A/N: So here is Chapter 7. I hope you enjoy it.
I also want to say a big thanks to Ash for Beta reading and giving me some ideas. You are the best!!!
CHAPTER 7 – I CANT BE FRIENDS WITH YOU
"So how are things between you and Addison?" Derek casually asked Mark
"Oh you know she's just been a pain at the moment. She wants to argue about everything. I'm going to have to do something to rein her back in. I don't like it when she starts to want to do her own thing and not go along with what I want. Why do you ask" Mark replied
"Look Mark I'm just lookin' out for you. You do understand that Addison is a very beautiful woman."
"I'm very well aware of how beautiful my wife is thanks Derek. Besides when she needs it I can fix anything that she may need to keep her looking as good as she does." Mark said rather smugly
"All I'm saying is if you have stopped paying attention to her; there are plenty of men out there who would be more than happy to fill your shoes."
"What are you talking about?" Mark asked
"I think you may need to give her a little of the... what is it the nurses call you, oh yeah McSteamy. Yeah you may need to turn on the McSteamy Charm for her."
"Win her back over you mean. So she will fall back into line?" Mark answered.
"Yeah, look you're smart enough to keep your extracurricular activities quite secretive but rumours get around. If you don't want to lose her I suggest you focus on her for a while."
"You're right. What better way than to organize a surprise Christmas vacation. I might go and see the Chief and see if we can take the break between Christmas and New Year. I'll see if we can go to Aspen for some skiing and sex."
"I think that sounds good. I'll leave it with you" Derek said as he left Marks office.
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It was 3 days since the hospital Christmas party and Alex and Addison had had no time to talk about what had happened between them. Alex was so confused. On one hand Mark spoke so highly of his wife yet the argument he overheard and the way Mark spoke to her was not pleasant. Then of course there was the kiss that he couldn't get out of his mind. All he could think about was making love to her again and again. These thoughts occupied almost his every waking moment.
Confusion reached a whole new level for Alex when he rounded the corner and saw one of Mark's arms loosely around Addison's waist while the other one caressed her face. They were deep in conversation. Alex noticed Addison looking up at Mark and smiling. Alex was seething he felt like a schmuck. How could I be so stupid to think that someone like Addison Montgomery- Sloan would want to be with me?
What Alex didn't know; as he didn't know the whole story was that the smile Addison was giving Mark was not a genuine smile. It was a fake smile she had learnt to perfect over the years.
Alex turned and walked away before he could be seen. He walked towards the nurses' station and picked up his charts and began his day determined to forget about the gorgeous redhead that had worked her way into his heart.
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"Alex, I'm glad I found you." Mark said
"Why what have you got for me?" As jealous of Mark as he was, he respected him and was happy that Mark was a very willing teacher.
"I have some skin grafts scheduled in half an hour; I'd like you to do it. I'll be there to assist of course but I think you're ready" Mark answered
"Great thanks"
"Oh I thought I should mention I'm taking next week off. I cleared it with the Chief, Addison and I need some time alone together. I'm taking her to Aspen for some skiing and trying to get back in her good books. I've been taking her for granted lately so I need to make it up to her." Mark informed Alex
"Oh well have a good time"
That must have been what he was telling her when I saw them talking. Well that's it. I don't know what kind of games she's playing with me. But it ends now. I will not be her toy she can just use when Mark is ignoring her.
Alex performed the skin graft with a little help from Mark. He was happy with his work; Mark praised his attention to detail before he left for the day. Alex should have been elated because praise from Mark Sloan did not come easy, but he wasn't. As soon as he had finished with his surgery, Addison came straight back into his mind. He went to a bar had quite a bit to drink in the hopes of getting Addison out of his head. He knew it would take time but he had to do it. It was a virtual impossibility that she was ever going to be his.
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Addison walked into Naomi's office, and sat down on her lounge.
"What's wrong now?' Naomi asked
"Mark is a jerk; he is beginning to suffocate me." Addison seethed
"What's he done?"
"He has decided that we need a vacation. We need to get back on track. It's all such bullshit. He thinks he can win me over with a fancy holiday, expensive Christmas gifts and sex."
