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Kendall stared at his mother in disbelief. A month? He thought to himself. I've been asleep for a month? No! This isn't real! Kendall frantically shook his head back and forth, desperately trying to clear his head from all the frightening thoughts. Finally, Kendall spoke up.
"Um, excuse me? Did you say a month?" Kendall questioned in a disbelieving tone. Kendall's eyes shifted around to his family and best friends. Something about the floor must seem extremely interesting to them, seeing their eyes were locked on it. Kendall shook his head slightly, smirking. "That was an awful joke you all just played on me, you know." Kendall said coldly, however, pain was still evident in his voice. "People actually go into a coma, and sometimes they nev-"
"Kendall, that wasn't a joke!" Katie exclaimed, tears forming in her brown eyes. "You were asleep for a month! We had no idea if you would ever wake up! I had no idea if I would ever hear your voice again, or see your eyes again! No one could tell me if you were going to live or not, because no one knew!" Katie let out a sob. "Why would you ever think that was a joke, Kendall?" Katie cried, running out of the room. Kendall stared at the door in shock.
Okay, so this was real.
James stood up and muttered something about going to find Katie. He silently slipped out the door, and out of sight.
"I'm sorry..." Kendall muttered, ducking his head in shame. "This is just so much to take in… I never imagined, not even in my wildest dreams, that this could possibly happen to me, to us." Kendall looked up and met Logan's chocolate brown eyes. Logan smiled slightly at Kendall, and Kendall tried to muster a smile in return.
"Ken, it's okay. This is all overwhelming. We understand." Logan soothed. "And never think for one second we would play a cruel joke like that. We would never ever do something like that." Logan stated.
"Yeah, Kendall, you know us." Carlos began. "We play pranks all the time, but they are never actually serious. It's usually just a pie to the face or something." Carlos chuckled slightly, and Kendall cracked a smile.
"Besides, if this was a prank, Logan would have pranked himself by now." Kendall said jokingly. Carlos smirked at Logan, and Logan rolled his eyes.
"Okay, so I'm not the best at pr-" In the middle of his sentence, Logan's face suddenly paled. His hand flew to his mouth, and Carlos dove for the trash can. He shoved it into Logan's lap, and Logan began to vomit violently. His body shook, and hot tears streamed out of his eyes. Carlos and Mrs. Knight lovingly rubbed his back. Kendall stared at the scene playing before him in a state of shock. Why was Logan throwing up, and why were his mother and Carlos acting as if it was a regular occurrence?
Logan's retching finally ceased, and he placed the trash can on the ground next to him. He whimpered slightly and sank back into his wheelchair. Mrs. Knight looked up at her son, who had a terror stricken expression on his face.
"Kendall?" She whispered. Kendall looked at his mother, clearly upset. "Are you okay?" She asked.
"What just happened?" Kendall asked. Carlos gave Kendall a look. What did he mean? Kendall knew full well what was happening! Logan was throwing up because of the chemo!
"What do you mean, Kendall?" Carlos questioned anxiously.
"Why did Logan just throw up? Did he catch a bug or something? And why is he in a wheelchair?" Kendall asked cautiously. Logan's head shot up. Carlos' eyes widened. Mrs. Knight's hands flew to her mouth.
"Oh my gosh…" Mrs. Knight whispered. Logan and Carlos turned to her, clearly coming to the same conclusion she had.
Kendall didn't remember that Logan had cancer.
~Nothing~Gold~Can~Stay~
Katie ran, and ran, and ran. Hot tears streamed down her checks. Why was this happening to her family? What did they do to deserve this kind of torture?
Katie found herself in the park. Not just any park, but the park she went to with Kendall. It was kind of their place. They always went their together. The last time they went together, Katie broke down because she couldn't take the pain of watching Logan be so sick and not be able to help him. But when Kendall went into a coma, he wasn't there to hold her in his arms and tell her everything would happen the way it's supposed to.
Knights were never ones to show weakness. Both Kendall and Katie hated crying. They hated when people belittled them, and they hated not being the leader. Seeing Kendall lying in a hospital bed, relying and a machine to live, killed Katie inside. Kendall was always her rock, her big brother, her hero.
"Katie!" A frantic voice called. Katie wiped her eyes hurriedly and turned around. James ran towards her and scooped her up into his arms. "Oh Katie, thank goodness you're okay!" He exclaimed. Katie wrapped her arms around James' neck.
"I'm fine," She muttered. "Just needed some air." She whispered. No matter how nice James' hug and his genuine concern for her was, he still wasn't Kendall.
"Don't ever run out like that again, Katie. You had everyone worried sick." James scolded. Katie nodded, and leaned into James' arms again. He may not be Kendall, but his hugs did help.
"Sorry…" Katie muttered. James nodded his head.
"You know he didn't mean it, Katie." James said, referring to Kendall. "He was just overwhelmed with the fact that he had been asleep for a month." Katie nodded.
"I know he didn't mean it, James." Katie stated. "I was just so angry that he thought we were playing a joke on him! We would never joke around about something serious like that!" Katie exclaimed.
"I know, Katie, and so does Kendall. He was just shocked." James soothed. Katie nodded. After a few minutes of silence, James spoke up. "Hey, Katie, what's in your hand?" Katie glanced down at her hand. She was clutching Kendall's notebook as if her life depended on it.
"Oh," Katie began, "It's Kendall's notebook. I grabbed it out of the car when we had the crash. He said he's writing songs in there, but he didn't want anyone to see until he was done." Katie explained. James nodded, but smiled slightly.
"Well, one peek couldn't hurt, now could it?" James asked. Katie smiled.
