Chapter Seven

Lily was fast asleep as they drove in silence to John's two story ranch.. The property looked enormous and it was very well manicured She was impressed as they got out and John carried a sleeping Lily.."its a bit of a mess" he said quickly as he looked at Natalie..

She rolled her eyes at him.."John im sure its fine, you have a beautiful home" she said suddenly feeling nervous to actually go inside but there was no backing out now..

He opened the door as they stepped in and the place was absolutely gorgeous with intricate wood work throughout the living room not to mention a large flat screen tv on the wall and a large fireplace..

"Daddy" Lily said as she began to open her eyes and then she looked around and spotted Natalie as she smiled big and Natalie smiled back at her..

"come on lets show Natalie your room" he said as he continued to carry her as they got to the large bedroom that had pink and blue paint on the walls as well as a large hand crafted sleigh bed..He put Lily down as Natalie looked around the room..

"did you make all of this yourself" Natalie asked somewhat in shock..

"yeah just kind of a hobby of mine" John said quickly as he took of Lily's shoes..

"daddy builds a lot of things" Lily began as she got up off the bed and ran to her closet.."wanna see my doll house" she said as John began to laugh..

"You know its late pumpkin" he began..

"but daddy" Lily began to protest as she began pulling out toys from her closet and then the dollhouse..

"Oh wow, this is a nice doll house" Natalie began as John shook his head and then ran his hand through his hair..

"well I can see im not wanted" John began as Lily continued to show Natalie her toys.."I'm just gonna get some coffee going then" he said as he got to the door..

"wait daddy" Lily said as she got up from the floor and ran over to him as he picked her up and she kissed his cheek.."Night daddy"

"Night pumpkin, love you" he kissed her back..

"love you too" Lily said as he put her down and then she ran back over to Natalie as John left the room. He couldn't get smile off of his face. Lily really had taken a liking to Natalie and she was so good with her. He hated to get his hopes up but damn it how could he not. He was really falling for Natalie and falling for her hard and he could see he wasn't the only one..

Natalie watched as Lily showed her all of her toys. She hated to think that this sweet little girl never really had a mom but she could see that John made up for it. He really was an amazing dad and to be doing it all alone, Natalie couldn't even imagine..

"can you read me a story" Lily asked as she walked over to a shelf that held books..

"sure, pick one out" Natalie said with a smile as Lily grabbed one and then got on her bed..

"i like this one, the bunny is funny" Lily said with a giggle as she got into the bed and pulled the blankets up over her..

"well I do like funny bunnies" Natalie smiled as Lily giggled some more and she sat on the side of the bed as she opened the book..

"do you like my daddy" Lily asked with wide eyes as Natalie looked at her..

"actually I do, is that ok?" Natalie asked with a smile..

"Uh huh.. I think daddy likes you too" Lily smiled big..

"and what about you, do you like me?" Natalie asked..

"very much" lily smiled big and Natalie couldn't help for her heart to swell for this little girl..

"i like you too lily, very much" Natalie said with a smile.." now lets see what this funny bunny is up to" she said as she opened the book and began to read as Lily laid there and watched her..

John got the fireplace going as he brought two cups of coffee into the living room. He put the television on quiet as he sat back onto the couch. His mind racing now as he thought of Natalie. He hadn't given any thought to the fact that she was indeed a Buchanan. It wasn't something that had affected him either way but now as he sat there with his thoughts running rampid he couldn't help but wonder what all of this meant.

Would she leave and they would continue a long distance relationship. He immediately shook that idea out of his head, he could never see that working. Being away from her would absolutely drive him crazy! Would she want him to move to AC, he knew he could never do that not just for himself but for Lily, they had a life here with friends and family..

He began to wonder if maybe she would just leave and all of this would have been just a wonderful memory and nothing more, that made him feel as sick as much as them trying a long distance relationship..

"penny for your thoughts" Natalie said as she walked out into the living room. Lily was fast asleep now and John looked heavy in thought, she swallowed hard as he looked at her and smiled..

