"What is that supposed to mean?" Rin had to be drunk or high or something didn't he? He was so close, "Can't you let me get inside before we talk?"

"You smell good, Haru." Rin finally backed off, allowing Haru to open his door. "I've been thinking about what you said."

"I think you must be drunk?" Haru insisted as he made his way into the kitchen to get a bottle of water. Rin was making his throat go dry again. Haru drank the liquid down as Rin watched him far too closely. It was like being under a microscope because Rin seem to be literally drinking Haru in with his eyes.

"I'm not drunk, Haru. I just, I have been thinking of what you said and I can't get it off my mind. I even watched your kind of porn and then I remembered how good you look."

Haru leaned into the fridge because he felt as if all the air in the room was being sucked away and he was going to fall over. Rin was not really here and he was not really saying that. Right?

But it wasn't right because Rin kept coming closer and soon had both of his arms against the sides of the fridge encasing Haru against it. "I can't get thoughts of being with you out of my head. Don't you want to touch me Haru?"

"Touch you? Are you saying what I think you're saying?"

"It is just sex, right?" Rin was using that tone, that husky voice and he was moving in so close. "I want you, Haru."

The way he said 'Haru', it was almost like a moan and Haruka could feel his heart jump into his throat. "You don't know what you're saying Rin. You don't really want that."

"You know that night when we had that talk? There was a moment there where you were quiet Haru and you were checking me out almost shamelessly. You should've seen the look on your face and the way you bit your lip. I've never thought anything was so sexy in my life, Haru. I am telling you. I want you. I mean it!"

"Why? Is this some kind of experiment for you, Rin? Why do you want to risk our friendship?"

"Haru. It would just be one night. Let's forget and let's get lost together. I am curious. I want to know what it is like to be with you, to be intimate with you. Haru." Rin moved closer, his nose brushing over Haru's. "I'm not playing a game here. Just give in to that desire you were talking about Haru."

"You have lost your mind right? You don't want this! You don't know what you are saying. We shouldn't. We can't."

"Why not Haru? Aren't you a virgin? Don't you want to know? Aren't you the least bit curious? Tell me what you were thinking in the shower that day." Rin's breath was warm and so close, so very close.

"Rin. I don't want to gamble with our friendship. It means too much. You mean too much." Haru's voice was a soft protest and his heart had never beat so fast, not even from swimming.

Rin reached out, cupping Haru's face and moved back just enough that he could stare at him with those crimson eyes, which were half lidded. The desire in his eyes looked and felt so real, especially with how dreadfully close he was. "I want you, Haru." The way he said it this time, he sounded so convincing and so turned on. He meant what he was saying and Haru could no longer deny that much at least.

Haru grew quiet, just staring into Rin's eyes in return, mesmerized at how incredibly sexy he was up this close and with all his attention on Haru. Haru swallowed and knew if Rin tried anything he was a goner.

"Haru. What do you say? I know you want me, you made that perfectly clear before. I can't get you off my mind, Haru. I want to hear you moan and I want to make you feel things you have never felt. Sex, it is intense Haru. It feels amazing and I really want to experience what that is like with you. I know I have never thought of this until now. Until I knew what you felt, but I think something is awakening in me that was already always there."

"What does that even mean Rin?"

"I think I have always been attracted to you too. I know I looked at you a lot more than others and I know even when I was little that I was drawn to you more than any other person, Haru. Let's give in. Haru. Don't worry about tomorrow."

It was hard to not worry but Haru's resistance was a very thin line and Rin looked so good, smelled so nice and sounded so sensual. He was so close and he was offering himself up in a way Haru had been imagining in his mind for the longest time. "We can't..." Haru's tone was so halfhearted, his resolved was melting like ice in an oven.

Rin moved in closer again, brushing his nose against Haru's once more. "Can I at least kiss you?" A kiss? Wasn't that innocent enough? Haru had never even done that but he knew Rin had and he had even seen him kiss his girlfriend in the past.

Haru didn't speak but simply closed his eyes and waited. It was soft, it was sweet and it was something he could tell he was going to end up longing for. He could swear it was making him dizzy as it got more intense when Rin ended up with a very persistent tongue as well. It went from innocent to passionate, Haru felt heat rise from his middle and he sighed softly. This was some form of heaven.

He wanted to give in but, Haru pulled out of the kiss gently and was heavily panting. "Rin. I still think this is a bad-" Maybe Rin didn't want to hear that because he went right back to kissing Haru and his arms somehow found there way aound Haru's waist. And it was so confusing because something like this. Something that was supposed to be wrong and feel wrong. Yet it felt so right.

