Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight sorry people I wish I did.
So chapter 7. You know people I have nothing to do today and I'm so bored that I decided to write. And soon possibly make some drama with this hag from hell (I didn't come up with the little name I have for this chick all credit goes to a book haha) but that's another story for another time. Sorry if it takes too long for me to update. I might be moving. And people that is a very very sad thing for me. By the way I forgot to tell y'all that Alice's dog Buster is real and he's my doggy. :) I love him.
While Alice was getting ready for the show I sat down and thought about a lot of stuff. I thought about how easy it is for me to open up around Alice like I have never opened up before. I also thought about the thoughts I have been having lately. Like the ones I can't control, they just kind of slip out of my mind. I never really thought of a woman in the way that I ,uncontrollably, think about Alice, Hell I don't think I ever thought about anyone in that way before. There was something deep down inside me that made butterflies in my stomach whenever I thought about Alice. And it's all happening so fast, I've only known her for a few hours.
It can't be happening that fast can it? I mean let's be logical here. I have known this wonderful being for about 3 or more hours. I don't know her yet she makes my stomach churn. To me that doesn't make sense. Then a thought popped into what about the whole love at first sight thing? I didn't believe that crap did I? Maybe if it's happening to me it didn't matter if I believed or not. Well whatever this feeling is I'm not going to show any of it. Because who knows if she likes me the same way. And who knows if she has the same feelings and I don't want to risk a friendship over that.
That same thing deep down inside me made me tingle when Alice hugged me when she first walked into the room and found me there. Did Alice know something? Did she know that this was going to happen? Could she feel it too? Why is this happening so fast? Was it supposed to? What am I going to do about it?
These questions and tons more were floating around in my head when Alice came out to show off her outfit.
As we were on our way back to her dressing room she spoke."Something wrong Bella?" She asked as if she can read my mind. Am I really that obvious?
I blushed a little. And answered sheepishly "Just thinking. It's a lot to take in you know? Being backstage at a Alice Brandon concert. Who happens to be one of my favorite artists in music" I smiled. That was half true at least. So I wasn't lying. But there was still that other issue at hand. I can't let her know about that one though. At least not yet.
"Yeah I guess that would be a lot" She said as we entered the dressing room. I tried not to think too much about Alice and focused on the fact that I have to face Rosalie again. That chick has issues. And even though I didn't exactly know what they were about I knew she didn't like me.
We walked into her dressing room and of course her family was still hanging out in here. Rosalie glared at me Esme and Carlisle smiled and Emmett and Edward didn't pay me any mind.
I sat down in a empty chair and watched as Alice got her hair done. I thought about everything again. I couldn't keep my mind off of it. Like what was I going to do? Nothing? Just act like I don't feel a thing. Sounds hard. But I guess if I let it get out and Alice doesn't feel the same way that won't be good. And it will be defiantly awkward. After a few minutes of being wrapped in my thoughts James, Alice's makeup artist's voice broke though my thoughts. "Bella would you like to do Alice's touch up work?" he asked in a bored tone.
"Sure," I said a little surprised. I didn't know I was still helping. But whatever gets me up close and personal with Alice works for me.
"Bella I didn't know you were a makeup artist's assistant?" Esme exclaimed with a shocked expression.
"I'm not. James here just that I was good at my makeup and his assistant isn't here today so I got to do Alice's makeup earlier." I said with a smile. I defiantly enjoyed doing Alice's makeup.
"Oh. That's good. And I have to agree" she said looking at my makeup. I blushed. I was never really good with having people's eyes on me. When she realized what I was blushing for she looked away from my makeup and smiled apologetically.
I blushed as I walked over to where Alice was seated in front of the same mirror that she used earlier. I could feel everyone's eyes on me but I kept my eyes on Alice and I didn't feel as weird.
"Okay for the record I asked him to let you do my makeup." She said with a smile. Gosh her smile was beautiful. It was really big and she had perfect teeth. It gave me butterflies. There's another thing to add to the list of things about Alice that give me butterflies.
"And why is that" I asked getting started. I did exactly everything he did earlier. I took my time and used the same makeup.
