AN: Thank you to everyone who did their thang (I'm sure I don't have to be specific by now). It really means a lot to me. I apologize for the late update. I have lost two people this year and two have been given very little time. I'm not emotionally okay so I've been staying away from my fanfics. I hope you all still love me! This is pretty short but I promise the next will be great!

Some of the Tacoma guys had been in Charming for a little over a month now and they were about to head out. Madison hated the sick feeling in her stomach knowing Kozik had to leave. The two had grown a lot closer making it difficult for everyone to tell if they were dating or not. Chibs was always close by watching her, eying her every move with jealousy. He hadn't touched her again and it was mostly due to the fact that Jax had him constantly elsewhere. He wasn't stupid and saw the looks he sent Madison's way. He knew there was something going on but what? It wasn't his place to say much of anything until it interfered with the club. He had enough on his hands with Clay.

"I wish you weren't leaving." Madison pouted standing next to Kozik on his bike. He laughed and cupped her cheek.

"I'm not staying away. I wanna patch in over here. Gonna take some time though. I'll be back in a couple of weeks." Moving his hand to the back of her neck, Koz pulled Madison's head down and kissed her. It was one of those long, romantic, butterflies in tummy kind of kisses. Then why didn't it leave Mads breathless?

"I'll miss you." She whispered into his ear then stepped back as the rest of the Tacoma charter started up their bikes. Gemma walked over to join her and slung an arm around her waist.

"You gonna be alright sweetie?" Madison looped her arm around the Queen's waist and leaned her head on her arm.

"Yea, just sucks he has to go." With a soft sigh the two watched as the boys rolled out of the parking lot. Madison stood there until she could no longer hear the bikes before giving Gemma a tiny smile and headed for the office.

Hours flew by and the young woman hardly got anything done. Whenever she started on something, something else came up. It seemed like everyone was having a bad car day. Three accidents, two break downs on the highway, three oil changes, a blown tire and two inspections. Madison was exhausted and it was getting late. Gemma and Clay had already gone home. Hell, most of the club had gone home. Eyes fearfully turning towards the clock Madison groaned out loud when she saw the time. It was almost one in the morning. She was surprised Jax hadn't dragged her home already. Lifting herself from the chair Maddie looked for her keys and swore when she remembered Jax had drove her that morning. Grumbling under her breath she stalked towards the bar entrance and pushed the door open. A few of the guys sat around talking or drinking. Stopping by the door she looked around for Jax and bit down on her bottom lip when she didn't see him. Wrapping her arms around her middle she headed for the dorm rooms hoping to find her there. If he wasn't maybe she could just crash in there for the night. She was almost there when she crashed into someone. Maddie waited for the pain of falling on to the floor but it never came. Instead she found herself looking into the cold, dark eyes of the only biker she had been trying to avoid.

"Easy there luv. Don' wanna hurt yaself do ya?" His hands gripped her upper arms as he steadied her, his eyes locked on hers. As hard as Maddie tried she couldn't look away. It wasn't until she heard the female voice that she snapped out of it.

"You still interested baby?" She spoke lowly. His hands dropped from her arms and he took the big boobed blonde into his arms laying a rough kiss on her. Madison felt sick as she tried to maneuver her way around the couple. Somehow she managed to squeeze past them and hurried down the hall to Jax's room. Pausing at the door she looked down the hall just in time to see Chibs pushing the woman into the room and tossing a wink her way. Shaking her head she rushed into the room and slammed the door. He had said he never took women into his room. He had lied to her. He had lied and she had sat on that bed. She had sat on that bed in God only knows what and he made he feel….Madison raced to the bathroom to empty her stomach into the toilet. She felt filthy and sick. Once her stomach stopped forcing up its contents she went to the sink and washed her mouth out. Glancing up into the mirror she could see her reflection in the dirty glass. She was crying. Anger and fury overcame her and she clenched her fist sending it into the glass. It spidered and broke beneath her flesh cutting into her hand. She couldn't feel it though. Even as the blood ran down her arm and dripped off her elbow she felt nothing. Snatching up a towel hanging on the hook she wrapped her hand up and shuffled to the bedroom. Collapsing on the bed she passed out. The entire night was riddled with nightmares and cold sweats.