Chapter 7
When we pulled into the garage Edward was waiting. I could see his expression was a worried one. He looked at Alice and then at me. I opened the car door and got out.
"I'm sorry I'm such a danger magnet," I said lowly. How could this happen? I had to be the only person on the face of the planet with this much bad luck.
"Bella don't be sorry," he said as he came to my side. I closed my eyes and rested my head against his chest. I was tired of things going wrong. Why would something or someone ruin my wedding day? I felt tears begin to flood my eyes and I knew they were going to flow out in any second.
"Bella, love, nothing is going to happen," he said trying to comfort me. I felt a tear run down my cheek.
"Bella, please talk to me," he said as he turned my face up to look at him.
"I'm just tired of being the center of all things that could go wrong in Forks," I explained as yet another tear rolled down my cheek.
"Love, I will not let anything ruin our wedding day,"
"I know you will keep me safe Edward. I'm just annoyed that someone would try, on all days our wedding day,"
"Me too," he said he hugged me tight against him and I listened to his breathing. He was so perfect and here I was, pathetic and always getting into some type of trouble. Maybe he was to good for me?
"Edward?"
"Yes?"
"Would you take me home?"
"Yes, if you want to go,"
"If you don't mind,"
"Of course not," he said. We walked over to the Volvo and opening the door for me I got in. He got into the driver's seat and started the car.
"Bella, please cheer up,"
"Sorry, I just wanted everything to be perfect,"
"It will be as long as you are there," His words echoed through my mind as I watched the scenery pass by. Thoughts of my wedding day should have been happy; instead all I could think of was the possibility that something was going to go horribly wrong.
"Bella," Edwards velvety voice brought me from my thoughts.
"Yeah?" I asked turning my eyes to him.
"You're home," I looked out the window to see that I was indeed home. How long had we been here? When did the car stop?
"Oh," was all I could muster. I opened the door and got out of the Volvo. Edward by my side we entered the house. Charlie was in the living room as always.
"Hey Bells, Edward," he said from the living room.
"Dad," I replied.
"I ordered a pizza if you want some,"
"No thanks," He shrugged his shoulders and continued to watch the sporting event. I turned to walk up the stairs, Edward behind me.
"Bella," he said as soon as we entered my room.
"Hmm?
"Please tell me what's bothering you so,"
"Edward, I just don't understand how I have such bad luck,"
"Bella, you must not let this worry you,"
"Edward, I disappeared!"
"Well, I might actually know why,"
"What do you mean, is Alice holding something back from me?
"Not exactly,"
"Edward Cullen! What is it?" I asked exasperated. I had been running circles in my mind trying to figure out why I would have mysteriously disappeared on our wedding day. Nothing had been seen concerning the Volturri and Jacob wouldn't come…or would he?
"Well, I sort of, um, I sent Jacob an invitation,"
"You did what?" I shrieked. Oh no!! That's all I need the day of my wedding!!
"Well, if I were in his position I would like to have the choice,"
"Edward, why?" was all I could say as I sunk down on my bed. I thought my past with Jacob was buried and over with. I didn't think that I would ever have to confront him again.
"Bella, I'm sorry, I just couldn't not send him one after all he did for you and me," I couldn't say anything to his response. I spent the last month or so trying to forget about Jacob Black. It wasn't easy. Even though I loved Edward, a part of me, a smaller part of me longed for Jacob. He had been my sun in the darkest of my days. My very existence at this precise moment was because of him. I could still picture him, shirtless, warm, forest scented-my Jacob.
It was very hard to say goodbye to him. But that I had did when we parted ways after the fight with Victoria. I didn't regret the decision I had made, it just opened old wounds when I learned that he was coming. I didn't know how to react around him.
"Please say something," Edward said taking me into his arms.
"I just don't know how to react to him," I replied honestly.
"He's a friend. Treat him like a friend,"
"It's not that easy,"
"Bella, if you change…,"He started his mind.
"Edward! Do you really think I regret my decision?"
"Well, you could,"
"EDWARD CULLEN! I honestly don't know why you think that. I told you before I know who I can live without and who I cant. And I can't live without you Edward. I can't stand being away from you for more than ten minutes!" I said in a loud whisper. If Charlie wasn't here I would be screaming.
"Bella, calm down!" he said as he turned me to face him. I looked up at his face and saw it lined with regret.
"I'm sorry. It's just so much to take in," I said regretting that I had been so harsh.
"No Bella, I'm sorry. I should have asked before I sent out the invite,"
"Don't be sorry. I was just so sure something completely horrible was going to happen to us on our wedding day and then I find out that it's just a werewolf showing up,"
"Bella, I would never let anything happen,"
"I know Edward, but it is upsetting to hear that you disappear right before you are going to get married,"
"I would have told you when Alice had the vision; I just haven't gotten around to telling her that I invited them yet,"
"You are afraid of Alice!" I taunted. But who wouldn't be? Although her frame was small and she looked like a pixy she was someone you didn't want to cross.
"Well, she would go crazy about seating arrangements and scold me about the stench,"
"Edward, honestly, it would have saved my sanity,"
"Sorry, can you ever forgive me love?" he said as he cupped my chin and brought my face close to his.
