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"Finding Home Again"

Chapter 7 "The Past Is Whispering,"

Suzy had just gotten home from city hall. She had set down the copies of all the paperwork she signed. She let Adele out into the backyard before going to get a bag of groceries she had bought from her car. She turned around to leave the car when she saw a gun being held by a brown haired guy with a red bandanna over his mouth pointed straight between her eyes.

"You're going to set those down in the house and then you're coming with me," said the guy.

Suzy didn't say a thing. She felt her heart pounding. She tried not to show the fear that was raging through her. She knew she was in trouble.

"Good, now take that piece of paper and write these down," said the guy, "pay up or she dies, sworn by Sly."

Suzy felt her hand shaking as she wrote down what "Sly" said. She knew what was going on. She had a feeling Leo or David had gotten into trouble.

"Who needs to pay up?" asked Suzy, losing her voice.

"Leo," said Sly.

"Leo is in Afghanistan," said Suzy looking at the time.

"That's what he told you. He was dishonourably discharged six weeks in," said Sly

"He doesn't even know where I live. I haven't seen him in a year," said Suzy.

Sly lowered his gun knowing this was not worth his time. He fired two shots then ran out the door.

Suzy pressed her back against the wall. She hadn't been hit but she was petrified and hysterical. She took deep breaths and then went out the lock her car and shut the front door. She locked both of the locks on the door, then let Adele in, locking that door too.

After an hour she couldn't stay in the house anymore so she put Adele back into her crate and drove to the grocery store for the second time to get Adele a new chew toy.

She spent an hour in the store, half of it in the line. She put the dog food in the truck then turned the key in the ignition with her cell to her ear calling the SRU. She heard a click and her heart stopped. She didn't move a single muscle for the longest two phone rings of her life.

"Hello, Suzy. Good timing Team One just got in," said Winnie.

"Winnie, please give the phone to Lou," said Suzy.

"Lou, call," said Winnie.

"Hello," said Lou.

"I know Spike is waiting for me to call but I need to talk to you. Sly decided to pay me a visit. Leo was dishonourably discharged last year, he lied to me," said Suzy.

"Sly was just a little kid when I left," said Lou.

"I think he is in his late teens now. He definitely has a bone to pick with Leo," said Suzy.

"I hate to say it, but I thought Leo was into drugs in high school. I thought it would be better if you didn't know," said Lou.

"That let me think David was lying to me," said Suzy "when Leo was using me!"

"I'm sorry. I didn't think anything he did would hurt you," said Lou.

"Someone planted a car bomb on my car while I was in the car, I heard the pin drop," said Suzy "just like the one that killed Delaney."

"Don't move," said Lou.

"I wasn't planning on it," said Suzy.

"Boss, Suzy's in trouble," said Lou.

Spike only heard one word—Suzy-and his heart stopped. He knew staying objective wasn't going to be easy.

"What do you mean?" asked Greg.

"Car bomb, a gang member is after her cousin but is using her," said Lou.

"Did she trigger it?" asked Spike.

"She heard the pin drop," said Lou.

"Shit," said Spike.

"What is going on?" asked Suzy.

"Spike talk to her," said Lou.

Spike took the phone.

"Hey, girly," said Spike.

"Hey," said Suzy as her voice quivered.

"Don't worry we'll get you out of there. Just try not to move too much," said Spike.

"I'm scared," said Suzy.

"I'll be there soon. You'll be okay," said Spike.

"I love you so much," said Suzy, tears welling up.

"I love you too," said Spike.

"I'll let you go so you can get here," said Suzy.

"Think positive," said Spike.

"I'll try," said Suzy, "bye."

"Bye," said Spike.

Spike gave the phone to Winnie.

"Spike can you stay objective?" asked Greg.

"Yes," said Spike, "she'll freak out if I don't show up."

"Good point. She'll trust Spike she might not trust someone else," said Lou.

"What did her cousin do?" asked Ed.

"He was into drugs. I knew that he was in high school but he joined the military so I thought he cleaned up but he didn't. He was dishonorably discharged a year ago and told us he was in Afghanistan so obviously he didn't," said Lou.

No one said anything when they geared up. Soon it was Spike and Lou alone still gearing up. Lou couldn't get past the fact that Suzy wouldn't be in this if he had told her the truth. Spike was distracted by the fact that Suzy was in danger.

"Lou, this isn't your fault," said Spike.

Lou said nothing but did pay a bit of attention to what Spike was saying.

"You told me they were close and if you would have told her she would have been heartbroken. We both know what family means to her and what her family really is," said Spike.

"To her family means everything even though her family is messed up," said Lou. "She told me because she couldn't pick her family and she had to learn to live with the quirks."

Spike nodded.

"She loves them but they won't return the favour besides two other people in her family, David and her older brother. I don't know his name," said Lou.

"I didn't even know she had a brother," said Spike.

"He lives in Vancouver now; he is the one taking care of the café there," said Lou.

"She has two families now, I think she feels like she has to keep both happy," said Spike.

"She'll realize one day that her real family isn't worth it. Her brother didn't even call when she got shot," said Lou. "David called her every day for a week."