"Nah just enjoying the peace and quiet" he lied as he patted next to him for her to take a seat and she did.."I'm not sure how you like your coffee, I put hazelnut creamer in it"

"well then you did good, hazelnut is my favorite" she smiled as she sat down next to him and then took a sip of the coffee as she sighed with delight.."Your place really is amazing John, how come you haven't tried to make a business of making things"

John laughed now as he ran his hand through his hair.."because I don't want to ruin it, I love to build stuff but if it became a business then it would just become something I had to do not to mention it would take the enjoyment out of it" he said honestly..

"but you could make some serious money" she said quickly..

"yeah well im pretty content with my finances" he said a bit abruptly and she suddenly felt a coldness from him, had she offended him in some way..

"John I didn't mean to pry" she said apologetically..

"yeah well some of us are just happy with what we have" he said as he stood now and she was confused as she looked at him..

"I wasn't saying" she said as she stood up now..

"you didn't have to Natalie, I know that your family has more money then they know what to do with" he began as her eyes got wide.."your Asa Buchanan's granddaughter for god sake, you run a high profile newspaper, you have the life" he sounded cold as he spoke and she honestly was at a loss for words..

She finally spoke.."my life isn't perfect you know"

"its pretty damn close" he shook his head..

"are you mad at me because of my family?" she didn't know where this was coming from..

"I'm not mad im just being realistic, I like you Natalie, Lily likes you its just" he walked past her now, not knowing if he should continue.

"i like you too John and lily" she said quietly as he kept his back to her..

"but honestly Natalie I just don't see where this, this can go anywhere" he said quietly..

Natalie swallowed hard, suddenly feeling a heaviness in her chest as she looked at him standing with his back to her, completely tense.."what are you trying to say" she finally blurted the words out as her hands began to shake..

"I just don't see this going anywhere, were from two different worlds Natalie" he said honestly as he faced her now.."i just cant continue for Lily's sake, she is already getting attached and I..." he shook his head.."can you honestly tell me that you see this going anywhere"

"i.. I just don't know" she said honestly.."i mean I like you John, I like being with you" she began..

He cut her off.."But you have a life somewhere else, I get it but I have a life here and so does Lily"

The mood got incredibly somber as they stood there. She honestly felt like crying, was this some how a goodbye?

"i care about you Natalie and it scares me how much I care" he said honestly as she swallowed hard..

Natalie walked up to him now, emotion pouring from her voice.."then why cant we just see what happens, I don't want this to be goodbye"

"because the longer this happens, the deeper I fall for you Natalie" he swallowed hard now as she stood in front of him.."i sound crazy, I've only know you for a few days" he shook his head...

"But I feel it too" she finally said as she touched his face, she loved the feeling of his stubble against her hand.."ive never felt so drawn to anyone in my life"

John breathed heavy as she held her hand on his cheek and then he put his hand on hers.."I'm falling in love with you Natalie" he said as his lips crashed into hers in a heated kiss. He knew that doing this wasn't going to help the situation but damn it he wanted her, he wanted her so bad that his body ached to touch her and to be touched..

The hungry kiss quickly became something more as he spun them around and her back was against the wall as their mouths devoured each other.. She couldn't think much less breath without panting as his hand slid up the side of her thigh as he pushed himself against her harder and then he was lifting her leg up against his thigh.

She could feel his erection pressing hard against her as his mouth descended from hers and against her neck and her throat.."god I want you so bad" he growled deep as he looked at her. The desire in her eyes matching his as he lifted her up now and she wrapped her legs around him as their mouths collided once more as he began walking down the hall quickly to his bedroom..

She couldn't even tell he had got to his bedroom until she heard the door close and then he was putting her down as he pulled off his shirt. His eyes burning with such a desire that she felt her stomach tighten as she looked at him and then he was kissing her once more as his hands went to her skirt as he deftly unbuttoned it and it slid down her legs as he pulled his mouth from hers and looked at her standing there with just a white blouse on and black lace panties.

