Hishiro knew it was wrong but she couldn't help but feel that it was so right. Being in his arms and his gentle personality, she was addicted. They met at one Christmas party at one of her boyfriend's charity events. She came as his plus one and there she met him. Quietly observing the night sky as the party resided inside the plaza. Their eyes met by accident and she felt weak in her legs as his eyes never left her until she was interrupted by her lover.
"Hey, babe, there you are. I was looking all over for you." Hishiro looked up at her lover and just smiled. Her lover took that as a sign of approval and started dragging her to meet some people. She glanced at the mystery person because she longed to take in the fine details of him but she was met with nothing. To her disappointment, she zoned out the majority of the party as her lover started talking well more like kissing butt to the major bidders into donating more into their projects. She disliked crowded places and her lover knew that fact, however, he was caught up with kissing butt that he didn't notice Hishiro slipping out onto a balcony for fresh air.
Once, she was outside she felt a little bit better and started letting out deep breathes trying to calm herself down. When she had finally managed to calm herself down, her gaze fell upon the city lights that could only be seen in the night. The night illuminates our hidden desires and that faint light will only show us the perfection of the city. The morning, however, is a blinding light that shines on us making us feel vulnerable to everyone hence why we have made masks for ourselves so we don't we judged so harshly. Hishiro thought to herself as her gaze never left the city and the wind started caressing her skin making goosebumps form on her exposed parts to the world.
"That's a nice saying." Someone said making Hishiro jump in surprise and out of her trancelike state. She looked over to where the origin of the voice was and saw the same person whom she desired to meet throughout this event. He noticed her jump in surprise and immediately let himself be shown hoping that that little action could get her to trust him. "I'm sorry for scaring you, however, I did like that saying you just said to yourself. I know I may have eavesdropped but I couldn't help myself you know." Hishiro looked at him skeptically but didn't do anything. He let out a chuckle and started walking towards her but only enough to stand by her at the railing. He looked over at the city and Hishiro looked at him as he became lost in his mind. She looked over at the place he was so focused at however all she could see was the glimmering lights that proved that the city was still alive and well. She knew that there wasn't anything special about the city in the dark however the mysterious man beside her was someone special. She couldn't stay away from him and somewhere down the line, she'll be able to find the answers to why she seemed so drawn to him.
"Merry Christmas," Hishiro said and he looked back at her and gave her a goofy grin. Hishiro felt a thump in her heart when she saw that smile but she didn't dwell on it because she had a limited time with him. She didn't want to ruin anything by it with questions that seem to be plaguing her mind.
"Merry Christmas to you too... uhm... I don't know your name sorry." Hishiro let out a small laugh that made him smile even more.
"It's Hishiro. Hishiro Chizuru." She replied with the smile still etched on her lips. He extended out his hand and said.
"Lovely name such as yourself my name is-"
Hishiro was taken out of her flashback and back to her present. She gazed upon the city inside a hotel as her reflection on the window is nearly transparent. She wondered if she hadn't met her lover would she still meet the man she is cheating on him with. Would they eventually cross paths in the near future and be able to go around the city to show off their love. To be able to roam around with no care in the world without anyone judging them. To not confine themselves in secret rooms and scheduling the next time they meet that is only an hour or less. She knew she couldn't keep this affair up but she couldn't. She had been in a relationship with him for over 8 years. All those years made them close but she felt something was off. She felt like they were better off as friends. At one point she did love him but now that time has passed her love just stopped. However, with a long relationship such as their's, it's much harder for her to break it off with him knowing that the relationship she had put all her effort in it was nothing but a chore to her. With him, however, she felt like every day, every time with him was an adventure that needed to be explored. With him, she could be free to say anything to him and know that he wouldn't view her differently. The soft click of the door being open made Hishiro look over at the door and a smile graced her lips on who came in.
"You came." She said out in relief seeing him close the door and take off his coat. He looked up at her with a smile and opened up his arms for her to come into his embrace. Hishiro did just that she ran into his arms and embraced him tightly thinking that the moment she let go he would just disappear just like the other times he has done to make sure they aren't suspicious to others.
"Of course I did. I never break my promises to you and you know that." He said in a soothing voice next to her ear and she relaxed her hold on him as he started walking her to the bed. He held onto her in hopes of relieving any stress that his lover had before he had entered the room. Drawing gentle patterns on her back to soothe her mind and body. Hishiro looked up at him and said.
"Merry Christmas, Arata." She made no movements to get out of his hold and Kaizaki didn't want to leave her touch as well.
