm inside when I think of Lily.

"Yeah you should be talking (he puts on a high voice) Oh, I think lily notice me! Oh I can't get her out of my mind!"

Before I can make a smart ass reply, Remus says seriously,

"If she does fall for you Prongs, don't break her heart. You do know what will happen. Miss Evans isn't known for having great temper." Great, dating lessons with Moony. I'm going to have to look down my pants to know I'm still a man.

"Trust me Moony, I think I known that the first day I talked to her. Beside you know I wouldn't do that like some people here." I look at Sirius

Sirius looks uncomfortable.

"You guys, I have to end it with Vanessa. It's been going on too long."

"Lily will kill you."

"Nah, I'll hide behind Prongs."

"When do you not?"

"But I thought you really liked her." Said Remus confused. I don't know why the guys are confused. Sirius had never stayed with a girl for more than three weeks.

"I do! That's the problem!"

Remus and I roll our eyes. That little player. Oh well, he can do what he wants, I won't stop him. I suddenly feel frustrated at Lily. Why was she always so difficult! Why couldn't she just have one little date with me? Maybe I wasn't Hogwarts number one hottie anymore. Nah that will happen when Remus gets a Dreadful on his NEWTS. But I know I won't rest in peace until I get at least one date with Lily, and trust me, I will get a date with Lily if it's the last thing I do.

"Guys, we should get to bed, its pass curfew."

Sirius said "Well, duh! That's the whole point of having a head boy, and a perfect in the group."

"Just because I'm a perfect, and James is Head boy doesn't mean we can get you guys out of trouble. That's not what it is about, right Prongs?"

"Of course it is!"

"Why do I even bother?"

Sirius yawns loudly, sounding like a dog.

"Well you can stop bothering, I'm going to bed."

I don't want to go to bed in my room, instead I feel like lying in front of the warm fire and sleep there. They look back,

"You coming Prongs?"

But I'm not listening; I'm remembering the softness of Lily's hand, her cute sexy laugh, the way she pouts when she's pissed. I wonder what it'll be like to kiss her soft lips, no more space between us….

"Prongs!"

"Hugh?"

"I love you Prongs, but not that way!"

I look down to see my hands wrap around Sirius arms, and I'm moving towards him. Bloody hell, I let go quickly. Remus and Peter start laughing.

"Let's pretend that never happened."

"Agreed."

"Okay, let's go to bed." Said Remus when he finally stops rolling in the floor with laughter.

"I'll be there in a minute, you guys go ahead."

They shrug, but don't question me. Once they left, I close my eyes and go back to daydreaming…

Hiccup

My hand on her back, her hand on my hair, pulling me closer like I was her last dose of air…

Hiccup

What is that noise? Annoyed, I open my eyes and look around. Then I see her. Lily was sitting in the couch, crutching a paper, and sobbing quietly.

"Lily, is that you?"I say softly. It's a dumb question, knowing already it was her, but I didn't want to startle her.

With a hiccup she looks up, startled. Her eyes are puffy and red and tears are falling down her cheeks, but she still looks as beautiful as ever.

"Oh James, I'm sorry, I didn't see you there." She hiccups.

I stood up and sit next to her. Should I comfort her? Come on you coward! Put your arm around her. Finally my arm obeys and wraps around her. She hiccups again, and lays her head on my chest.

"Lily, what's wrong?" I stroke her soft cheek carefully.

She hands me the paper in her hand and buries her face in my robe again.

The paper reads:

Dear abnormal freak

Mom and Dad are making me tell you my wonderful news. I'm getting married this winter. Vernon proposed to me and of course, I said yes. I won't tell you the details, because you're not worth it. Anyways, Mom and Dad are making me invite you. I think they just want to ruin my day. But who cares, I'll move in with Vernon and I won't have to see you're hideous face ever again. This is a formal event, so don't act like the freak that you are, try (even though you won't achieve) to look nice, and bring a date, if you can even get one. Mom will tell you the date.

Lots of hate,

Petunia

I clench my teeth. How can anyone be so cruel to my Lily flower! How can she be related to her! If she were anyone but Lily's sister, I swear, I'll make her apologize.

"When we were little, we promise we will be each other's bridesmaid, and we were going to help each other find the perfect dress. Now she doesn't even want me to come." She says miserably, making me hate her sister even more.

"I'm so sorry Lily, but listen to this; she's not worth your tears. She's not worth crying over." I say, while wiping the tear on her face.

With one last hiccup, she raises her head, and shifts away from me. I reach out to her, wanting her back in my arms, but drop them quickly.

"You're right, I shouldn't be crying for something stupid. I don't know if I should go though." Her pretty face goes back to the strong Lily I know, clearly not wanting to be seen crying.

"Do you want to go?"

"I don't know. It's during Christmas break, so I can go, and I don't want her to get the satisfaction of scaring me off. I also want to see my parents. Yeah, I'm going, but she's right, who will want to go with me?"

Who wouldn't want to go with her!

"Lily, almost all the wizards at Hogwarts will be dying to go with you. Including me. There...um...kinda of afraid if me though. It's no secret I'm crazy for you, and I know some pretty good hexes."

Lily giggles, which is so unlike her and so terribly cute, it hurts. She stops quickly and looks at me.

"What did you say?"

Oh uh, maybe I shouldn't have told her those last sentences.

"That I'll hex anyone who asks you out."

"No, not that. That part when you said you will like to go with me."

"Yeah, I definitely will like to go with you. You of all people should know." I roll me eyes at her to lighten the mood.

"Will you then?"

"Will I what?"

"Go with me."

No way! Did Lily just ask me out? I can't believe she just did. After all those times I asked her out, she asked me out. I can die a happy man.

"Seriously?"

She blushes and looks down at her hand.

"If you don't want to go, I understand."

"No, Of course I want to go with you! What should I wear?"

She smiles a dazzling smile at me.

"Thanks James, I'm really going to need a friend there."

My smile falls a bit, but she doesn't notice it. Of course, just as friends. The balloon in me popped.

She continued "This is going to be a formal event James, so you have to be well dress, and these are all muggles. You can't use, talk, or even think, about magic."

"Okay Lily. Easy as…um…."

"Pie, James."

"Right, I knew that. Easy as pie"

I smile at her, and in a blink of an eye, she's in my arms again, hugging me. I hug her back gently, enjoying the warmth of her body, pressing against mine. I breathe in deeply, her scent of vanilla in my nose. We stay curled up together, but after a while her hands fall to her side, and I notice she's fallen asleep. She's no longer crying, but she's heavy asleep.

With her arms still around her, I lay down, my head resting on the arm of the couch. She snuggles closer to me, her head still on my chest. I grin my biggest grin, sigh, and I tighten my hold on Lily. My eyes get droopy, and after a while, I fall asleep with Lily in my arms.

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