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Chapter 7
I woke up with a killer hang over. I couldn't count how many drinks I drank the previous night. I honestly wasn't even sure how I got back to Kurt's house. I did wake up in my father's guest room alone so that was a plus. No embarrassing incidents with my "father" to mess up my life further. Not that going out instead of being here miserable would have been okay with him. Some days I think he wants me to be miserable.
I mumbled a few curse words under my breath before going to get some aspirin from my bag. I only hope that I would be able to take them without feeling the need to empty my stomach. I wasn't sure if I'd already puked some of the alcohol out of my system.
I began to think about the previous evening and realized that I had very few memories of the evening. I had started drinking hard and fast as soon as we got where we were going. I was so upset that I just wanted to drown all my feelings. I don't really remember much more than a few hazy flashes. Some of them I wished that I didn't really remember. I think I might have crossed the line of inappropriate last night, but I couldn't really be sure with the few fuzzy flashes I had.
As soon as I popped the aspirin my cell rang. I had a feeling the gods must hate me today. It was Karen. I hated that I was going to have to lie to her. She wanted to know how things were going and to make sure I was doing okay after being completely forgotten yesterday evening. I told her that I was okay, then I made some quick excuses and went downstairs to get ideally a bagel, but anything with a lot of carbs right now.
Kurt had all ready gotten up and had both little kids dressed and I would assume fed when I went down in jeans and a large t-shirt. He as usual ignored me. I wish he would just acknowledge my existence. I mean he acknowledges fans existence and he doesn't even know them. I couldn't have done something to him so horrible that he couldn't at least be civil to me.
"Katie, where did you go last night?" Kyra said. "Kody wanted you to read him a story." I had a feeling she wanted me to be there too when she went to bed last night. She was just as unfamiliar with this house and Kurt as Kody and I were.
"I went to hang out with some of my friends while you were gone and I got home pretty late," I told her. This drew a look from my dad. A look that wasn't really a good one. "Did you have fun with Daddy last night?"
"It was really fun. We got to go to IHOP and we saw Monsters vs. Aliens. It was really fun," Katie said. "Daddy let me have breakfast food for dinner."
"I'm glad you had lots of fun," I told her. Kody was playing over in the corner. He was building with his blocks. He was always building. "Kurt, don't forget to remind him to go potty. He forgets sometimes," I said trying to start some sort of conversation with my father. I had a feeling he was going to be less than receptive.
"I know how to be a parent. You really don't need to even be here," Kurt said.
I felt more tears sting at my eyes. I successfully held them back this time. I knew somewhere that because he made me want to cry he wasn't worth it, but it didn't help. I wanted to know what I did that made him hate me so much that he would be so cruel. I thought that I could come here and not be an emotional basket case, but so far no luck.
"Daddy, be nice. I want Katie here. Katie's cool," Kyra said giving me a hug. She was pretty mature for her seven years. I felt kind of bad that she and Kody both had to see the tension between Kurt and I. I really was trying, but he didn't seem to give a damn.
"Kyra, I know you like Katie; I just wanted some time with just you and Kody," Kurt explained. I could tell that this was going to be a conversation that I would at some point wish that I didn't hear.
"But Katie is you daughter too so wouldn't you want to spend time with Katie too?" Kyra asked. I couldn't wait to see how he answered this.
"Well, sweetie, Katie is big and she doesn't really need me anymore," Kurt said. I couldn't believe he just passed the blame for our crappy, tense relationship to me. I now officially believe he is capable of anything.
"But Jeff said that no matter how big you get you still need your mommy and daddy to love you," Kyra said. I couldn't help but to smirk as she brought the man that Kurt hated most into the conversation. I just watched. He said I didn't need him so I wasn't going to bail him out of this one. It was now his mess to deal with.
Kurt practically turned red at the mention of Jeff's name. I couldn't believe a grown adult would let one person get to him so much. "Kyra, Jeff doesn't know about what goes on between Katie and I," Kurt said in a tone that close the subject. He was so hard to have any sort of conversation with because he was always right and never wrong.
Meanwhile Kody noticed my presence and ran over and gave me hugs and wanted me to pick him up. I obliged and snuggled with him for a few minutes. "Noise was scary," he told me seriously.
I knew he had been having a lot of nightmares lately and all he had been telling us was about a scary noise. "What can we do to keep the scary noise away?" I asked. I saw Kurt roll his eyes like I was babying him. I ignored him and gave Kody some time to think about my question.
"Well you know what lets think about it and we'll talk about it again before nap," I told him. "Do you need to go potty?"
Kody looked at me for a minute before wanting down and running to the bathroom. Kurt looked at me with daggers in his eyes.
Kurt waited until Kody had gone down for his nap and Kyra was watching a movie in her room to say anything. "How many times to I have to tell you I know how to be a parent? I don't even want you here, but Karen insisted on you coming. I shouldn't have even let you in my house. I'm surprised you didn't bring someone back from wherever the hell you went last night," Kurt said.
"I don't want to be here any more than you want me here, but Karen thought it would be easier for you to know you had someone to watch the little one when you're working. What I do when I'm not in your house is non of you business," I told him. "And I'm an adult I don't really have to tell you where I'm going."
"You were probably out fucking AJ or Eric or someone from the Front Line. I swear if you so much as put another toe out of line I'll kick you out of here so fast you won't know what happened," Kurt said. "And don't think I can't tell you came down here hung over."
"You know what maybe I wouldn't do some of the things I do if you actually decided either to get the hell out of my life or care about me. You know what I don't even need you anymore. You put so much distance between us there is no way to bridge it," I told him. "All I ever wanted is for my daddy to give a damn about me, and now I know that no matter what you say or do you'll never really care about me." I couldn't help it a few tears had slipped out despite the effort I had used to hold them back.
Kurt just looked at me like I was crazy. "I don't want to be your father. I never wanted to be your father. I wanted you mom to get rid of you, but she wouldn't and then she went and got sick and I was stuck with you," Kurt said. I slapped him and ran out of the room before he could finish what he was going to say.
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