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I have had a lot of trouble writing this chapter. I hope its okay.

A: N: Disclaimer I do not own rookie blue. I just own the story I am writing.

Chapter Seven

Sam was sitting in the locker room. Trying to occupy himself from the day he didn't want to come. Today was the day of the funeral for his best friend. He sat in the locker room looking at his formal uniform that he was wearing to the funeral. He sat there with his cap of the uniform in his hand, just spinning it around his finger. He didn't want to put that uniform on. It made it real. Made him realise that t his best friend Jerry really wasn't coming back. Of course he already knew this. After all he was there watching his best friend in pain. He was there waiting to hear the news about his best friend in the hospital. He was there when he heard the news that Jerry didn't make it. That he had passed away. He was there when he saw Traci break down after hearing that Jerry didn't make it. He was there when Andy told her best friend the news. But this, today, sitting in the locker room looking at his formal uniform, spinning the cap in his hand, this made it all too real.

He wasn't used to this. Saying goodbye to somebody Sam wasn't used to feeling this way. Wasn't used to feeling so emotionless, so numb, so empty, so someone so close to him. Saying goodbye to his mate, who he had met in the academy who had became his best friend.

He kept thinking how this shouldn't have happened. How he should have been there for his best friend. But at the same time, he knew he had to be there for his girlfriend, Andy. The thought of her made him sigh. He didn't know what to think, what to do. He knew he needed to talk to her. He knew that he had to make her understand. Why this was so hard for him. Why it wasn't easy for him to talk to her about this. About her getting drugged and attacked. How that whole situation affected him. How that made him feel. How hearing she on the phone that morning, the way she talked, scared him to death. How not seeing her at work that morning absolutely terrified him.

But right now, that could wait. Right now, this morning was about saying goodbye to his best friend. And that absolutely terrified him.

A: N 2 sorry it is a short chapter. I had to think really hard with this chapter. The next chapter will be Jerry's funeral