AN- Hello, veeheart914 here! This is the long awaited 6th chapter! Yayyyy! I

thought it was about time for another Chad POV…so here goes. Sorry if it

isn't too good. I'm not a guy!

Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Get it in your head!

Chad's

POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I lay in my hospital bed reliving what had happened only an hour before.

Mrs. Cooper.

What a joke.

If I could, right now, I'd be beating the ** out of someone.

It's bad enough that they were dating, but getting married?

I didn't deserve to find out that way.

I didn't even have a chance with Sonny.

She picks me back up when I fall, she tells me I can always try again and

ironically, this is the one thing I can't really do anything about.

The one thing I need to change before I lose my sanity.

And I can't do it.

I only wish she was about to be Mrs. Cooper.

How pathetic.

The reason I even went through all this hospital ** is because I thought that

if I got better, I just might have a chance with Sonny.

I yanked the IV tubes out of me, grabbed my clothes which were still on a

chair in my room and hopped out the window.

Good thing I was on the first floor.

I'm depressed, but I don't have a death wish….yet.

I ran to the nearest public bathroom and changed.

All sorts of questions popped into my mind.

If I die, will it hurt Sonny?

Will I die?

Do I want to die?

Where am I going?

All these stupid questions that I have no answers for, except for maybe one.

Do I want to die?

Right now, that pretty sums it all up.

I got lost in my thoughts as I walked on the side of the highway, not really

caring if I got hit.

I had nothing to live for.

My Sonshine had been taken away.

AN- Sorry if it stunk. I'm not very used to this story yet, I promise it WILL

get better! REVIEW PEOPLE! If you don't, then I will NOT update! Well, I

probably will, but not the point.