If this is love please don't break me. I'm giving up so…Just catch me.
"…Please don't get mad at him Gokudera."
"But—"
"Please."
"Tch. Fine."
Gokudera stares angrily at the man in front of him. He knew he promised not to get mad but how could he not? When the guy who hurt you was inches away from him and his bombs? He 'tched' again as he regrets every promising to you about that.
You knew that Gokudera was on edge. You were too but you couldn't allow him to bomb your apartment! You just finished paying the bill yesterday and you really don't want to pay another bill for breaking and or blowing up the place.
"{Name} thank you for the meal…"
Your father says solemnly as he pushes the plate away from him. You only nod at his statement. You were about to ask him something when Gokudera beat you to the punch.
"How can you walk away from your own child?"
You saw your father's eyes widen and Gokudera clinching his fist tighter than humanly possible.
"…I had no choice…if I didn't go my family would starve."
"And you couldn't even be bothered to phone your own child?"
"Gokudera…"
You place your hand on top of his clinched fist but it did nothing to appease his anger. You should've expected from Gokudera.
"I did!"
Both you and Gokudera look at your father in mild astonishment.
"I did call! I called a hundred times but no one picked up! I…didn't know that her mother left her too…"
"So since you couldn't reach her you'd decided to leave it at that."
Your father brings his hand down the table effectively surprising Gokudera and effectively scaring you.
"Listen you punk! Don't you go and talk to me like that! I would do anything to keep my family alive. As soon as I had enough money to come back to Japan. The first thing I did was look for her but I couldn't find her!"
"And you stopped and left her for ten fucking years!"
"Enough!"
Gokudera and your father looks to you as tears started cascading down your cheeks. Gokudera's eyes widen and your father just looked on in dismay.
You didn't say anything else as you ran into your room and locked it. You hid under your covers and buried your face into the pillow to muffle your sobs. You could hear Gokudera banging on the door and shouting your name. You didn't care though. You just wanted to be alone.
After a crying yourself to sleep you noticed that it was two o'clock in the morning and you decided that it was safe to come out now. Gokudera and your father had probably went back home and now you could properly clean up those dishes on the table.
You wipe the remaining tears in your eyes with the back of your hand. How long have you cried like that? Years, you presume.
You walked out of your room bare footed and noted that the floor was unusually cold. You shook off the feeling and opened the door. You went into the kitchen to see all the plates were washed and placed back into their proper places. You shook you head and concluded one thing. Gokudera.
You close your eyes and silently thank the silver haired man as you walk back to you room only to see a figure sleeping on the couch. Your mind automatically went to 'thief' but then again why would a thief sleep in your couch? Much less steal something from your apartment.
You walked cautiously towards the figure and sighed a sigh of relief to see it was Gokudera. He had one arm behind his head as a pillow and the other atop his stomach. You frowned and saw that he had no blanket. Yes, you were much more concerned of his health that him sleeping on your couch without permission.
You trudged back into your room to get a blanket when you finally found one. You took it and went back to Gokudera. The moment you tried to place the blanket on him his hand shot up and grabbed your wrist as he yanks you to him. You lost your balance and fell on to his chest with an 'oomph'. You presume that he was just doing this in his sleep (Sleep yanking?) and tried to get up only for his arm to snake around your waist to prevent any further movement. You blink to and look up to see him staring at you.
"Wha?"
"I'm sorry."
You raise an eyebrow and blink owlishly.
"For what? For not listening to me or for sleeping on my couch without my consent?"
"…Both."
You look away from his piercing gaze and opted to look at his shirt, below you, instead. You refused you acknowledge how compromising your position is right about now.
"…Are you going to let go of me?"
"…Not yet."
"…Why?"
"Because I don't want to let go of you just yet."
You blushed madly at his statement and thanked whatever was out there that you decided to turn off all the lights in that area or he would have definitely seen the blush.
"A-Are you sleep talking Gokudera?"
You cursed your voice for stuttering.
"No, I'm fully awake."
"…Thought as much."
"Do you want me to let you go?"
When he asked that you could have swore your head was shouting 'No!' but you had too because it was too damn cold!
"…Well yeah…actually…because I'm freezing my butt off…Literally."
You could hear him grunt as he loosens his hold on your waist. You took this as time to get off and lifted you upper body only to be stopped by Gokudera when he lifted his upper body too and pushed his forehead against yours.
You blushed madly and, again, refused to think about the compromising position.
"G-Gokudera?"
Great, you were blushing, stuttering, and in a compromising position with the guy you love. Where the hell did your armor go?
"…Yes?"
You could feel his breath against your cheeks and you tried to maintain what little sanity you had left.
"W-What are you doing?"
He didn't respond as he just kept looking at you. What the hell was look at?
Then you felt it. A soft pair of lips pressing up against yours. You're eyes widen and you kept staring in absolute shock. Gokudera Hayato was kissing you!
But before you could even respond to the kiss he pulls away. You bring your fingers to your lips and touch it to see if he actually did kiss you or if that was just a figment to your imagination.
"…You…kissed…me."
That was all you could say. That was all your head could allow you to process. He kissed you! Then you could feel Gokudera shift underneath you as stands up. You look at him confusingly.
"W-Where are you going?"
"Home."
"H-Home?"
"Yeah."
You stare wide eyed at him. He kissed you and then he was living? Is that how you normally did things? You heard the front door unlock and you needed to stop him! So you blurted out the first thing that came to your head.
"Bears hibernate in the winter!"
Gokudera stopped and looked back at you confusingly. You stared wide eyed and completely humiliated. What the hell was that? You just had your first kiss and the first thing you blurt out when he leaves is 'Bears hibernate in the winter?' what in the name of all that is good would make you to say that? You hide your face into your hands and groan. How utterly stupid of you.
Gokudera could only watch as you desperately tried to have a mental battle with yourself. He has never seen you like this. Flustered, embarrassed, and…human…He found it quite…cute.
He closes the door and walks back to you, kneels in front of you, and grabs yours hands away from your face. You look at him with a blush on your face and you could see him smile.
"Ah, Bears also store food in the winter."
You knew that that was supposed to comfort you but it made you feel like bashing your head to the wall. You close your eyes and drop your head on his shoulder.
"You don't have to humor me Hayato. You can tell me how stupid that made me look."
"…Yeah, you were a complete idiot."
You lightly punch his chest as he lets out a small yet satisfied laugh. He snakes his arms to your shoulders and pulls you closer.
"…But you're my idiot."
You felt comfortable in his embrace. Even if he did call you an idiot.
AN: I...Am...Not...Good...WITH CONFESSIONS! Do you read that *points up* That's crap my friend. (seeing that no one has confessed to me *tonfa'd*) I hope you'll leave a review on this crap.
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