"Merry Christmas to you too, Chizuru." They stayed in the same place cuddling for the next 30 minutes in the comfortable silence. Kaizaki decided to break the silence knowing that they have very limited time together. "I got a gift for you." He looked down to look at Hishiro into her eyes as her eyes lightened up as a child. It was a rare occasion for Hishiro to show emotion but somehow Kaizaki knew what she was feeling after only being in a relationship in secret for 2 years. He smiled warmly at her and gave her a lingering kiss on her forehead hoping that he could give her the same feelings he has towards the raven-haired girl. He stood up and Hishiro made no attempts of leaving him. Kaizaki couldn't help but smile at the sight of Hishiro clinging to him however he needed to grab his gift for her because Christmas was a very limited thing for them. Just a couple hours with each other because Yoake tends to be pretty busy during this time of year hosting more parties for projects that seem to be very successful somehow. He hasn't noticed anything different about Hishiro and Kaizaki yet and if he has the that means their relationship has been doomed from the start if he is just letting Hishiro see Kaizaki behind his back from time to time. "Come on, Chizuru. I won't be long just going to grab your present and then come back. Once I do we can go back to cuddling okay?" He rubbed her arm to make her feel safe and have her trust him. She nodded to his suggestion and slowly started releasing him to prolong the inevitable not caring if he said he'll be back because she knows that eventually, they will have to depart and not see each other for a couple weeks and maybe months.
Once Hishiro released Kaizaki and he went off into the hall to grab her present in his coat which was in the closet. He started reminiscing the night with Hishiro and how he asked her out.
Flashback
Kaizaki lastly had been feeling really happy. Ever since he met Hishiro at the charity event he felt the desire to see her again and just be by her side even if they have nothing to talk about. He just likes the feeling of being by her side when no one seems to want her company. He was meeting up with her to finally tell her his feelings. He didn't care if she has a boyfriend. He only cared of having her by her side. He didn't mind being in the dark because it was all worth it with him silently calling her his.
Kaizaki rushed into the shop out of breath and canvased the room until he spotted Hishiro looking out the window with a book laying on the table and her finger being its bookmark. He couldn't contain his admiration for her and just took a picture without her knowing it. He slid his phone back into his pocket and went to meet up with her. Hishiro smiled at Kaizaki when she heard him slid into the booth.
"Hey, Hishiro, how are you?" He said to make small conversation and Hishiro secretly loved having these conversations with him because it makes more time for them to be together. Ut also makes it less suspicious to the public eye seeing as they might be friends.
"I'm good now that you're here," Hishiro said honestly knowing she couldn't keep a secret from him.
"Good. That's great... So uhm, I've been meaning to ask and you don't have to accept it but I would really love for you to do because it'll make me happy and maybe you as well. I know you aren't available on the market and you make me feel things that my past relationships haven't been able to and I don't mind being hidden but would you be my girlfriend in secret." Hishiro who was just drinking her tea heard Kaizakis rant and by the end, she spat out her hot drink in front of his face. Kaizaki just smiled even though his face burned from the drink and his clothes would most likely have a stain on them from it he didn't care because he had seen a side of Hishiro's that not many have seen which was her being surprised and flustered at the same time.
"Give me time to think about it." She said trying to remain composed of her sudden action towards Kaizaki as he started using the endless amount of tissues to wipe his face.
He laughed at the memory and grabbed her present and went to Hishiro. Once he saw Hishiro in his line of sight he smiled at the view. She looked like a dog waiting patiently for their owner to come home and give then love. "Chizuru, I'm back" Hishiro looked at Kaizaki and he could already see the love in the air around her. He walked over to her and when he was close enough Hishiro engulfed him in an embrace. "Hey, I still need you to open your present." He patted her back but Hishiro didn't let him go.
"You're more than enough for me. There is no need to give me presents." Hishiro said right beside his ear and pulled back to see his reaction. He was blushing and Hishiro loved the fact that she can make him blush by her actions.
"B-but, I want to." He was a stuttering mess after that little gesture Hishiro said to him. His heart was beating fast when he lifted his hand and brought the gift to Hishiros hands. So soft He thought when his fingers brushed against hers as she retrieved the present from his hands.
Hishiro opened up his gift and gasped in surprise. "It's beautiful." She said and Kaizaki scratched the back of his neck. He had gotten her hair ties with a design of crosses. Even though it wasn't much the meaning behind them was something special for him and he had hoped they were just as special maybe more for her. Even though he could get her something expensive he wanted to let her know that she is appreciated and with the distance they'll be together. Hishiro pht on her present and loved it regardless if it's not as extravagant as the gifts Yoake gave her. They looked at each other into the eyes and slowly started leaning in. Kaizaki could feel Hishiro's breath on his lips and he got chills down his spine. That anticipation of feeling her lips was increasing as he knew this moment would be remembered for him he didn't know if it would be the same for Hishiro. The moment they were about to kiss Hishiros phone went off.
