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Josh advanced on Jake who held his ground even though Josh was almost a head taller than him. He had been on Jake's case since Onyx mentioned his stomach issues a week before and Jake was losing his patience.
"I know you're hiding something Jake and if you don't tell me what it is I'll go to dad." Josh warned.
"And say what? Jake is hiding stuff from me and its hurting my feelings." Jake mocked.
"Stop with the bullshit Jake! You told Onyx there was something wrong with my stomach to cover something up. I know you did there's no logical reason for you to randomly just tell her that. Especially when it's not true."
Jake rolled his eyes," You really need to get out of daddy mode because it's seriously pissing me off."
"I'll tell her you're lying to her Jake."
Jake stepped closer to Josh so that they were a mere inch apart.
"What the fuck is wrong with you dude? I've told you a million times already that I was talking about someone else and she just got confused! All your going to accomplish is make her pissed at me over something that isn't a big deal."
Josh snorted," I know when your lying Jacob you forget how predictable you are."
Jake sighed in frustration, "Alright fine Josh! I hurt my back and I have some pills prescribed for it. I knew Onyx would get all worried so when she found them I told her they were yours."
Jake could see that Josh didn't completely believe him but he wasn't willing to tell him the complete truth. It wasn't any of Josh's business anyway.
"You hurt your back?" Josh questioned
"Yes."
"When?"
"You're so annoying dude, Get the fuck off my case!" Jake spat as he pushed past him and made his way to the galley.

Onyx looked up from the onions she was chopping as Jake sat down angrily at the galley table. She rolled her eyes it wasn't necessary for her to ask what was wrong to know that it had something to do with Josh. They had been at each others throat for days but neither of them would give her a sufficient answer as to why they were fighting. Josh had squeezed her shoulder and said it was just 'brother stuff', when she questioned him about it while Jake had simply told her to 'stay out of it'. Even though Jake and Josh's fighting was a little uncomfortable for her she was still in a really good mood.
Onyx had adjusted to boat life rather quickly. She hadn't been sea sick once, she cooked up to six full meals a day with great reception from the crew, and Dave was finally starting to be nice to her. Nice was a bit of an overstatement but at least he wasn't completely icy anymore. Besides the rare moments of quality time she spent with Jake her favorite thing to do on the boat was sit up in the wheel house with Phil.
She was confident there was no greater father in law on the planet. They had a lot in common, from their love of classic rock to their obsession with animal planet. Whenever Jake pissed her off Phil knew exactly what to say to calm her down. There was one particular thing he had said to her that she couldn't get out of her head, 'Yea Jakes a smart ass, he doesn't think before he speaks, and he always has to have the last word. But he honest to God loves you Onyx and he's tryin.' Onyx smiled as the words flooded back to her. She cleared her throat, "Jake do you want me to make you something special tonight?"
Jake looked up at her suspiciously, "why?"
"Because I love you silly."
"That was so corny." Jake laughed.
"Well fine, see if I ever try to be nice to you again!"
"Calm down tiger I was kidding."
Jake walked over and stood behind her wrapping his arms around her waist.
"Anything you cook is fine with me," he said as he placed a kiss on her shoulder blade.
"Well I want cupcakes." Ryan said lazily as he sat down at the table.
Onyx smiled, "I guess today is your lucky day."
Onyx nudged Jake away from her they had decided to keep the PDA to a minimum. In all actuality Onyx decided and Jake grudgingly agreed. Onyx wanted to fit in and be one of the guys and she couldn't do that if she and Jake were always all over each other.
Josh joined Ryan at the galley table his eyes immediately found Jake's and glared at him. Ryan rolled his eyes and gave Onyx a look that said, 'you'll get used to it.' "Ummm what kind of cup cakes do you like Josh?" Onyx said trying to break the tension.
Josh tore his gaze away from his brother and smiled, "It doesn't matter. I'll eat anything." He turned back to Jake, "You don't think they'll be to hard on my stomach do you Jake?"
Onyx glanced at Jake and saw him clenching his teeth and looking at Josh like he was trying to set him on fire. 'Why the hell are the acting like this?' She wondered. Nothing bad at all had just been said. Freddy and Dave walked in and Josh turned his attention to them instead of his brother. Onyx turned to Jake, "When are you two going to start being nice to each other? The three of us share a room and I don't like the tension or the looks you give me when I talk to him."
Jake decided to disregard the second half of what Onyx said,
"Ill start being nice to him when he stops being so fucking dumb."
Onyx sighed, "When are you guys going back out?"
"Twenty minutes."
Onyx nodded and continued chopping onions. Jake sat at the galley table next to Ryan and didn't acknowledge his brother any further.