"I don't really know," she said with a puzzled look on her face. "I like your touch. It's more gentle than his." She said. After a moment she looked shocked. "Did I just really say that out loud?" She asked looking at me with a hilarious look on her face.
I couldn't help but laugh. "Yes you did. And I don't mind but don't make me laugh I'll mess up your makeup. Do you really want to go on stage looking like a monkey did you makeup?" I asked still giggling a little.
"Are you saying that you a monkey? I don't know what kind of monkey looks like that. Well maybe a Bella monkey." She was giggling so much I had to put my hand on her head to stop it from moving. "That's what you are a Bella monkey."
I giggled too. "I'm defiantly not a monkey Alice. Well I guess technically speaking I am because we all are but that gets complicated."
"Fine maybe you not a monkey. But to answer your earlier question no I don't want to look like a monkey did my makeup." She was still giggling a little.
It didn't take long to do her makeup. I was only doing a touch up. So I was nearly done. And Alice made the time fly faster than I thought possible.
I smiled as I pulled out the last thing. The strawberry Lipsmakers lip gloss. Alice's specialty. I wasn't sure if I should put it on her or not. I did last time but her family is in the room. And that would be a little more than awkward don't you think.
"I'm waiting." she whispered with a smirk on her face. I guess Alice's plans were different. And I would just focus on the closeness of Alice and forget about the fact that her family might be watching.
I smiled at her and leaned in. I never noticed before now that her scent was so over powering. And it defiantly smelled good. I loved it. And even though it would be totally weird I wanted to stick my face into the crook of her neck and just inhale the scent.
I could feel everyone staring at us. Maybe they were waiting for something I'm not sure. But I didn't think much about it I just thought about the fact that I was putting lip gloss on Alice Brandon for the second time and the fact that he scent was driving me crazy. It made my head spin. And how close I was to her. I could feel her breath on my face.
I added dramatic affect by putting it on slowly plus I did not want to pull away. After I was done I felt the sudden urge to lean in and let my lips meet Alice's. It was at that time that I realized that I never wanted Alice to be out of my life. I wanted her in my life somehow even if it couldn't be the way I wanted it to be. I leaned in a little but then sense came back into my head and I quickly snapped back. God I'm such an idiot.
I think Alice caught my momentary loss of self awareness. She gave me a strange look. I think I saw sadness in her eyes but I couldn't be positive because I was trying to avoid her eyes. I was blushing like mad and looking down like I was suddenly interested in the floor. Which I have to say was very colorful and pretty.
I stepped back and looked around the room. Everyone was looking at me. I blushed and looked down at me feet again.
Esme cleared her throat "Bella would you like to sit with us during the show?" she asked in a motherly tone. "That way you're not alone." She smiled at me.
"Sure" I said. I don' t think I could have said no. I mean if I wanted Alice in my life I might want to make sure her family likes me too. And I didn't really want to be a lonely freak that seemed to be obsessed with Alice since I had a front row seat and would be screaming and cheering. "Thanks" I said smiling back at her.
"No problem" she said with a knowing smile which would have totally freaked me out if it wasn't coming from her.
"Well I got to go get set up and microphoned and everything. If anyone else noticed the show will start in an hour," Alice said getting off the chair.
"See you at center stage" I said with a beaming smile at Alice."And if you happen to see Angela would you let her know I'm back and safe" I added. I knew in the back of her mind she would be worrying about me. That's just how she is, she's very caring. Yet very annoying. I swear I couldn't do anything without her finding a million ways I could hurt myself. Of course I still did it anyway and sometimes I even got her to do whatever it is with me.
"Sure Bella. See you guys" She said with a small wave. She and I looked into each other's eyes for the last second before she shut the door behind her. I would never forget this. The look in her eyes like she was upset she had to leave me. Even though I would not let myself think that it was possible that Alice Brandon liked me back in that way I still dreamed she did. And who wouldn't dream that Alice freaking Brandon liked them. I just wish things would slow down a bit. I guess I'll have to make them.
I'm kind of disappointed with this chapter. It's shorter than all the rest. :( Well I guess that doesn't mean it's not good. But anyway I don't think you were expecting two chapters in two days! Haha. Tell me what you think by hitting the green review button and typing whatever comes to mind ;). Haha.
