Chapter 7
After we both reach out release, I hear Juice's breathing even out telling me he's sleeping. I lay there awake, my head on his chest and just enjoy being close to him. I know it won't be long before he sees what Lucas did and starts cheating on me too. Doesn't matter. I slip out of bed without waking him and move to the living room and lay on the couch. I turn the television on and lay down on the couch with a blanket and the tears start to fall. I just keep hearing Lucas in my head telling me that I'm fat and that I'm worthless. I turn with my back to the television and start to sob. After a while, I feel a hand on my hip, turning me over. "Hey. What's the matter?" Juice asks. I try to face away from him but he doesn't let me. "I'm fine Juice. I just can't get comfortable. You should go back to sleep." I say. He cups my face and says "Hey. Don't do that. Talk to me." he says and I shake my head no. "I'm fine. Just in my own head." I tell him. He moves me to sit up and sits beside me and tries to pull me to him. "Hey. Come here." he says as he pulls me to him. "You know that shit ain't true right?" he asks and I don't answer. "Baby, it's not true. You're fucking beautiful. Curves in all the right places. Why do you think I went to the hotel with you that night?" he asks. "To get laid." I say. "To be with a beautiful woman. You made me forget all the shit was I was dealing with. For that one night, I got to see what it felt like to be with someone that didn't give a shit about the patch on my back. That just wanted me." he says. "I don't know if I can do this Juice." I say honestly. "You don't want to be with me?" he asks. "It doesn't matter what I want." I say, getting up and heading to the kitchen. "It does to me." he says. "Tell me what you want." he says. I look at him and say "I want to be with you. I want all this shit out of my head. I want Lucas to fucking be out of my life and not keep hearing all the shit he put in my head all that time." I say and start to sob. He walks over and pulls me to him. "Baby, I am all yours. As far as all that shit in your head, and that dumb fuck, you let me handle that. I'll take care of him and I'll do everything I can to help you get all that shit out of your head and fill it with nothing but you hearing me tell you that I love you and how fucking beautiful you are." he tells me. I look up at him and before I can say anything he says "I got you baby. Always."
He picks me up and carries me back to bed and I snuggle up to him. Laying facing him, he pulls me into his chest and rubs his hand up and down my back. "I love you Hannah." he says. "I love you Juan Carlos." I say. "I promise, I'll make everything better." he whispers as he holds me closer. I look up at him and say "Show me." He kisses me deeply before we start shedding clothes and he enters me. Making love to me nice and slow, whispering sweet nothings in my ear over and over as I reach release after release before finding his own.
The next morning, we get up and he says "Let's go to the clubhouse." I nod and we get up and get dressed. Heading out the door, he pulls me to him and kisses me softly. "One day soon, I'm going to make you mine." he says. "I'm already yours." I tell him. "Yeah but this time you'll have my crow and my last name." he says and I look at him shocked. "Come on. I want to show my Old Lady off." he says and I don't move. "Baby, I am so proud to have you by my side. I want to marry you and give you my crow. You're mine baby and I want everyone to know it." he says, kissing me softly. We get on his bike and head to the clubhouse.
Walking in, I tell him I need to use the bathroom. While I'm gone, he walks over to Lyla. "Here in a bit, can you take her to lunch? I need her distracted while I get rid of that ex fuck head of hers." Juice says to Lyla. "I got her." Lyla says and Juice nods his thanks. "Church." Jax calls as I walk back to the main room. Juice walks over to me and kisses me softly before heading into church. He had texted Jax and said he needed to call church to get Lucas taken care of so I could finally move on. They all get in the chapel and at the table and Jax asks "What did you need to call church for brother?" They all look at him and he says "I need help with something for my Old Lady."