Twenty minutes later the guys pulled on their gear and headed outside. Onyx finished prepping the food and decided to relax for a while before she actually started cooking. She pulled herself up onto her bunk and began to read. She found that she was soon reading the same line over and over and threw her book down. Onyx stretched pulled the blanket over her head deciding she would kill time by taking a nap. She tried to sleep but after an hour she gave up. Onyx made her way to the galley cussing fluently as she went. Onyx began cooking and two hours later she once again found herself bored. She looked down at the three dozen freshly frosted cupcakes, 'maybe I got a little carried away' she thought. Life on a crab boat wasn't nearly as exciting as she thought it was going to be. At least not for her since she was stuck inside. What she really wanted was to be out on deck with the boys, but she knew it was impossible. Onyx didn't think it would be that hard to convince Phil, it was Jake who would probably explode the moment she mentioned it. She sighed and headed up to wheel house. As she got to the top of the stairs she saw the familiar sight of Phil tapping his foot anxiously with a cigarette in one hand and a red bull in the other. Onyx sat down on the bench behind him she occupied so frequently. "What's wrong?" he asked without looking at her.
"Nothing." She replied
"Don't think I didn't hear all that cussing you were doing down there shrimp."
Onyx laughed, "Nothings wrong, I'm just bored."
Phil chuckled, "I could have told you life as a cook isn't that exciting."
Phil took a drag off of his cigarette and turned to look at her, "Onyx if it were up to me I would let you go outside and do bait but..."
"It is up to you." Onyx cut in.
"Jacob would murder me in my sleep if let you go out there." Phil continued
"I know." Onyx said sadly, "Why does he have to care so much about my safety?"
Phil laughed and shook his head, "You're something else! The boys will be working for a few more hours then they'll get a four hour break, at least you won't be too bored then."
"I'll have eight hours of cleaning to do after they leave the galley. That should keep me occupied."
Onyx sat in the wheel house with Phil until he called the boys inside. Then she happily made her way downstairs.

"I smell cupcakes!" Ryan yelled happily as he slid into the booth.
The rest of the guys piled in around him and began to eat. Onyx sat down next to Jake and rested her head on his shoulder. "Tired?" She asked
"Duh," He replied between mouthfuls, "but there's some stuff I need to take care of before I go to sleep."
Onyx gave him a questioning look and he winked back at her. Onyx rolled her eyes 'he's talking about sex.'
After they finished their food they dove into the cupcakes Ryan in the lead. Jake tried to nudge Onyx out of the booth, "Come on let's go back to the room."
Onyx narrowed her eyes, "You better eat some of those cupcakes or I'm not going anywhere."
Jake shoved a whole cupcake in his mouth. "Happy?" He asked although Onyx could barely understand him through the mouthful of cupcake.
"Not particularly." Onyx started to reply but Jake had already pushed her out of the booth and was dragging her to their room. Jake unceremoniously threw her up onto the bed and climbed up after her. "Um excuse me?" Onyx began but she became muffled as Jake pulled her shirt over her head. Jake yanked her leggings off and began undressing himself. "Jake can you calm down!" Onyx pleaded half amused. Jake smirked and shook his head as he climbed on top of her. Onyx tried to resist him she wanted to lay in bed and talk but as soon as his lips met hers she melted. Jake suddenly pulled away and sat up.
Onyx pouted, "What's wrong?"
"Condom." Was his only response as he began throwing stuff around their bunk.
After being hit in the face by a pillow and a book Onyx grabbed his arm, "Clearly they aren't up here Jake!"
"Where else would they be? I know we didn't use them all already."
"Just skip it."
Onyx pulled him towards her. Jake pulled his arm out of her grasp
"We can't skip it."
He pulled his boxers back on and jumped off the bunk. Jake proceeded to
throw around everything in their stateroom. "I think Josh took them to be an asshole." Jake said as he began looking through his brother's cabinets.
Onyx snorted, "That's highly unlikely. That sounds like something you would do not Josh.
Jake closed Josh's cabinets and gave Onyx a dirty look. Onyx laughed, "Come on we don't need them anyway."
She bit her lip uncomfortably She had said more than she intended to. Jake paused what he was doing and looked up at her. It wasn't so much what she said that bothered him it was how she reacted after she said it.
He pulled himself back onto the bed and stared at her for a moment. "Why don't we need them?" He finally asked.
She covered herself with the blanket and sighed. 'It's now or never' she thought. Unfortunately she hadn't imagined being completely naked when she finally told Jake what she'd been hiding from him.
Jake narrowed his eyes, "Why don't we need them?" he repeated. "I know you're not on birth control."
Onyx opened and closed her mouth she couldn't seem to make any words come out. "Well?" Jake demanded. She could already see his temper rising.
"I need to tell you something." Onyx said so quietly Jake barely heard her.
"What?" He said angrily
"I... There's something wrong with me."
Jake's eyebrows furrowed but he didn't say anything. She knew he was waiting for more.
"We don't need birth control because..., "Onyx took a deep breath, "because I can't produce children anyway."
Jake's face fell. Whatever he had been expecting she knew he hadn't been expecting that. "And when exactly were you going to tell me that?" Jake asked.
The forced calm in his voice made Onyx recoil slightly. She shrugged, "I was scared to."
He grabbed her arm and pulled her toward him. For a moment she thought he was going to wrap his arms around her like he had done so many times but then his grip tightened. "I must have mentioned us having kids dozens of times Onyx and you didn't think it was necessary to mention we were never going to have any?"
Onyx tried unsuccessfully to pull her arm away from him. Jake was small but very strong. "Well we can still adopt." Before the sentence had completely left her lips she knew it would make Jake even angrier.
"I don't want somebody else's kids Onyx!" He screamed in her face. Her lip quivered and she heard the voices in the galley falter.
"Jake please calm down." She pleaded
"Don't tell me to calm down! I can't believe you kept this from me! We're married Onyx!"
"I didn't tell you because I knew you would react like this! Don't tell me you don't hide things from me Jake! I'm not stupid those pills I found weren't Josh's!"
Jake released her arm and for a moment he seemed at a loss for words. "Don't...Don't turn this around." He finally managed.
Tears fell down Onyx's cheeks and Jake reached forward to wipe them away. She pushed his hand away from her. Onyx turned her back on him and curled up in the fetal position.
Jake lay down next to her and pulled her close to him. At his touch Onyx began to sob. Silent tears fell down Jake's face but neither one said anything. Onyx and Jake were each fuming mad but the guilt and sadness they were feeling trumped the anger.