"I don't know what to say. If you have a problem with it do what you want but I'm not getting involved," said Spike.

Lou glared at Spike. Spike didn't care because he knew that Suzy hated people condemning her family.

"Come on, you two are taking forever," said Ed.

Lou and Spike distanced themselves from each other. Greg noticed in a matter of seconds that something had happened in the locker room. So he pulled Spike over by himself.

"What is going on between you two?" asked Greg.

"It's more like what is going on with Lou. I refused to help him with something I know won't go very well and now he won't talk to me," said Spike.

"What is this something you refused to do?" asked Greg.

"Confronting Suzy with what's going on with her family," said Spike.

"Lou seems to know quite a bit, maybe it would be better if you did," said Greg.

"I've tried before and will never try again. She wouldn't talk to me for six months and lost all control of her temper. When she losses her temper it's like an erupting volcano," said Spike.

"Any idea why she is so guarded about her family?" asked Greg.

"She hates sympathy and whenever she tells people the big picture about her family that's what is received. All she ever told me is that she went to live with her aunt at age twelve," said Spike.

"I don't think she will ever open up to you or Lou about her family," said Greg.

"I'm not trying anymore," said Spike.

Before everyone left the station Greg pulled Lou away from the group. He wanted to know everything before making a choice of how to handle this.

"Why are you so upset by Suzy's family?" asked Greg.

"I know for a fact that her aunt didn't give a second thought about her own kids or Suzy. That wasn't a good place for any child let alone a child that wasn't an immediate family member. She never talks about her immediate family," said Lou.

"Sometimes it's better not to know," said Greg.

"I'd rather know than say the wrong thing," said Lou.

"I'm going to tell you what I told Spike. From what I got from Spike I don't think she'll ever open up about her family to you or Spike," said Greg.

"She can't keep going like this. She is wasting her time trying to help a family that doesn't care about her," said Lou.

"Let me figure it out. You need to stay out of it," said Greg.

Lou went into the car without saying a word to anyone. Everyone just froze.

"Don't just stand there; we have a bomb to take care of," said Greg. "Wordy can I speak to you alone?"

"Sure," said Wordy.

"I need you to talk to Suzy. You might be able to get her to open up. She won't open up to Spike or Lou and I think she knows they will let their tempers get to them," said Greg.

"What do you want me to get her to open up on?" asked Wordy.

"Her family," said Greg.

"What are you thinking boss?" asked Wordy.

"I'm thinking there seem to be family secrets. There are a lot of addicts and broken families. I want you to see what you can get Suzy to tell you," said Greg.

"She has a troubled past so you're concerned it could affect the present," said Wordy.

"I'd rather not get a call from her saying a family member is going to jump off a bridge and have to ask her why," said Greg.

"Knowing might help us in the future in case anything happens," said Wordy.

"I want you to watch her today. I want to see if we can notice anything while she is in distress, she might give something away," said Greg.

"I'll watch her," said Wordy.

The past ten minutes were torture to Suzy. She had played through everything that could go wrong twice. She prayed they would let Spike defuse the bomb. She needed him. She sighed when she heard the sirens.

"Keep them back!" ordered Greg.

Spike carefully approached the car. He sat a bag down next to the open car door.

"Are you okay?" asked Spike.

Suzy nodded yes.

"Now I'm going to see what we're looking at here," said Spike.

Suzy nodded in recognition.

"Alright, this is a rather simple one," said Spike.

Suzy blew out air as a last attempt to keep herself from going insane. She prayed to god for this not to be the way it ended. A single tear rolled down her cheek.

Spike clipped two wires and slowly detached the bomb. He detained it then returned to Suzy.

"It's over," said Spike.

Suzy began to sob. She could hold it anymore. It was all too much to bear at the same time.

"Everything is okay now," said Spike.

"This isn't okay," said Suzy.

"What isn't okay?' asked Spike.

"Spike, my cousin is doing drugs. He is like my twin, my other half and now I've pretty much lost him," said Suzy starting to sob again.

"We can work through this," said Spike.

"How do you suppose we are going to do that? This isn't like money issues," said Suzy.

"I won't let anything happen to you," said Spike, pushing a single dark brown curl behind Suzy's ear.

Suzy gave Spike a faint smile.

"I don't want to drive this thing nor do I want to get out," said Suzy.

"I'm going to go ask Sarge if I can check the house for anything," said Spike.

"Okay," said Suzy.

Spike walked off. Suzy couldn't read their lips and sighed. She then saw Lou coming over through her rear view mirror.

"You okay?" asked Lou.

"I'm fine," said Suzy.

"I'm sorry for not telling you about Leo," said Lou.

"It's okay. You did what you thought was right so there is no reason to apologize," said Suzy.

"I just wanted to be sure you were okay," said Lou.

"I am. Just tell Wordy to stop watching me because I know he is," said Suzy.

"Okay," said Lou, leaving.

Lou came back over to Sam, Jules, and Wordy.

"She's fine," said Lou, "and Wordy she knows you're watching her."

"How can she tell that?" asked Wordy.

"She's a former cop, who knows how," said Lou.

