Jeremy Belpois

Setting: Probably best around episode 80 or something….

Rating: K+

POV: Jeremy's POV

I know how they are. They think that I like to spend all my time around computers, technology. I guess it's not completely a lie. They think That I would rather stay on the computer than hang out with them. That's not true, I would much rather hang out with them, I just have so much work to do that must get done.

But, they don't know how hard it is. I'm always worrying about something. I worry about my friends, about Xana, about William, Franz Hopper, especially Aelita.

It's hard to have all the responsibility on my shoulders. Since I'm the smart one, I'm held responsible for the things that happen to my friends.

They think it's the easiest job in the world to 'sit in my comfy chair while they do all the work'. Let me tell you, it's not easy. When they go to Lyoko, I'm prepping a lot of stuff, looking at the radar, checking to make sure everything is in place.

If it's not, it's my job to fix it. I can't expect help from anyone, except for minimal help from Aelita. I'm also easily vulnerable to Xana's earth attacks, such as Xanafied victims.

Other than that, it's all up to me. It's also not very easy to sit and watch your friends fight, unable to do anything if things take a turn for the worst. They don't know how much torture it can be to sit and watch Aelita almost get thrown into the digital sea time and time again, courtesy of William.

There have been so many close calls, and I could do nothing.

So, as you can see, my life isn't exactly what you would call great.

There's also Aelita. I know she doesn't approve of my constant working; I know she wants me to spend more time with her. I'd love to, but I just have so much work to do. If I take a break, Xana could get ahead and we could lose the battle. If only she could understand! I'm so close to finding William.

She doesn't know how much she means to me. Aelita is my whole world. I care for her so much, but I don't think she knows this.

I think I also have feelings for her… I've never felt this way before, so I can't be sure. But I really think I do. Maybe Yumi can help me; I'm sure she knows more about it than I do. I would rather not talk about it, but I need help and I have no one else to turn to.

I obviously can't talk to Odd about it; all he would do is tease me. I can't talk to Ulrich because he probably has enough trouble with his feelings for Yumi. And of course I can't talk to Aelita about it, every time I try or do a small act of affection, such as holding her hand, I turn red as a cherry. See, I'm only just talking about her and I can already feel my cheeks getting hotter…

Maybe I can consult my parents about this. But first, I think I'll talk to Yumi. I wish things didn't have to be so complicated with Aelita and I. I wish I could just tell her how I feel, but it's not that easy.

I wonder if this is how Ulrich feels with Yumi. If so, perhaps I should have a talk with Ulrich.

We could help each other out.