Watching Over Me

Watching Over Me

A/N: Ok here's the deal. There are going to be 3 more chapters after this, including the epilogue. Right now I'm in an extremely happy mood, so it may be hard to get the feelings right (I almost typed write, XD)

Disclaimer: I don't own digimon. I never will. So don't sue. :P

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I'm a murderer. I should be in jail. I killed someone. Not just someone. I killed him. Tai. Taichi Kamiya. Tai is dead, and I'm the reason he died. If I had just moved

out of the way of that stupid attack, Tai would still be alive. But I didn't. I stood there, because I couldn't move. I couldn't scream. I couldn't do anything. I just sat

there like an idiot bracing myself for the sheer pain that was sure to come when the attack hit me. I remember waiting for it. I waited for the enormous amount of

pain that was sure to come, when they Mega-level digimon attack collided with my body. But it never came. I remember letting out a short 'eep' when something

collided with my body and made me fall to the ground. But it didn't hurt. Not bad enough for a digimon of that size anyway. I was still laying on the ground with my

eyes snapped shut when I heard screams. That's when it finally hit me. Someone else pushed me out of the way. I didn't want to look. I didn't want to know who

was hurt. So I closed my eyes tighter and tried to stop listening to the sickening sounds coming from everywhere. Suddenly, though someone was shaking my

shoulders. I knew who it was immediately. I got the strange warmth in me whenever he touched me. I knew Izzy wasn't the one. I opened my eyes slowly and

looked over at the horrific scene playing in front of me. I barely suppressed a scream. There was so much blood. So much hurt. So much pain. You should have seen

the look on their faces. It was awful. I remember Izzy helping me to my feet before he ran over to Tai's side. The walk over to Taichi was the longest walk I ever

remember taking. It wasn't that long either. But it felt as if my shoes had lead in them. Then in a rush I suddenly got my voice back. I started screaming. Screaming

so loud, I'm sure I could have broken someone's ears. Before I knew it I was running. I ran to him, and dropped down. He was in so much pain. You could tell he

was barely able to hold on, just that much longer. He looked into my eyes with those big chocolate eyes of his, and choked out the words that will haunt me

forever. "Mimi, please be alright,". I could have strangled him right there. After all this, and he was still concerned about me. I was just about to answer when I was

shoved aside for the second time, in that short interval of time. Kari pushed me away and screamed something along the lines of "Stay away from my brother.

Haven't you hurt him enough?," In that instant it felt like someone had ripped out my heart and stomped it on the ground. It was my fault. That was the first time, I

really knew it was my fault. I looked away, just to see the faces of Matt, and T.K. Takeru looked horrible. He was pale and his eyes were wide in a mixture of shock

and terror. Matt looked by far the worse though. He was paler than usual, and his eyes seemed to dim. He was clutching T.K.'s shoulder and leaning on him for

support. He looked like he wanted to say something really important, but kept it to himself. I tasted something salty in my mouth, and realized I was crying. I closed

my eyes, trying to get away from this nightmare, just to hear the single highest sob/scream in my life. In that instant I knew, I killed Tai. It's like I could feel his

presence, his essence leaving us. I didn't look back. I couldn't look. I didn't want to see, Tai Kamiya, the single happiest, hyper person in the world, dead. I stood

up and started running. I don't think I even knew where. Away from it, I suppose. Away from the pain. Away from the death. I vaguely remember Palmon calling my

name. I kept running. The next few hours were a blur. I still don't know where I was, or for how long. And now, it's a month later. I can't believe it. The sunshine

has been gone for a month. Sunshine. That's the only way to describe him. He was like the sun. Always shining, always there for you. You could always count on

the sun rising in the morning, just like you could always count on him. I took away the sunshine from our lives. I hate myself. I know everyone else does too. I can

barely breathe still, after all this time. It's like I'm staying alive, but just because it's habit. If I could stop breathing, I would. But I don't like thinking about things

too much. So, I go on with my days. I'm like a robot. Programmed to do the things mandatory, but never really living.

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A/N: Yeah, I don't know about that. FYI: The epilogues kinda dumb, and short. Oh well. Don't know if I like this chapter, but meh. Review, but only if your nice. :