"Lou was she paranoid when you first met?" asked Wordy.

"First time we met or saw each other?" asked Lou.

"Both," said Wordy.

"We were juniors in high school and she seemed maybe a bit overly focused. She was a great student and athletic but she was always afraid of failing at anything. When we first saw each other we were twelve, she was a bit paranoid back then but then she was surrounded by gang members she knew had killed people before," said Lou.

"Did she ever hang around a certain type of people back then?" asked Wordy.

"She fallowed her older cousin David everywhere. She followed him like a puppy," said Lou.

"Like a young sister with her brother," said Wordy.

"Everyone thought they were siblings but told us they were cousins," said Lou.

"I hate to ask this but is it possible he is?" asked Wordy.

"I don't know with her family. They have twisted enough minds to do something like that," said Lou.

"Sam go with Spike to make sure nothing is set up at her house," said Greg.

"Spike I would let the dog out. Otherwise she runs around the neighbourhood. She loves my yard for some reason," said Jules.

"She's like Houdini's dog assistant," said Spike.

Ed laughed.

"Don't tell Suzy I said that, she gets very angry," said Spike.

"Adele is like her kid of course she gets angry when someone 'insults' her," said Ed.

"I learned not to make any comment even as a joke," said Spike.

"Because otherwise she kicks you out of the house even if it is raining out," said Lou.

"She only threw me out once when it was raining. It was a stupid thing to say when she's already in a bad mood," said Spike.

"I doubt they would set anything up in her house but we can go check," said Sam.

"They would, they have in the past," said Lou.

"Just what I wanted to do, search for bombs," said Sam.

"Who knows what else they have," said Spike.

After Sam and Spike left Wordy went over to talk to Suzy. He wasn't expecting her to tell him anything but it was worth a shot.

"How are you holding up?" asked Wordy.

"Besides the fact I was almost murdered, alright," said Suzy rolling her eyes. "If Lou and Spike put you up to this just leave now."

"Greg asked me to. You're family and we're worried about you," said Wordy.

"Why?" asked Suzy. "There is nothing that is worth worrying about."

"You know whatever you go through so do Spike and Lou. They keep getting into arguments over your family and obviously there is something wrong when you almost get killed because of something a family member did," said Wordy.

Suzy said nothing at first. She was debating if she should tell Wordy or not.

"My family is screwed up and Lou gets upset because I refuse to ignore them. I only talk to my cousins and brother," said Suzy.

"Why did you go live with your aunt?" asked Wordy.

"A twelve year old who nearly committed suicide, there is something wrong with the parenting there," said Suzy.

Wordy took a second to figure out what to say.

"I know it's hard to see but I didn't know better back then," said Suzy.

"I'm guessing they weren't supportive," said Wordy.

"Everything had to perfect on the first try for them," said Suzy coldly.

"That couldn't have been easy for a kid," said Wordy.

"That's why my little sister got into drugs," said Suzy.

Wordy didn't know what to say.

"My older brother, Theodore, turned out OK even living with them. But he is a strong person. He manages my café in Vancouver and is a school social worker," said Suzy. "His downfall is he is self-centered outside of work or school."

"Ah," said Wordy.

"David, my older cousin, played the older brother even though he was in a gang. He would have been furious if I got involved with any gang. He turned his life around after he lost his little sister but his mother blamed everything on him and never stopped until she died. He is now a paramedic in St. Jacobs, he always told me I should have become a paramedic instead of a police officer but I loved my job," said Suzy.

"Why did you leave then?" asked Wordy.

"Loved being the main word in that sentence. I lost my partner, sister, and aunt at the same time so I lost the love for my job. I wish I could find a job I loved like I loved being a police officer," said Suzy.

"I think you will," said Wordy.

Suzy smiled softly then her phone rang. Suzy saw it was David and picked the cell phone up.

"Hey, David," said Suzy.

"Spike called and told me what happened. I just wanted to make sure you were okay," said David.

"I'm fine but are you?" asked Suzy.

"Claire left the kids and me. She filed for divorce and said she didn't want contact with the kids," said David.

"If I ever see her again," said Suzy, her voice hitting a dangerous tone.

"Leo's missing again. I'm concerned he might be dead this time," said David.

"Then call the police, not me. I'll be honest though after what just happened to me it's possible," said Suzy.

"Do you think you can help with the kids?" asked David.

"I can come out for a week or so if you need me there," said Suzy.

"Okay," said David.

"I'll bring it up to Spike tonight," said Suzy.

David sighed.

"Have you ever wished the past would stop repeating?" asked David.

"My past doesn't repeat it whispers in my ear once in a while. One day it won't whisper to me anymore and I look forward to the day I leave the past in the past," said Suzy.


To all readers I must warn you this story by be discontinued do to the fact Suzy isn't what I meant her to be. I would like readers to vote on my poll about Suzy or my new character, votes will be considered when I make my final decision. I posted the one-shot with my new character Sabrina on it it and it is official there will be an multichapter story with her. Thank you everyone who has viewed and reviewed. Please vote because this might not be the end if you do and there are four choices not just two! I would like to thank PSU96Girl for all her help.