Special chapter warnings: This chapter has more mind-control, along with mentions of some bondage style gear. Some potentially triggering discussion of Dissociative Identity Disorder.
Also, just a question for anyone who might be reading this. Do you find the writing confusing when Sebastian is controlling Kurt? If so, I welcome any suggestions you have for ways to improve that. I was struggling with how to do this so that you know Sebastian is in control, but it doesn't interrupt the flow of things too much. I might try writing a part from someone else's point of view during a smut scene because to them, it's just Kurt. No one else, including Kurt, knows that Sebastian is in control. Thanks for your help!
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Sebastian spends a few days getting his affairs in order. He meets with Sid and arranges for a one to two week adventure in Kurt's life. He needs to leave his body at the Seikly Enterprises offices so that they can hook him up to feeding tubes, iv drips and a catheter and provide his inert body with daily physical therapy, massage, and cleansing to make sure it is still in good condition for his return.
He invents a back-packing trip through New Zealand to explain his absence to family and friends. He schedules a series of Facebook posts and text messages to be sent to his parents and some of his closer friends, complete with photo-shopped pictures and updates from his invented itinerary. He makes sure his bills are all set up for automatic pay and that his mail will be held at the post office for pickup on his return. He brings his plants to a neighbor's apartment – a much better solution in his mind than giving someone the key to his place to water the plants.
During this time, he also makes a few brief visits to Kurt's body, to get things prepared for the adventure on that end. He didn't really know Kurt's schedule, so a few times he visit while Kurt was at work or in class. Sebastian is not particularly patient and he knows he could take control and have Kurt leave work or school to get right to what he wanted Kurt to do, but at the same time, Sebastian wants to stay discreet. If he draws too much attention to Kurt, someone might step in to find out what's wrong and it might ruin some of Sebastian's plans.
So, instead, Sebastian would pop in, assess the situation, and usually pop back out for a while. After doing this a few times one day, and realizing Kurt keeps himself pretty busy, Sebastian remembers he can take control long enough to check Kurt's calendar on his phone and figure out when he would be home with both his phone and his computer.
As soon as he got Kurt at home, he would take control to start making all the arrangements. He had already lost a few days, and that wedding in Lima was coming up soon.
He lucked out that night – Kurt was home, alone and even already on-line. Sebastian inwardly frowns once he sees what Kurt is reading: a forum on Dissociative Personality Disorder. There also is a smaller window open in the lower right corner of the screen. It has a Google search: What Causes Extreme Personality Shifts?
Kurt glances down to a notebook and Sebastian scans the notes Kurt has written. He had clearly been researching for a while, starting with a list of possible causes for his behaviors and his thoughts on each.
Potential Causes of Extreme Personality Shifts
1. Drug or alcohol addiction – Never had drugs, drink an occasional glass of wine, but mostly avoid alcohol, so not likely
2. Lead poisoning – usually from lead paint, never lived in a house or building built before 1950
3. Early onset of AIDS – types of personality shifts don't sound the same as what I'm experiencing; never did anything that would expose me to it until this week and it doesn't develop that fast – should get tested just in case
4. Alzheimers – still a little young for that one (I hope)
5. Brain tumor – maybe? Should schedule appointment with doctor to rule out any medical issues.
6. Multiple personalities? – officially called Dissociative Identity Disorder – need more info.
Sebastian panics for a moment thinking Kurt is going to figure out what is really going on. Or worse, get himself institutionalized and eliminate any possibility for Sebastian to have his fun. Of course, all Kurt's doing now is some research. And according to Sid, there is no way any doctor is going to know about Seikly Enterprises. Sebastian is sure he can come up with a way to handle this. Maybe he can even use it to his advantage.
He continues to leave Kurt in control to see what he finds out about Dissociative Identity Disorder. Kurt is reading through entries on a forum where people with the disease are describing their experiences.
Sebastian – as he is sure is also the case for Kurt – has only limited knowledge of the disorder based on a few books or movies. Based on these fictionalized accounts, it always seems like the person gets taken over by an alter, the alter is in full control and when the main personality comes back, that person doesn't remember anything that happened. However, on this forum with real life people with Dissociative Identity Disorder, it seems that different people have different experiences.
Some cohabit with their alters so each is aware of everything going on at all times, even when another is in control. Some have alters that know each other and talk with each other. Some aren't aware of alters exactly, but have feelings like they don't belong in their own bodies or that they are floating above and not affected by what is going on in their lives.
After reading a few moments, Kurt creates an anonymous account and writes a post of his own.
I came to this forum because I am trying to figure out what is happening to me. I have read that some of you lose time when an alter is out and don't have any memory of what happened during that time when you come back. Some of you describe being aware of what is happening in real time when an alter is in control. This has only happened once that I am aware of, but for me I felt like I was waking up from a dream and was suddenly in the aftermath of some really outrageous behavior that I had just done. It was like someone else had taken control of me. Some of the things I did are just the opposite of who I am and what I would ever do or want. I was completely unaware of what was going on during that hour or two, but I did remember everything that happened within a few minutes of coming out of the brief dreamlike state. Has anyone else on this forum – anyone diagnosed with DID – experienced it in this way?