"I don't know," I laughed.
"Maybe a little persuasion?
"It might work," I giggled. He gently pressed his lips to my forehead, then gently on my nose. He teased me by skipping over my lips and kissing my chin. He was definitely persuading me nicely. His lips finally met mine and I reveled in the cool touch. His mouth opened slightly as he continued to kiss my lips. I in return met his lips with fury. I couldn't get enough of his lips on mine. His cool breath felt wondrous on my skin. The smell was amazing. He was filling up my head and I was turning to mush. He had no problem convincing me. My heart beat was rapid in my chest and my breathing was becoming more and more absent. Sensing the change in me, Edward directed his kisses to my throat. His lips left goosebumps as he trailed back and forth across my neck.
Every bit of control I had was slowly melting away. He kissed back up my neck and his lips met mine again. His sweet breath entered my mouth as I parted my lips to kiss him back. Once again I was surprised that his tongue had entered my mouth. He hadn't gone this far before, but I was thoroughly enjoying it. I felt my hands knot up in his hair as I started to lose control over myself.
In the back of the mind I knew I should stop this. A few more moments and what little self control that I had wouldn't be existent. My lips just couldn't speak the words. I heard Edward chuckle as he released me from the kiss. He took my hands from his hair and held them between us. Thankfully he still had his self control.
"That was close love," he said.
"Sorry,"
"Silly Bella, don't be sorry,"
"But," he put his finger to my lips then silencing me. I looked up to meet and intense gaze from him.
"Bella, we both about lost it. Don't blame yourself,"
"I know, I just knew in the back of my mind that it had to be done and I couldn't bring myself to say it,"
"You are human Bella,"
"I know," I grumbled, pathetic human, always so frail and helpless. When I was finally a vampire we wouldn't have to worry about these things. I would be more durable, I'd be his equal.
"Bella, there is nothing wrong with being human,"
"Edward, I am the most danger prone person on the planet and I can't even do anything to defend myself," I argued.
"Bella, I will keep you safe,"
"Edward. I don't want you to always have to worry about. I want to be able to take care of myself,"
"Bella, as my wife, it will be my duty to take care of you,"
"That's different Edward,"
"No Bella, it's not,"
"I'm tired of being breakable, I just want to be your equal," I said almost sobbing. The emotion of the conversation had taken over me quickly. I really hadn't expected to become so overwhelmed.
"Bella, my sweet, please do not cry. You know we have a deal and I will keep my side of it,"
"I'm sorry Edward. I just get so aggravated when I think of how much trouble I cause,"
"You, my love, do not cause me trouble. You make me happy. From the moment I see you to the moment before I leave I am happy. You fulfill me in everyway,"
"You are my everything Edward,"
"And you are mine,"
"Edward?"
"Yes?"
"What are we going to do about Jacob?" my worries had momentarily ceased to exist thanks to the make out session.
"Well, hopefully he is coming only to wish us well. In that case we will greet him with happiness,"
"But what if he isn't there to wish us well?
"Let's just hope that he's coming to wish us well,"
"Edward, but what if he isn't?"
"Bella, do you really what to know?"
"Yes, Edward I do,"
"If he comes to cause trouble on our wedding day, I may just break his neck,"
"Edward!" I gasped. Surely he wasn't serious! I didn't want our wedding ruined anymore than he did. But harming Jacob was just out of the question.
"Sorry love, I just couldn't let anything go wrong,"
"But really Edward, you could just throw him back over the border,"
"Bella, if he tries to ruin the wedding I can't guarantee anything,"
"Please don't hurt him Edward. I don't think I could stand to see either of you hurt the other," I said. After all this was my fault. If I hadn't absently fallen in love with a werewolf then we wouldn't have anything to worry about. I obviously loved Edward more, no doubt about it. But I just couldn't stand to see nor tolerate them hurting one another.
"Bella, I really don't think I could tolerate someone trying to ruin our special day,"
"Edward, please, this means a lot to me. I don't want anyone to ruin our day either. But it would hurt me much more if someone was physically hurt,"
"I will try my best love,"
"Thank you," I replied smiling. I looked into his eyes and saw that they were smoldering.
"You're welcome," he said as he planted a kiss on my forehead.
"What is it?" I asked seeing his expression change to a rather amused one.
"Charlie, he's about to go crazy with me up here,"
"Oh," I said realizing that Charlie knew he was in my bedroom.
"He's mentally loading his shotgun now," he chuckled. I laughed to. We walked out of my room and back down the stairs. I had forgotten that Charlie was even home, that he even knew that Edward was in my room. I could see his dislike when we reached the bottom of my stairs.
"See you tomorrow love," Edward said as he gave me a hug.
"Tonight?" I said in a whisper so that Charlie could not hear.
"Of course," he murmured back. He released me from the hug and smiling wickedly he left.
(A/N: I was recently asked if I was team Edward or Jacob. Well, I'm not totally sure how to respond to this. Obviously from the story line Edward and Bella are together. It's not that I don't like Jacob. I think he deserves a shot at love, just like everyone else. I just personally feel that Edward and Bella were meant to be together. But maybe Jacob will find a love of his own one day?)