"I got to get this." Hishironsaid as she pulls away from Kaizaki both who hated the sudden interruption. Hishiro picked up her phone and started talking after a while Hishiro ended the call. Kaizaki looked up at her with anticipation to just have her attention. Hishiro looked at Kaizaki with sad eyes and Kaizaki knew what it meant. Lately, these meetups consisted of that exact facial expressions. "I'm sorry Kaizaki I have to go can we meet some other time." Kaizaki looked at her and he knew she couldn't feel the pain in his heart but smiled anyway. He didn't want to cause her any pain no matter how many times she seems to break his.
"Of course, Chizuru, Ill always be waiting." Hishiro waved him off and left him. He waited there and after a precise timing of 90 minutes before leaving the hotel.
Over where Hishiro is...
Hishiro walked into the apartment that she shared with her lover. Yoake was on the phone once again discussing some new plans for the Relife project. Making sure everything is okay for the final product to be perfect. Hishiro felt sad knowing that she left Kaizaki just because she got a phone call from Yoake to come home because they had something important to discuss. After a couple minutes of Hishiro getting something to drink Yoake finished his phone call and looked at his girlfriend.
"Hey, you're home." Yoake smiled and walked over to Hishiro and gave her a hug from behind. Hishiro didn't get out off his embrace because it would be weird since she is his girlfriend. "So, I was thinking that you and I haven't been on a date in a while so why not go now? It is Christmas and I have the rest of the evening off and already made reservations at that one restaurant you like." Hishiro couldn't help but frown a little bit because when she is with Kaizaki he would make her food and let them stay inside the house without being outside in the crowded areas when the holidays come around. Yoake could see her frown and let go of her to go get changed. Hishiro went off to get ready as well.
At the restaurant, Yoake was a little bit antsy and after they got to the dessert Yoake went in front of her and got down on one knee.
"Hishiro, I feel like I could do anything with you by my side. With each moment we spend together makes me fall for you more and more each time. I am lucky to have a girlfriend like you. These 8 years with you made me realize that I am ready to take the next step with you. So will you marry me Hishiro Chizuru?" Everyone in the restaurant gasped and Hishiro felt all of this pressure on her and then her mind went to Kaizaki and his outreaching hand to hold hers on the rare occasions that they weren't in the public eye.
She knew physically she was Yoakes but her heart belonged to only Kaizaki. Tears started falling in her eyes and responded.
"Yoake, can you give me time to think?" Without hearing a reply from him she stood up and ran off to the one place she knew she felt at home. Kaizakis house.
Kaizakis place
Kaizaki was working on papers for his students in a university. He knew that rather than moping around the house thinking if whether or not Hishiro would call him or not. He was so focused that he didn't hear Hishiro come into his house with the key he had given her so whenever she felt like she needed an escape she could go to his house and relax. As Kaizaki continued on with his work Hishiro was a bit distraught between the men in her life and when she saw Kaizaki she dropped everything and ran up to him. She hugged him from behind and clung onto him for dear life as if she was going to say goodbye. Kaizaki was stunned who hugged him from behind but from one whiff of her perfume and he instantly relaxed.
"Hey, whats wrong?" Hishiro shook her head not ready to speak to him just yet. Kaizaki loosened her arms a bit only to have her sit on his lap. Kaizaki let out a sigh and started rubbing her back for reassurance. After a while, Hishiro perked her head up to Kaizaki and Kaizaki couldn't help but fangirl over how cute she was.
"He asked me to marry him." Hishiro finally said and Kaizaki halted all of his actions. He looked at her in disbelief.
"What did you say to him?"
"I told him I'll think about it and just left." Kaizaki was getting angry at this fact. He set Hishiro off of his lap as he stood up and began pacing around hoping this feeling would stop.
"I can't believe you! You should have just said no." Kaizaki said what was going through his mind.
"I've been in a relationship with him for 8 years. That's long enough to know that I need time to think about it. I'm not going to be impulsive like you." Hishiro retorted back but what she didn't know was that her words were like a blade stabbing into his already fragile heart.
"If you think like that then leave. Accept his proposal but know this once you do we are done because I no longer care about your actions. I should have seen this coming but I didn't know it would cause me this much pain." Kaizaki started tearing up and his voice was cracking. "So do me a favor and leave. That way I can heal this broken heart of mine and hopefully, we can just be friends down the line." He said and walked up the stairway. Hishiro was also crying not knowing why hadn't Kaizaki confided in her on why he felt like that. His words sunk into her and she grabbed her stuff and left knowing her final answer to Yoake's proposal.
So thoughts? comments? review? Maybe add in a sequel I don't know. It's up to you guys and I'm sorry for the long update. These guys are getting lazy on me hahaha. I'm kidding but seriously though hope you guys have a good christmas and I'll be back with my actaul update that is sitting in my camera collecting dust. Just need major edits and it's off they go to you guys.