She quickly removed her shirt as she kept her eyes on him and then he was unbuttoning his jeans as she removed her bra and then her panties. She felt so vulnerable standing there in front of him completely naked but soon he was joining her as he stood there. His erection thick and long as he inhaled deep, looking over her body.

She took two steps closer to him so that her breasts now touched his chest and her hand moved down between them until she had circled her hand around his length as he let out a low groan.. She moved her hand slowly at first. She ran her hand up and down with a firm grip. His jaw tightened as he kept his eyes on her and then his hands went to her breasts as she shivered with his touch. His hands rough and strong against her body. It was an overwhelming feeling and then he rolled her nipples against his thumb as she squeezed him even tighter, eliciting a groan from him and just as he went to lean his head down to get access to her breasts, she dropped to her knees before him..

"Natalie" he began to protest and then she was taking his hot hard length into her mouth as he let out a deep breath..."Oh fuck" he groaned as her mouth worked him. He could barely stand it as he rolled his head back.."god your mouth, soo good" he groaned as she took him from root to tip and then back again..

The sounds he was making and the feeling of him growing impossibly larger in her mouth had her body humming and aching for him to be inside of her but she wanted to do this for him. She wanted to give him the same amount of pleasure he had given her..Her hand moved with her mouth as his legs stiffened.."god Natalie your gonna make me cum, you have to stop" he groaned but she continued her onslaught as she sucked against him, making his legs weak...He knew he was so close, absolutely on the brink as she sucked and licked against him with a wild bobbing of her head...He grabbed onto her red hair as he groaned even deeper... He began to thrust against her mouth as he pushed her lips onto him. She was taking all over him and his eyes were damn near in the back of his head now.."god Natalie, fuck!" he groaned and tightened his grip on her hair as he thrust once more into his mouth before emptying his seed down her throat.

Natalie smiled as she took her mouth off him and looked up. The look he gave her was so intense, so raw that it literally made her mouth water at what was next. He leaned down and took her arms as he pulled her up and then immediately his mouth was against hers as they crashed onto the bed. His weight heavy against her as he kissed her savagely. He moved her legs with his as they continued to kiss and then she felt him against her slick folds. He was still hard and throbbing against her sensitive flesh and before she could react he was entering her deep as he embedded himself inside of her and they out a collective gasp as he pulled his mouth from hers..

He brushed some hair from her face as he began to move slowly inside of her as she panted at his large intrusion on her body..."so good" he groaned as he moved his head down to her breasts and immediately took one nipple into his mouth as he sucked hard and rolled the other one between his fingers..

"Oh god" she let out a small whimper as all the sensations began to rock her body.

They finally lay motionless in the bed, both sated and spent as she kept her head on his chest. His heart beat thudding away heavily as was hers. Neither of them said anything though neither were asleep either.. As she went to speak so did he as she lifted her head up and looked at him..

"You first" she said with a lazy smile..

"ladies first" he smiled softly back at her as she sat up more now, dragging the blanket as she did to cover her exposed body..

"i know you think this is a risk and in ways it is" she began as he sat up now too and her eyes lingered on his chest. My god he looked amazing in this moonlight, she had to shake her head to clear her mind.."Your distracting, you know that right"

"and your not?" he smirked but he knew that this was a serious conversation and one they needed to have.."But you were saying" he put on a straight face and she swallowed hard..

"I'm not good at risks, actually people who know me would say that im the definition of un-risky" she continued.."But what I feel" she looked away from him.."i want this so bad"

He moved some to be closer to her and then his hand went to her chin as he lifted it up so that she could look at him. She was nervous, scared even as she looked at him.."i want this too" he finally said.."but" she knew there was a but, there was always a but somewhere.."You live in AC, you have a life there"

The next words that came out of her mouth even surprised her.."i can have a life here too" He looked just as surprised as she felt by saying that..

"but you have a paper to run" he began as his heart began the heavy thudding once more..

"i never really liked that paper and plus im letting a friend of mine run it" she began as her own heart fluttered.. Was she really doing this? Was she really just going to throw everything away that she had worked so hard for and for a relationship with him. She only had one answer in her mind, hell yes!

