Chapter 6: of Letters and James

Warning! Mention of rape!

Regulus POV

Today was Monday again. I somehow made it alive through potions and I'm glad about that because afterwards we had divination. Most people like the subject because you can simply lie, but I am actually interesten in this. I've always had a slight obsession with divination, my favorite is Tarot. And in all honesty, I'm quite good at reading the cards. Enough about that, right now I'm sitting at the table for lunch and for some reason I had received a letter from my family. To most people this may not seem like a big deal, but to me it is because my parents barely ever send letters, and usually it's not good news when they do. I quickly left the great hall and sat down in the empty common room. I opened the letter and started reading:

Dear Regulus,

I hope that you are doing well at Hogwarts. Now that you are the heir I expect only the best from you and it's your responsibility to keep the good reputation of our family up. I'm also afraid to have to inform you that your poor mother has gotten ill. You are not to tell anyone about this.

Your Father,

Orion Black

This doesn't sound good. I quickly hid the letter and arrived just in time for my next lesson. I had double history of magic but with the news I had just received I couldn't concentrate really well. This week wasn't gonna be easy. I wonder what's wrong with my mother. She can't die, she's too young. "-lack, Mister Black" My head snapped up and I looked at professor Binns, He must have asked me a question. "Sir, could you please repeat the question?" I asked politely, and thanks to reading a lot I was capable of answering the question correctly. Later that day I sat at my desk, trying to figure out how to respond to my fathers letter. After a lot of useless beginnings, I finally managed to write this:

Dear Father,

I can assure you that I'm doing fine in school and I won't ruin our familiys' reputation. I'm also hoping that mother will get well soon, please tell her that. And you needn't worry, I will not tell anyone about mother having taken ill.

Your son,

Regulus A. Black

I went to the owlery and gave the letter to my owl. I was on my way back when someone pulled me into an empty classroom. In a second I was pressed against the wall, and as I looked up I immediately recognized my attacker. It was James Potter, he was friends with Remus and Sirius. "What do you want?" I hissed, because I knew that I couldn't flee. He was just too strong. And two years older. "I know about you and Remus. "So what?" I retorted. "You'll find out just how little I think you're worth. You'll regret ever having ruined Sirius life. And trying to ruin that of Remus as well!" Potter whispered into my ear, and with so much venom that I couldn't suppress a shiver. Potter quickly cast a silencing charm around and started opening my pants. My eyes widened as I figured out what he was about to do. I thrashed around, trying to get away, but to no avail.

Two hours later

I had somehow managed to drag myself into my bed without waking anyone. I had spent the last hour crying in an empty classroom, and the safety of my bed also didn't stop the tears. I'm disgusting. It's my own fault for being so weak! Sirius would have been able to protect himself. The thought of Sirius only made me cry harder.

James POV

I couldn't sleep right now. Had I really done that. What kind of horrible person was I? My plan had been to intimidate him a bit, but seeing that little bastard who had never stood up for his brother, knowing that he couldn't defend himself… I couldn't let him go without punishing him for what he had done to Sirius. God! I'm sick! I can't believe it! I just raped a 13 year old. I couldn't simply lie in my bed anymore, I quickly got up and took a shower, trying to calm down, but it didn't squash the immense guilt and horror I was feeling. I had to make this right again. But how?