"Interesting," thinks Sebastian. "So that's what it feels like for him." Sebastian needs some time to think about how to stop Kurt from getting too far down the path of a Dissociative Identity Disorder diagnosis. But that will have to wait. "Sorry to cut off the pity party, Kurtie-boy," thinks Sebastian as he takes control. "We have some work to do."
When Sebastian takes control, the first thing he does is look up flights to Ohio. He finds one that would get him in the Thursday night before the Saturday wedding, returning a week from that Sunday. Deciding it would be less likely for Kurt to cancel the trip if his dad is involved in some way, Sebastian next pulls up email and sends a message to Kurt's dad with a link to the flight information and some drivel about how lucky he is that the wedding is right before his NYADA break, how great it will be to see Mr. Schue and all his high school friends, and how much he wants to spend some time with the family.
Sebastian then sends some texts rapid fire to as many of Kurt's friends as he recognizes to let them know he's coming to the wedding and hopes they'll be there, too. He also sends one to Rachel, so she won't complain about being the last to know. He calls Kurt's dad for good measure – leaving a brief voice mail and asking him to check email as soon as possible. He finds the wedding website link on Kurt's email and also sends in his official RSVP – Kurt Hummel, attending.
He even sends a message to Kurt's boss at asking for the time off. She must have been working late, because she quickly replied:
Yes, of course you can have next week off, Kurt. I am really glad you decided to go. I know you were conflicted, but I thought you might really regret it if you let worries about your ex keep you from spending time with so many other people you care about. And I'm glad you're taking a break. It means I can have you work twice as hard when you get back and not feel guilty. :)
He saves the best for last, scrolling through Kurt's contacts to find Blaine, and pushing send.
Blaine sounds breathless, as if he had run to answer the phone. "Kurt," he breathed, "How are you?"
"Doing great, Blaine. Especially now that I'm talking to you." Sebastian figures it can't hurt to encourage Blaine with a bit of flirty banter.
"Me too," Blaine jumps in eagerly. "It's so good to hear from you."
"Did I interrupt anything? You sound out of breath." Sebastian almost says something like – 'and I like the way it sounds', but supposes that would be going so far.
"Oh, no, not at all," Blaine rushes to answer. "Well, actually, I was working on some choreography for one of the glee numbers at the wedding." Blaine half sings in a teasing way, "It's going to be spec-tac-u-lar. You don't want to miss it."
"Well, that's exactly why I called. I wanted to let you know that I have decided to come back to Lima for the wedding."
"Really?" Blaine's beaming smile is almost audible through the phone line. "That's so great, Kurt! Everyone is going to be so happy to see you. Are you leaving right after the wedding, or…"
"Absolutely not. I took your suggestion. I'm going to stay for the whole break week."
"This conversation keeps getting better and better," Blaine chuckles. "I know you'll be wanting to spend a lot of time with Burt, and you definitely should. I mean, he is your dad after all. Which of course you know. But is there any chance that I'll get to see you after the wedding?"
"You are adorable when you ramble," Kurt's voice purrs. "I'll do you one better – I'd like to see you before AND after the wedding. I'm looking at flights that leave right after my last classes for the week on Thursday, so we can put together an incredible number for you and I to perform at the wedding."
"Oh that's perfect! You're perfect! I'm going to find the perfect song for us!" Blaine gushed. "We are going to have so much fun!"
"Yes, Blaine," Kurt said, Sebastian curling Kurt's lip into a half-cocked smile as he thought of all the possibilities. "We are going to have SO. MUCH. FUN."
After enduring some further discussion of song choices and potential dates for trips to the mall and the Lima Bean, Sebastian rushed Blaine off the phone with a work-related excuse and a promise to provide feedback by text or email to Blaine's suggestions for their duet song.
Right after hanging up with Blaine, Sebastian fielded a return call from Burt. He kept the call brief – he didn't want to give Burt any clues that his son is not exactly himself right now – but thanked "dad" profusely for already purchasing the tickets and for promising to pick Kurt up from the airport.
After all this work, Sebastian wanted to have some fun. Some of his future plans for sexual adventures that might also humiliate Kurt required special supplies. He hopped back on the computer and browsed a few sex toy and bondage gear websites for inspiration and made a few purchases, making a running commentary on each in his mind. Shiny black bondage tape was a necessity – it sticks to itself, is reusable, and allows for so many creative possibilities for use. Of course, at least one vibrating dildo is a must-have for any pathetic near-virgin in need of a sexual awakening. The slut paddle is pretty inventive. It's a long, rectangular leather paddle with cutouts that form the letters SLUT. A hard swat momentarily imprints the word SLUT in white around the red skin caused by the sting of the paddle.
