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Chapter 7-In the End
ALFIE'S POV
(It starts with one)
Where's Trixie? I went around asking everybody, but no one knew where the Goth pixie was. "Patricia?" I asked as I climbed up the stairs to the attic.
One thing I don't know why
I don't know why I thought that she was up there, but it was worth a shoot.
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
I reached the top of the stairs and looked around. In the corner of the room I spotted a biker boot. Patricia! I was about to call out to her when I heard crying. Trixie was crying. I went over to where the boot lay, and looked into a small crevice (A/N It's small, but Patricia can fit in there k?). Patricia was curled up into a tight ball, and was bawling her eyes out.
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
I moved over to her, and put my arms around her. I wasn't sure why I was it, but I was definitely hugging her. "Alfie?" Patricia asked through sobs. "Yes, it's me Trixie. What happened?" My question made her cry even more. "What's wrong?" "Nina and Joy!" She turned so she was facing me, and buried her face in my chest.
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
"What's wrong with them?" I asked confused. "I miss Nina, and Joy hates me because of it! She thinks that I don't like her anymore. I mean, I don't like her bagging on Nina, but Nina's not my best friend. Joy doesn't want to be best friends anymore! She's even going to move into a different house to get away from us!" "Which one?" "She didn't tell me!"
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn't even know
I held Patricia and rocked her back and forth as she told me what was wrong. I couldn't help but thinking of Amber and Mick. I had almost had Amber, but she loved Mick, not me. I wasn't good enough for her.
Wasted it all just to
All my hard work to get her to like me had been wasted in the end.
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
I was funny and all smiles to cope with the pain. No one would guess that I was sad if I didn't show it.
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
Amber thought I was funny, but I guess Mick made her laugh more. There was one other girl that liked me for my sense of humor. I looked down at Patricia. Even though she was crying her eyes out she looked amazing. Maybe... No, I chided myself.
and got so far
But in the end
Patricia probably likes someone else. Someone who's not me, and I didn't want to repeat Amber again. I didn't want to work so hard to get Patricia, and then in the end have it not even matter.
It doesn't even matter
I didn't want to lose it all again. First Amber and then have it happen with Patricia.
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
Why was I drawn to Trixie anyway? I'd never looked at her with more than a normal feeling before, but now... Whenever I say her my heart speed up a little bit. It's not like she isn't pretty, it's just... I don't know anymore.
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
My thoughts returned back to Amber. One minute she'd mock me in front of everyone, and the next she said she liked me a lot. I realized for the first time that I hated Amber. Not a fiery hate, but I didn't love her. I loved Patricia.
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I remembered all the times Trixie and I fought. They were more playful, and brotherly/sisterly. When Amber and I fought it was full on out war.
I'm surprised it got so (far)
I'm surprised that I'd hung onto Amber for so long, and not seen that she didn't like me. At least the way I used to like her.
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
But now that doesn't matter. What matters is Trixie, but am I going to take that risk? What if it's Amber all over again?
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
I looked down at Patricia again, who had stopped crying, and was now sleeping quietly on me. I smiled to myself, and realized that now matter what I'd try to get Patricia. I was willing to lose it all for her.
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
I trusted Patricia with my life, and I don't think I'd ever trust Amber like that.
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For Amber I pushed as far as I could, but for Patricia I was willing to go even further.
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Amber doesn't matter anymore (A/N Of course she matters to Alfie, but not the way she used to).
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It's not the end anymore, I realized. It's just the beginning.
It doesn't even matter
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