Magnus POV
Magnus stood in front of the mirror and looked at the freshly applied thin line of glitter eyeliner on his eyelids. He had been listening to music all morning while getting ready. This was not a regular occurrence, music of this century was so drag.
However one song particular always made him think of Alec. Mr. Lightwood had looked more sturdy today when he left the Bane apartment. He left with no trepidation, only confidence. Magnus had wondered what had changed over night. He knew Alexanders parents knew nothing of there relationship, and it had bothered him, he knew it. But at the same time Magnus knew, Alec wasn't ready to come out, and Magnus would wait.
The song that reminded him Alexander played out the speakers and he reached over to turn it up as he did his hair.
So I got my boots on,
Got the right amount of leather
And I'm doing me up with a black coloured liner
And I'm working my strut but I know it don't matter
All we need in this world is some love
There's a thin line between the dark side,
And the light side, baby tonight
It's a struggle gotta rumble, tryin'a find it
[Chorus:]
But if I had you,
That would be the only thing I'd ever need
Yeah if I had you,
Then money, fame and fortune never could compete
If I had you,
Life would be a party, it'd be ecstasy
Yeah, if I had you
You y-y-y-y-you y-y-y-y-y-you y-y-y-y-y-you
If I had you
From New York to LA getting high rock and rolling
Get a room trash it up 'til it's ten in the morning
Girls in stripper heels, boys rolling in Maserati's
What they need in this world is some love
There's a thin line between the wild time,
And a flat-line, baby tonight
It's a struggle gotta rumble, tryin'a find it
[Chorus:]
But if I had you,
That would be the only thing I'd ever need
Yeah if I had you,
Then money, fame and fortune never could compete
If I had you,
Life would be a party, it'd be ecstasy
Yeah, if I had you
You y-y-y-y-you y-y-y-y-y-you y-y-y-y-y-you
If I had-
The flashing of the lights
It might feel so good
But I got you stuck on my mind, yeah
The flashing and the stage, it might get me high
But it don't mean a thing tonight
That would be the only thing I'd ever need
Yeah if I had you,
Then money, fame and fortune never could compete
If I had you,
Life would be a party it'd be ecstasy
Yeah if I had you
You y-y-y-y-you y-y-y-y-y-you y-y-y-y-y-you
If I had you
That would be the only thing I'd ever need
Yeah if I had you,
Then money, fame and fortune never could compete
(Never could compete with you)
If I had you, life would be a party, it'd be ecstasy
(It'd be ecstasy with you)
Yeah if I had you
You y-y-y-y-you y-y-y-y-y-you y-y-y-y-y-you
If I had you.
"Oh, Alec." He set the comb down on the counter and pulled out the iPod from the iHome. While he agreed with res of society that the portable plug in was 'cute', he liked it much better being drowned in the music.
Jace POV
He slammed the door to the shower shut and wrapped the white towel around his tan waist. When he caught his eye in the mirror he felt like he was looking at a stranger. Jace had, had the same nightmare all night, always about the same person. He wondered when it would stop.
His friends tried to tell him he was nothing like Valentine, but he couldn't bring himself to believe him. Except when he really thought about it. His father had lied to him, made his ten year old son believe he was dead, then left him all alone.
Jace would never have done that to his own son, if he ever got lucky enough to have one. What makes you a father? he thought to himself. Is it unconditional love? Or pretending your dead, then coming back?
He thought about the movie Fight Club and what one of the characters had said "It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything." Jace wondered when he would finally lose everything?
He only knew two things for certain, one of them was that he absolutely wanted to hate Valentine.
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
Only when I stop to think about you,
I know
Only when you stop to think about me,
do you know?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me?
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
Jace didn't feel like the release was enough. And it wasn't.
"Fuck!" he yelled. Was he really everything like his father, like so many wanted to believe? Wanted to say about him?
I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you
I could be fake
I could be stupid
You know I could be just like you
You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
I could be cold
I could be ruthless
You know I could be just like you
I could be weak
I could be senseless
You know I could be just like you
You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
On my own, cause I can't take living with you
I'm alone, so I won't turn out like you
Want me to
You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you
Jace bent over and coughed. His breathing was labored and rough, he could feel it escaping his mouth. He wanted to pull it all back in just quickly. He moved the small trashcan next to the toilet to him and heaved.
Am I really just like him?
