A few days passed, Amanda always called at 1 or 2 and asked me to come over, I was enjoying myself a lot, I was happy though I knew she still didn't feel the same way for me being around her was happiness itself. Our group decided to go to Julie's house on Friday and everyone could be there except Amanda because her parents didn't allow her, I planned on bailing too, but on Friday morning Rachel and Sam dragged me to her house. Everyone was having fun, Julie and Joey sitting and their cute couple moments, Sam trying to bottle flip, Rachel irritating Sam and then there was me, sulking in the side waiting for Amanda to come online. Just then there was a knock at the door, I opened the door, 'Surprise!', Amanda I screamed, I couldn't believe my eyes, 'Amanda!', Sam screamed and came running towards her pushing me out of the way, 'Ugh. Damn Sam', I thought to myself I couldn't even say a word, Sam ran and hugged her, he just took her to one side and sat with her talking, I didn't even bother, I always hated talking to her when anyone was around, Rachel was eating at the table, she looked sad from when Amanda arrived, I went to her and asked her what's wrong, 'Nothing', she replied, and went back to eating, 'Hey look here', I said, she looked at me, I could see a tear rolling down her cheek, 'Rachel', I said softly, 'Don't say anything please, I don't want them to know I'm crying', she said wiping her tears, I nodded, 'Come outside let's take a walk', I said and headed towards the door, 'Where are you going?', Amanda asked, 'I forgot my house keys, my parents won't be home tomorrow, I'll fetch them and come', Rachel said, 'Alright, see you', we walked out and shut the door. 'What happened?, I asked wiping a tear of her face, she was still crying slowly, not saying a word, 'Hey come here', I said and hugged her, I couldn't figure out she never cried she was always a strong girl, 'Tell me', I said, 'I just I felt bad for one second that's all', she said, 'About what?', I said slightly chuckling, 'You didn't cry when Ma'am said you're never gonna grow up', 'This was different, I just felt sad..' she said, 'About what Rach', I asked, 'How Amanda just made you so happy the moment she walked in', she said, 'Oh.. What do you mean?', I asked shocked, 'I just I felt jealous maybe I don't know', she said starting to cry again, 'Hey listen, Rach, you mean the world to me, it's nothing like that, you make me happy too, I love your company, I love you, you're no less to me than Amanda', I said trying to convince her, 'If you had to choose between me and her', she said, 'Well I can't, you both mean the same to me', I said, 'Choose one', she said, I stood speechless, 'I thought so', she said and started walking away, 'Rach, wait', I said, 'Remember you told me about your mystery guy?', she nodded, 'If you had to choose him or me, you'd choose him', I exclaimed trying to make her feel better, She looked down and then looked at me 'That's the thing, you're the mystery guy', she said, I shaked my head confused and shocked, 'What?', I said, she looked at me and just nodded and walked away, I didn't move I just stood there rooted to the spot, all this while she was with me, in my house, in my arms and loved me and I didn't know, I walked towards Julie's house when I reached I punched the door frustrated Julie opened the door 'Hey, chill!', she said angry, 'Sorry by mistake', I said and walked in, Sam was asleep on the couch, Amanda where watching television, Joey was eating, I couldn't see Rachel anywhere, 'Where's Rachel?', I asked, 'She went to bed', Julie replied, I nodded, 'I'm going to sleep to', I said and picked my bag, 'There's a room next to Rachel's if you want to sleep alone', she said, 'Yea okay thanks', I said and headed upstairs, I opened my room and just plopped on the bed, not knowing what to do, I had to talk to her, I got up and knocked on her door, she didn't answer, I assumed she slept, I slowly opened the door and went in, there she was sleeping like a little angel, I stood next to her watching her and thinking of the stupid stuff we always did, I slowly kissed her on the forehead, she woke up, she looked at me, I just sighed, 'Hi', I said, 'Hey', she said, 'I'm sorry I shouldn't have just walked away', 'It's okay', I said taking both my hands and holding hers, 'I spoilt our friendship didn't I', she said, I nodded smiling 'No, you didn't', I said, 'Nothing's changed I promise', 'You still love me?', she asked, I smiled, 'You're the best I love you', I said, 'I love you too', she replied, 'I'll see you later okay I'm very sleepy', I said and left 'Goodnight', she said as I shut the door. I stood outside my back against the wall, I couldn't figure out what to do, I obviously couldn't talk to her about my problems with Amanda anymore she'd just end up getting hurt, being with her would be weird to say the least, I couldn't imagine us doing the stuff we did before, stuff that would be weird to do knowing she loved me in a different way. I walked to my room as I thought of all this, I opened the door and sat on the bed, I'd much rather be sleeping with Rachel right now instead of being alone in my room, I couldn't do anything about it right now, I slowly lay on the bed and quietly went to sleep.