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LOSGAP =D

I scowl at the ceiling, stubbornly refusing to get out of bed and enjoy the day.

The house was silent; Yuki, Kyo and Tohru had all gone to the Hot Springs for White Day- Yuki and Kyo had refused to let me come, of course. I wouldn't have been able to come anyway- I'd most likely walk right into a Hot Spring and drown trying to find my way out. That didn't make their utter rejection of me hurt any less though.

I hear someone knock at the door and wait for Shigure to get it, staring ahead at the darkness while I waited for the voices to hear who had come to visit.

"Oh, Haru? What are you doing here?" I hear Shigure say in confusion and raise my head.

"I came to visit Rei." Haru replies, and I hear footsteps as he comes up to my door and knocks. "Rei?"

"What?" I grunt, rolling over to glare at the wall as he opens the door. "Happy White Day." Haru says and when I don't respond he sits down on the bed next to me.

"Hey, they didn't invite me either." He points out and I sigh. "Yuki isn't your brother though." I say. "And you still have full use of your eyes." I roll over and stare in his direction, wishing so badly I could see him.

"Well, we could play a game or something- you know, our own celebration. Normally I'd get you a present but you didn't get me anything for Valentine's Day." I can clearly imagine him pouting.

"You didn't get me anything!" I exclaim. "Yes I did." Haru protests. "What?" I demand, sitting up and crossing my arms in annoyance.

"The gift of friendship." Haru replies and I blink, then laugh and punch his shoulder playfully, glad I didn't miss it.

"I'm sorry I'm a crab." I say suddenly and hear him sigh. "I don't blame you." He replies. "Now, how about that game?" There's a sound like he's rubbing his hands together eagerly.

"And how do you expect me to play?" I ask dryly. "I'll play for you!" He says, and I hear the sound of something in a box, like Haru is setting a game on the bed.

"So you'll have to roll, and read the cards, and move my piece?" I ask. "Yup!" Haru says happily. "Then what am I supposed to do?" I demand, glaring.

"Sit there and be cute." Haru replies, and I hear the sound of dice being thrown. "OK you got 4. Let's see 1…2…3…4! Oh." Haru says.

"What?" I demand.

"Nothing." Haru mutters. "What do you mean, nothing?" I am getting steadily crankier. "You had to move back three spots… you're in the doghouse now." Haru says with a sheepish laugh.

"Lovely." I roll my eyes. "My turn!" Haru rolls the dice. "Six. Yes." Haru cheers quietly, his monotonous persona slipping back into place.

"Ah well. Nothing interesting this round." Haru shrugs and I sigh, slumping against the wall. I had to give the boy credit for trying to cheer me up, but it was kind of just bringing me down further.

OOO

Haru and I sit in silence after I have apparently won- I am certain he's cheated for me, but I let it pass.

"Well, this is fun." Haru says and I shrug. "Hey, at least you're trying." I say. "True." Haru says. I reach up and poke his cheeks. "What are you doing?" Haru says flatly as I run my fingers over his cheek. "I was hoping to see if you were smiling." I reply. I feel his cheeks lift up. "Better?"

"Yes." I smile, trailing my hand down his cheek to his arm, to where I know his tattoo is.

Flashback.

"Hatori is going to kill you!" I hiss, staring at Haru's arm in horror.

"So?" Haru shrugs, not really caring. I have to admit it is a cool tattoo though; the two interloping lines, snaking together in an endless band around his arm.

"Does it mean anything?" I ask, running my fingers over it to see if it feels any different. "The guy said it was just a bunch of squiggly lines to him but I like to think it represents life." Haru says and I sense one of his rare wise moments coming on.

"Really? How?" I'm genuinely curious though. "It's a circle- that represents eternity." He explains. "But why two?" I question. "I like to think they represent two people, circling together for eternity. Everyone has another half- we're all just circling around, trying to find our missing half. When we do, we make a whole." He takes my hand and places it over the tattoo, which has suddenly gained so much more meaning in my eyes.

End flashback.

"Still believe in that whole other half thing?" I ask, removing my hand from his arm and letting it fall to my lap.

"Yes." Haru replies. "Of course I do; one doesn't just give up their beliefs so easily." He says and I stare down at my lap.

"What if there's an uneven amount of people in this world?" I ask him quietly. "What if some of us just don't have a match? That we're going to circle around forever, always searching, and die alone?" I demand, raising my head to fix my sightless gaze on his.

"That is my greatest fear of all." Haru replies softly. I lower my eyes back to my hands. "Some of us are doomed to walk alone; that's just how it is, Haru." I say. I close my eyes briefly. Akito told me long ago that the Horse is an independent creature- how he defined that word to me though was different then the true meaning. I am to always be alone, never to find comfort in another's company. But now, as I sit with Haru, able to discuss such heavy things with him, I wonder if that is so true.

"Not all of us have to walk alone Rei." Haru says and pats my knee as he stands and leaves me alone with my thoughts.

OOO

I wander downstairs, wondering if Haru is still here.

"Oh Rei you're just in time to see the present I got Tohru for White Day!" Shigure says happily as I come down. "Haru, you look too!" He adds.

"It's about time she finally got a dress- the poor girl has been cleaning our house far too long without a proper maid's costume!" Shigure exclaims and I grit my teeth, not needing eyes to know what kind of horrible outfit Shigure has for her.

"It's amazing they haven't locked you up yet." Haru says flatly and I nod in agreement. "You're so cruel." Shigure sobs as I make my way outside and I hear footsteps as Haru follows me.

We sit down on the porch and I lean back on my hands, tilting my head back and savoring the feeling of the sun caressing my face.

"You know what I want?" I ask after a moment's silence.

"What?"

"A rocking chair." I can feel his surprised gaze and smile. "It'd be nice, you know? Just sit out here in the fresh air for hours, rocking back and forth… it's just a calming thing." I say.

"Hmm." Haru is obviously not very impressed with my strange wants and we fall into a silence; not exactly comfortable, but not awkward either.

"I've been a bit of a jerk today, haven't I?" I ask suddenly. "A bit." Haru doesn't lie and I sweat drop. "I'm sorry, it's just, you know…" I trail off, unwilling to finish my own sentence.

"I know." Haru replies, and we are quiet again.

"I'm almost getting tempted to tell them." I admit, and I don't need to tell Haru what I'm referring to. "Why?" Haru questions. "Because… I'm tired of being treated like crap around here. Even being treated like a cripple would be better then this." I say, staring ahead at nothing, wishing I could see the sun.

"I can see what you mean, but I thought you never wanted Yuki to think of you as weak?" Haru points out and I sigh. "I don't. I never, ever, want Yuki to use 'weak' and 'Rei' in the same sentence." I say firmly.

"But isn't it weak to hide from the truth?"

I fall silent at that. "They'll figure it out… one of these days I'm going to run into a wall or something and it's just going to click. I think Ayame is already guessing though." I admit.

"How would Ayame know though?" Haru asks curiously. "When he was here a while ago, he said my eyes were cloudy; and Kisa picked it up instantly, so how long before one of them looks at me and goes, 'You're blind, aren't you?'?"

"It won't be long." Haru says bluntly and I sigh. "I know." I mutter darkly. "Before we know it, everything's going to be out in the open."

Random spot to end, I know- though I'm getting a little… twitchy, what with them not knowing the truth and all. Sometimes Shigure, Yuki, Kyo and Tohru annoy me with their cluelessness *laugh*

Any who, I hope you guys liked the "Angstuff" or something like that – Angstyfluff? Flufangst? Ah well if you read the last chapter you know what I'm trying to say :)

See you guys later! :D

- LOSGAP =D

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