"Mmm, well Addie isn't that what he has always done? Usually you have been happy with that. I'm guessing a certain 3rd year Resident has changed your view on the expensive gifts the vacation and the sex. Which by the way you used to say was mind blowing."
"Yeah well that was before Alex" Addison muttered softly.
"Addie I said it before and I'll say it again, I'm not Mark's biggest fan never have been but you are playing with fire if you get involved with Alex, for both your sakes Mark will make your lives a living hell."
"I know he will, It's just when I'm with Alex I'm happy really happy and all I want to do is lock him in a room and get him naked."
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The day before Addison and Mark were to leave for their Christmas vacation, Addison finally caught up with Alex for a long overdue talk.
"Hi Dr Karev I wonder if I could speak to you for a moment"
"Dr Montgomery-Sloan I really don't think we have anything to talk about. So if you will excuse me, I'm very busy" Alex said as he made to leave.
Addison reached out and touched his arm. Her touch alone, gave him goose bumps up his arm. He closed his eyes briefly before turning to face her.
"Alex, please let me explain"
"There's nothing to explain, really." He replied
Addison didn't want to have this conversation in the corridor to be overheard by god knows who, so she looked around quickly and when she realized they were alone she pulled him into the closest linen supply closet.
Once inside Addison began to explain. "Alex I know you must be really angry with me but you have to believe me I don't want to go on this trip. It wasn't my idea."
"Then why go Addison?" Alex said trying to keep his voice controlled.
"It's complicated" She muttered
"No it's not actually it's pretty simple from where I'm sitting, let me explain it to you. You are a beautiful, spoilt woman who can have whatever she wants, when her husband is a little busy at work and neglects her a little you decide to slum it with the help. I don't want to play your games. So this is where it ends." Alex said nastily as he made his way to the door.
"Is that what you really think of me? That I would string you along to fill in my time, while my husband is busy working. In case you have failed to notice, I happen to have a very demanding career myself. I do not need to be chasing after a younger man. You think Mark is so wonderful, don't you? Well I'm not going to crush your illusions but when you get to see the real Mark and you will in time; come and talk to me then." Addison replied
"You keep saying that your husband is this monster, but from what I can see he adores you."
"That's what he wants you to think until he knows he can trust you. Once he has tested your loyalties he will show you the real Mark. Look I don't want to pull you into my mess, and I certainly don't want to complicate your life. But I would really like us to be friends."
"I can't be friends with you." Alex said sadly as he looked in her eyes for the first time.
"I thought we could be mature about this." Addison said sadly
"This has nothing to do with maturity. It has to do with is self preservation."
"Oh Alex."
"See being friends with you is not enough for me. I will always want more, and I have to try to get over you and I never will if we are friends and we spend time together."
"I understand."
"No I don't think you do, see Addison friends don't know the things we know about each other. Friends don't know what it feels like to feel the others lips on theirs. Friends don't know what it feels like to hold each other, caress each other make love to each other. As your friend I shouldn't know how your naked body feels underneath me, trembling just before you climax. Friends just don't know those things." He finished.
Addison was now backed up against the door with Alex standing inches away from her. Both of their breaths were coming in gasps as they stared into each other's eyes. Alex's words had only served to arouse both of them. Minute after minute they looked at each other with want and desire, neither one wanting to make the first move.
Addison reached up and touched the side of his face lightly before he pulled her body to his and kissed her with everything he had. The kiss was fast, heated and passionate. They were both so desperate for each other. Alex's tongue explored her mouth and she moaned her approval.
Addison's hands moved down the front of his shirt to and began to lift it as he started undoing the buttons on her shirt. The kissing intensified, but before anything else could happen Alex's pager went off.
They pulled away reluctantly, as Alex looked down at his pager and then back at Addison.
"I have to go" He said as he looked at her
"Of course. I guess we still need to sort this out."
"Have a good trip Addison." Alex said sadly as he moved past her to reach the door.
"Merry Christmas Alex" She said and kissed him softly one more time before he left.
Addison spent another 15 minutes in the supply cupboard contemplating what she wanted to do. All I know right now is that I want Alex and I'm going to miss him terribly while I'm stuck in Aspen with Mark.
A/N: Thanks for reading. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Please be kind and review!!