"You just read my mind." She said sneakily. Katie carefully opened to notebook. Katie began to read aloud. "Hey Lo. It's me, Kendall." Katie and James shared a confused glance, but James signaled for Katie to read on. "I know what you are thinking, 'Letters? Really, are you that corny Kendall?' Well, Logan, this is the only way that I can clear my head right now. Everything is falling apart, Lo. The walls are closing in on us. I guess I should have seen it coming. We were living the dream. Big Time Rush was on top of the charts and we could not be happier. But, as Robert Frost says, 'Nothing gold can stay.'" Katie looked up at James.
"Letters…" James muttered. "He's been writing letters to Logan all this time…" Katie nodded. "Keep going." James commanded.
"I remember it clearly. It has been replaying in my mind all day, Logan. We were on dance practice with Mr. X. You seemed a little off. You were messing up moves that you usually perform at ease. Mr. X was becoming extremely frustrated with you. I could tell you needed a break. Why didn't I say something? I guess I was just focused on finishing practice, then lounging by the pool at the Palm Woods. I didn't see any of this coming.
You collapsed. I remember screaming you name and kneeling down beside you. I begged you to wake up, Lo. But you didn't. Gustavo called an ambulance while James, Carlos, and I stayed by you side, watching over you intently. The EMTs rushed into the studio and loaded you onto a stretcher. They immediately hooked you up to oxygen and checked your heart rate. Logan, I had never been more scared in my life. And from the moment they loaded you into the ambulance and told us to meet you at the hospital, I knew things were going to take a turn for the worse. And boy, they did.
Gustavo, Kelly, James, Carlos, and I all rushed to the hospital. The ride there was a total blur. All I could think about was you, Lo. The moments we shared played through my mind. Guess what, Logan? The moments we shared is my new favorite movie." Katie looked up at James. James motioned for Katie to continue.
"When we got to the hospital, the receptionist told us to sit down in the waiting room and the doctor would be with us as soon as possible. For hours on end, we sat there. My mom and Katie came sometime in those dreadful hours, but all I could think about was you, Hortense Logan Mitchell. In fact if a had a penny for every time you crossed my mind while we were waiting for the diagnosis, I would have one cent, because, Logan, you never left it." Katie said.
"Wow. I never knew Kendall was that corny, or that he was a talented writer." James said. Katie nodded in agreement. "Is there more?" James asked. Katie nodded, and continued reading.
"Finally, the doctor came out. He introduced himself as Dr. Mollow. I actually screamed at him and told him to 'cut the small talk and tell us what the heck was wrong with you.' I know you would scold me and tell me not to be rude, but Lo, drastic times call for drastic measures. Then came the moment where I heard the worst news of my life.
You have cancer, Lo. I felt like my world came crashing down on me. You, Logan Mitchell, have cancer? No way! This is the kind of stuff you read about happening to other people, and you feel bad for them. This wasn't supposed to happen to us! My mom took a sharp inhale of breath, and Katie started to cry. Carlos had a blank look on his face. James had tears collecting in his eyes, threatening to spill over. And, me? I got up and punched a hole in the wall. Let's just say, not my best plan.
After the doctor rambled on about treatment options to my mom and my hand was concluded to be fine, we were allowed to see you. Thank God that by then you had woken up. As I entered the room, my green eyes locked with your brown ones. And Logan, I realized something." Katie's eyes widened, and whispered the line Kendall scribbled in the notebook.
"I am in love with you." James gasped and stared at the notebook in shock.
"Oh my gosh…" James muttered. Kendall was in love with Logan? Kendall was gay? Katie continued to read, despite both her and James' shock.
"It's like one of those cliché love stories. A person loves their best friend, and the best friend gets sick. But in the end, there is always a happily ever after. What if we don't get a happily ever after, Logan? What if you di- no, I refuse to think about it. But Logan, I truly am in love with you. I have thought about it a lot, as I sit on the roof of the Palm Woods and write this letter to you. I have been denying it for ages now, simply thinking that since you are my best friend, of course I love you. It's a natural feeling. But now, Lo, this experience has made me realize that you mean so much more to me than a best friend. You are not only an amazing person, a genius, a talented singer and dancer, and a fantastic friend, but you are the love of my life. Plus, the fact that you're handsome is just an added bonus." Katie smiled slightly, at Kendall's heart felt words. She looked up at James, who was also smiling.
"We shouldn't read anymore." Katie stated. "These were meant for Logan, not us." James nodded in agreement.
"Wow…" He whispered. "He really does love Logan. It's really sweet." James smiled.
"I know," Katie smiled back. They were temporarily forgetting their dreadful life back at the hospital. "But, what do we do now?" Katie asked. James frowned slightly.
"We give the notebook back to Kendall. It's his. If he asks if we read it, we just say we won't ever tell anyone." James stated, nodding his head slightly.
"But, what about Logan?" Katie asked. James closed his eyes.
"It's not our place to tell him, it's Kendall's." James said. Katie nodded in agreement. "So don't say anything to Logan. Not a peep. Okay, Katie?" James asked. Katie nodded. She was a good secret keeper.
Suddenly, James' phone rang. He dug through his jean pocket, and pulled out his iPhone. The Caller ID said 'Mama Knight' and James immediately knew something was wrong. He picked up the phone, and immediately began to ask Mrs. Knight questions.
"Mama Knight? Is everything okay?" James asked frantically. Mrs. Knight disregarded James' question.
"James, did you find Katie?" Mrs. Knight asked.
"Yes, she was in the park. Now, what's wrong?" James asked. Mrs. Knight sighed through the phone.
"Just get back here right now, James. Make sure Katie comes with you." Mrs. Knight ordered. James quickly agreed, and said goodbye. He grabbed Katie's hand and dragged her back to the hospital.
However, they would never be prepared for what met them there.
Uh, oh. How did I ever to do this to a Nick show? Haha review!