An hour later Onyx still was laying in Jake's arms and he assumed she had fallen asleep. He tried to sleep but his mind raced. Jake had never lost control and yelled at Onyx like that. The only person he really lost his temper on was Josh, but when Onyx said she couldn't have kids something in him snapped. Three months ago the idea of him ever being a father was unimaginable but after he met Onyx the idea of having a family excited him.
"Jake?" Onyx whispered.
He jumped slightly, "yea?"
"Do you hate me?"
"I could never hate you."
He could feel her start to cry again and he held her closer.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I just didn't know how." She said as she tried to control her breathing.
"I know." He kissed the back of her head. "It's ok." He added.
Jake rubbed her back for a few minutes as she continued to cry. He had learned early on this comforted her.
"Jake?" She whispered once more.
"What?"
"Are you an addict?"
He smiled slightly at how blunt Onyx was, "No." He lied. Jake had known he was addicted to the pills within two weeks of having them prescribed. The pills weren't the only drugs he took but they were the only ones he 'needed'. He didn't think his addiction was that big of a deal. He could still function normally It wasn't as though he couldn't live without them if had to.
"Why do you take those pills then?"
"Fishing takes its toll on your body Onyx."
"Oh OK."
Jake was grateful she didn't ask why he lied to her. Guilt engulfed him as he realized she probably didn't ask because she was scared he was going to yell at her again."I love you with everything in me." He whispered into her ear. Onyx didn't reply. In the silence he heard her breathing deeply and realized she had finally fallen asleep. Jake looked at the clock mounted on the wall, he had to go back to work in just under two hours. He closed his eyes and drifted into a restless sleep.

Onyx slowly opened her eyes as she reached out for Jake. She frowned when she grabbed nothing but bed sheets. The crew was already back to work. She could hear their muffled yells coming from outside. Onyx rubbed her eyes wearily and hopped out of the bunk. She reached out her hand to pull open the door when she thought of something and paused. Onyx ran back across the room to her bunk. Standing on her tip toes she lifted of the mattress and felt around blindly underneath it. Finally her hand closed around what she was looking for. Jake's pills. Onyx hadn't believed Jake for a second when he said he wasn't addicted to them. He had a certain way of talking when he was lying to her that he was clueless of. Onyx contemplated her options she couldn't just take the bottle he would know it was her. Or he would blame Josh just like he blamed him for everything else. She couldn't take a bunch of them at once he would definitely notice that as well. Onyx poured a few of the pills into her hand deciding she would take a couple out daily. She opened up the cabinet and dropped them into her makeup box knowing Jake wouldn't go near it. After placing the pill bottle back under the mattress she headed to the galley. Onyx felt bad for going behind Jake's back but she was just trying to help him and she wasn't willing to lose him to addiction.

Onyx spent the rest of her day cleaning, making snacks for the guys(although they didn't call them that because 'men didn't eat snacks'.), and hanging out with Phil. She barely saw the guys over the next eighteen hours except as blurs grabbing food and heading back out the door. She tried not to look as Jake made the occasional detour to their room, knowing he was going in there to take those pills made her sick to her stomach. When they finally came back inside the next morning Onyx had breakfast waiting for them. It seemed the boys were too tired to talk so they ate in silence. Jake held Onyx's hand loosely under the table as he rubbed her wrist with his thumb. The simple act comforted her and made her want to do nothing more than lay in his arms. She looked over at him and smiled as he shoveled scrambled egg into his mouth. Despite everything that had happened the day before and what she had found out about him to her Jake was perfect. Perfect for her at least. Onyx had a feeling that things weren't going to get easier for them in fact she felt they were going to get a lot harder, but she knew it would take an army to get her to turn her back on Jacob Harris.