"your In the heat of the moment, you cant make a decision like this" he began as she cut him off..

"I have spent my life living it the way everyone told me I had to, I barely made a decision for myself and to be honest I haven't been happy in a very long time" she said honestly..

"but your family" he began..

"my family consists of me, my mother and my father" she took a deep breath.."its not like im moving across the world John, I can still visit, they can visit" she said even as she was thinking about the look in her fathers face. He would be absolutely livid.."i don't want to turn my back on this, I couldn't"

"you would do that, and what if this doesn't work out" he said with astonishment in his voice that she would do all of that for them, for him and Lily.. No one has ever done anything like that for him..

"I guess I will take my chance, I want this John...i... I want you" she said with a long breath as he sat back now and ran a hand through his hair. He was incredibly quiet as he sat there and her nerves began to get the best of her. Had she jumped the gun here, had she scared him away.."say something, please" she finally said just above a whisper..

"Ok" he nodded his head as she shook her head..

"Ok?" she said with confusion and then he smiled as he grabbed hold of her and flipped her over so that he was on top of her, a smile on his face..

"ok, lets do this" he smiled as his lips crashed into hers..

Natalie awoke to the sound of faint laughing and the smell of home cooking. For a moment she thought she was back at her grandpa's place but then the images of what took place last night filled her head. She was at John's place! She immediately sat up and then gasped as she quickly covered her naked form. She hadn't even remembered falling asleep and she had been deciding to make a quick get a way before Lily woke up, she hated to have it awkward for the small girl and for her too.

She quickly began to get dressed at a fast pace as her heart beat away heavily. My god his daughter could of come in at any time and to see her naked. She was beyond mortified at the idea!

John couldn't get the grin off his face as he cooked breakfast. He had even called his mom and told her he was taking the day off. He wanted the day to be about them, he wanted to show Natalie what Texas was all about.

"Daddy it smells so good, wait til Nana gets here" Lily said with a smile as she bounced up and down on the chair..

"actually Pumpkin I thought that maybe we could spend the day together with Miss Natalie" he began as Lily's eyes got wide with excitement.."what do you think about that?"

"Yippee!" she said with her arms in the air as John laughed and then he glanced at the doorway as Natalie stood there nervously..

"speaking of which, look who is here" John grinned as Lily spun in her chair..

"You got here fast, daddy she got here fast!" Lily said with amazement as John laughed..

"well that is because I have a magic carpet that I fly around on" Natalie smirked as Lily laughed..

"Your funny" Lily giggled.."daddy made breakfast"

"I see that and it smells wonderful" Natalie said with a nervous smile..

"I hope you don't mind, im not really sure what you like to eat" John began..

"I can get the orange juice" Lily smiled big as she ran to the fridge and Natalie walked closer to John..

"i cant believe I slept that long" she said with a shake of her head..

"You looked tired" he smirked and winked at her.."and hopefully starving"

"Pretty close to it" she smiled as she helped Lily with the juice..

"watch I can do it" Lily said as she began to fill the cups with juice..

"well yes you can, your a big girl" Natalie said to her as John finished the pancakes..

"Uh huh, almost six" Lily smiled proudly..

"wow that is big" Natalie smiled..

"well ladies it is time to eat" John said as he put a big plate of pancakes on the table as well as eggs and bacon..

"wow John this looks great" Natalie said honestly. She couldn't remember the last time any guy had ever cooked for her, if ever..

"My daddy cooks alot" Lily grinned as she got into a chair and so did Natalie.

"well you gotta keep your strength up, I have something fun planned for today" he smirked as Natalie raised an eyebrow and grabbed a pancake as Lily did too..

"Oh really now and what would that be" Natalie couldn't help but smile. This was nice, like really nice..

"Oh you'll see" he took a seat too..

"surprises are fun" Lily said with a mouthful of food..

"yes they are" Natalie said as she took a bite of her pancake and John smiled at her as he too took a bite of his..