I'M ALIVE! I won't waste any time, so here you go! Split into 2 parts so you can finally read something. ENJOY!


I didn't even know that Vega was Cat's ride home. I guess that I was too engrossed in Cat's "thoughts" to even think of Tori or anything else for that matter. after Vega had caught us in the act, I took the walk of shame to my car in the now empty parking lot, and took the long way home. After a 45 minute ride, stopping at a corner store for a case of beer, and three cans later, I was buzzed, pissed, and till turned on. I threw out the third can and reached to the passenger seat for a fourth.

I had drove off to a closed off road in the woods, far away from any houses so i wouldn't be disturbed. There's a tiny ledge over a stream that sweeps a calm over me. But not tonight. There was no calm or happy thougths. Hell, I couldn't even think of a good murder strategy for Tori! I cracked open the fourth can and gulped it down, drowning my thoughts my stressed thoughts. I threw the empty can out the window as my cell buzzed on the dashboard. I grimaced at the caller ID: Vega.

I opened a fith can before answering. "What bitch?" I slurred over the speaker, burping and bringing up what I ate for lunch.

There was a short pause before she answered. "Jade, don't give me any attitude right now. I just want to know what happened between you and Cat." I could hear soft music playing in the background, letting me know that she was home, probably in her room... with Cat.

I didn't care what I said at this point, even if "my love" was in the room. I put down my beer and snickered. "What did it look like we were doing? We were about to fuck before your nosey gank ass had to ruin the fun." I heard a squeak of surprise and a failed attempt at covering a sniffel.

"Jade! Don't say that about me and you made Cat cry!" I shrugged my shoulders at her remake, not caring even if Jesus heard what I said, and picked up my beer to finish it off.

I heard Tori let out an exasperated sigh and spoke again. "Alright, Jade. I know you don't care about waht you said about me , but at least have the respect to apologize to Cat," I heard turn off the music, "she told what you said... that you love her."

I crashed the can in my hands, accidently cutting my palm and making a red line. It was a good one too, right down the middle, starting to bleed slowly. I let a drop of blood slide down my forearm and land on my exposed thigh.

"And? Friends say they love each other all the time, what's so different about it now, Vega?" I said bitterly, trying to choke back the tears that were threatening to fall down my cheeks.

"You love her more than just a friend, Jade West! You love her and don't act like it's not true!" I let the blood to continue dripping down my arm and on my slutty dress. Is this love? Letting one's heart beat for someone they know they can't have but yet still run after them, bleed for them? That's not the kind of love I want.

Vega kept going on her rant. "Oh, I see. This is all because of Beck, isn't? You wanted to make him jealeous by going out with Cat, so you guys could get back together. That's sick, Jade, and you know it! How could you take Cat's innocence and try to-" For the next few seconds, it sounded like Tori was getting into a struggle and soon I heard Cat's timid voice.

"Jade..." she let my name sink in while trying to compose her words, "... is it true?" she sniffeled.

I could imgaine her cute little face, tear streaked and red. I let the tearsin my eyes fall down my cheeks and took a deep breath. "No, Catrina." I said a little agitated. I only used her full name when I was drunk and irritable, which I was now!

Cat gasped over the speaker. "Jade West, are you... drunk?!"

I snickered and picked up the beer and took a long swig. "Maaaybe..." I dragged out the word for emphasis.

I was drunk, out in the middle of nowhere, and crying like a wimp. I did this often. Drive in the middle of the night, pick up a case of beer or bottle of Vodka, and sulk on my ledge, drinking my emotional and mental scars away. I first found the place after Beck and I were having a fight, of course. It was right after Vega had gotten us back together with that stupid Rottweiler. We were having our typical makeout session when I wouldn't let him take it a step further, since I had a certain redhead on my mind and I didn't want a repeat of last time. I took his car and drove, drove far away from Beck's crappy RV and all of his horomonal tendencies, and found this place. A nice secluded spot no one will find... except Cat.

I wiped away my stupid tears and sighed once again to hear Cat say, "I'm coming to pick you up. I 'll be there in 40 minutes." she hung up before I could bitch at her to not get me and to take her ass home.

I slapped my forehead in aggravation and got a face full of hot blood. "Jesus, fuck!" I reached over to the glove compartment and took some napkins and pressed them to my palm, trying to control the bleeding.

"I hope Cat gets here soon..." I found my drunk lips whisper into the chilly night air. My hand slowly stopped bleeding as I opened one more can... waiting...


A/N: There it is! Part 2 coming soon, maybe during Spring Break. If you're on Spring Break right now, tell your friends about me! Haha, no. But seriously, read the rest of my stories and read the rest of this story! It's a really good one, you'll love every bit of it!

Enjoy your break! :D