But the spring loaded mouth gag is pure genius. While many ring gags hold the mouth open, most of them are too small to allow even a modestly sized cock through. The spring loaded gag has two small rubber cups joined by a metal spring. The gag is place in one side of the mouth with one cup on the lower teeth and one on the upper teeth. It is too strong to allow the wearer to close their mouth and as the jaw relaxes, the gag opens wider and wider, eventually holding the mouth wide open without getting in the way of any playful cocks. You can either use one alone, or use one on each side of the mouth. Sebastian thanks its nameless inventor as he drops two in the virtual cart.
He digs Kurt's credit card out of the wallet on the desk and selects the "discreet shipping" option, completing the purchase. He deletes the browser history. With any luck, and without any evidence of this particular activity this evening, Kurt may be completely surprised when he opens up the plain cardboard box.
Thinking again about Kurt's Internet search for answers to explain his out of character behavior with Adam, Sebastian decides it would be wise to stay in control until he can get Kurt almost asleep before returning to his own body. He might even set Kurt's alarm a few minutes later than his normal morning wake time. Then it would be a pretty safe bet that Kurt would be in too much of a rush to get to school to spend time checking websites or making doctors appointments. That would give Sebastian some time to discuss the situation with Sid and come up with some possible solutions.
Figuring he might as well do something useful with the time until Kurt's body feels tired enough to sleep, he rummages through the closet looking to catalog the skin tight pants, bondage-inspired shirt straps and shorts, knee high boots, and other options for the most fuckable looks that can be made with Kurt Hummel's wardrobe.
When Rachel comes home, she briefly meets Kurt's gaze, then looks away. She started to slink past him silently and Sebastian is feeling very lucky indeed that his stunt to humiliate Kurt also seems to have the added bonus of preventing him from having to talk with Rachel while acting as Kurt-like as possible. However, just before she reaches the curtain to her bedroom area, she stops for a moment, seems to gather her resolve, then turns and storms back toward him.
"Kurt, I am going to have this conversation with you whether you want to or not. That stunt that you pulled with Adam is negatively impacting my relationship with Brody. And that means I'm upset. And THAT means that even though my duet with Finn at Mr. Schue's wedding will be stunning no matter what, it is going to be very difficult for me to make the performance sublime when I am so distraught. Mr. Schue is a very important figure in the development of my early career, so the footage from the wedding video is sure to be used in my future Lifetime Television Biography of a Great Star. Millions of people are going to watch that and it has to be perfect. But it won't be and it's your fault. How can you be so selfish, Kurt?"
Sebastian is mostly stunned at this dialog, so Kurt's mouth hangs slightly open while he stares at Rachel in silence.
"Last night I asked Brody to move in with me," continues Rachel. "And he said no. You know why he said no? Because he doesn't want to have to worry every day what he might see when he opens the front door. And neither do I. It's affecting my beauty sleep and I really need that to stop."
"Rachel, I – "
"No, Kurt," Rachel cuts him off. "On second thought, I am not ready for this conversation. I am going to have to think seriously about this living situation while we're in Lima. I decided to leave on Wednesday so my dads can help me rebuild my confidence for taking the stage on Saturday."
Rachel spins on her heel and starts to march back to her room, arms swinging violently. Just as Sebastian starts to breathe a sigh of relief, Rachel turns back around and says more softly, "You know, I really care about you Kurt. And I don't judge you for having some, well, unusual sexual interests. I just hope you are using condoms. And please don't make me walk in on you again." Rachel crosses back to Kurt and says, "I'm going to hug you now," before doing just that.
Once he has Kurt's body safely back in his room with curtains drawn, Sebastian is unsure what to think of the exchange with Rachel. He's on the cusp of feeling moved and maybe even a bit guilty, but then he things of Rachel's long and ridiculously self-obsessed monolog before she got to the "I care about you" and "let me hug you" bit and shakes his head.
"Well, one good thing came of all of that," Sebastian thinks. "Oh, Kurtie-boy, what fun we can get up to on Wednesday night with this spacious apartment all to ourselves, hmmm? I wonder how many guys we could fit in this loft?"
Kurt's body still doesn't feel tired enough for Sebastian to trust that Kurt will fall asleep when he cedes control, so Sebastian turns to a time-tested method for getting to sleep. He strips off Kurt's clothes, kicking them off to the side, stretches out on the bed, and grips his cock in his hand. He strokes and twists experimentally, soon learning the right technique and rhythm to send jolts of pleasure through Kurt's brain. He soon speeds up the pace, his hand flying and twisting over Kurt's straining cock. Sebastian cums to a vision of pounding that cock into Blaine's warm, wet mouth as it's forced open by two spring-loaded mouth gags. Just as Kurt starts to drift into sleep, Sebastian cedes control and slips back to his own body.