Haru let out the tiniest moan as he laced his fingers up into Rin's soft red hair and it reminded him of that moment on the couch when Rin had rested his head on Haru's lap. It was so nice to play with his hair but doing so while kissing was so much better. A light feeling seemed to envelope Haru, it was sweet but also a little bitter.

This was nice but it was only for one night. It wasn't anything serious and if Rin wanted it to be this way and Rin seemed to want it just as bad as Haru knew he always had.

Why not?

These feelings, this attraction, it was not going anywhere so trying to make it go was just a waste of time. And this was probably some off once in a lifetime thing. The straight friend who becomes curious to know what it is like to be with another male. What would Rin really think in the morning?

Haru's head was spinning, too many things happening at once and he should really stop thinking. Should stop over-analyzing the entire thing. Rin pulled away this time, grazing his nose against Haru's again and placing light kisses over Haru's lips. It was all so sweet.

Haru roust up every bit of nerve he had and took Rin by the hand. "Wait. Just no regrets? Promise?" Rin nodded and had a stupid sexy grin on his face.

Once in his room, Haru gave Rin the same sort of treatment and it wasn't for revenge. It was all that pent up desire being unleashed on Rin. Haru pinned him to the wall and seized his lips, perhaps it was too eager but it felt freeing to just be. To just give in to this and forget the mess that it really was.

Pulling away from Rin, Haru looked at him closely and could hardly believed how flushed his face was and how hard he was breathing. He looked so sexy, Haru felt a pang of guilt, he wanted this but he didn't want to deal with what happens afterwards. This was reckless and foolish.

"Stop thinking Haru. Don't back out on me now, please Haru? I assure you that I am a grown man and I know exactly what I want and what I am doing here with you." Rin was pleading but it was so breathy and it sounded so needy and it was so damn convincing.

"I just how can you be so sure that this is what you want when you don't even know what you are really getting into?" Haru sounded unsure, frustrated but his voice also held a longing in it.

"Haru, I know full well. I told you. How many times do I have to say it? I want to give myself to you. I want to know what it feels like to have you fuck me senseless. You would not believe how turned on just thinking about this has made me. Haru. I want you so bad that I cannot see straight. And I know you want me, I can feel it in the way you kissed me just now."

In truth, Haru's mind was shifting back and forth like weighing his options plus this was all so new. A first kiss that lead to sex? It felt really rushed but he wasn't completely opposed to the idea of it, just so overwhelmed. "I turn you on?"

Rin softly chuckled as he playfully bit at Haru's lower lip. "I am now and all you did was kiss me." He was soon running a trail of kisses down Haru's jaw and neck, Rin must be frustrated because he shifted their positions and pinned Haru against the wall pressing his body close. "I know you can feel that, Haru. That is all because of you."

Haru hissed, feeling a warmth against his skin where Rin was nipping and sucking at his neck. Groaning softly when he felt Rin's body, he was so hard. Haru could feel his own body respond as Rin slowly moved his hips. Just barely causing friction, "Rin. You better not regret this tomorrow."

Rin just chuckled, he seemed so sure of himself. "You were all I thought about for the past few weeks. We can move slow, I know you have never been with anyone and I have only been with one person before. Haru. We have all night."

"Just how much do you know about this really Rin? Do you know about preparations? Do you know we need lube?" Haru realized he had nothing that could work for that and wondered just how prepared Rin really was or if he had researched this as thoroughly as he seemed to think he had.

"Fuck." Rin groaned and sounded really frustrated, "Okay I didn't think that far into it."

''They sell it at the convenience store." Haru remarked, "If you really want to go any further, I suggest you go get some." Haru was being a pain sure but he knew it would go no further without it.

"Haruuuuu. Fine." Rin huffed and hugged Haru. "You're a pain in the ass. You know that?"

"That's what the lube is for Rin. So I won't be that kind of pain." Haru was now softly chuckling and Rin's face was so red.

"I hate you, Haru." Rin said this sounding frustrated and annoyed but also slightly amused and maybe he felt a bit of relief at how light Haru sounded.

"No, you don't Rin." Haru brushed his hand over the front of Rin's pants and kissed his lips softly. "You made that perfectly clear with this and with your words and your persistent kisses."

Rin just groaned. "I'll be back soon. Don't change your mind, please. This is embarrassing buying these things this late at night. God, if I didn't want you so bad I would never subject myself to this, Haru."

"I know that Rin."