Here it is! Please review because this chapter was a little crucial and I would love to see how it went with whoever read it. Not beta-read.
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The next few weeks were not exactly what I would call pleasant. The tension between Yylfordt and I had built up so much that you could cut it with a knife. It was like navigating through a field of landmines blind with no hope of solace. Words were used sparingly and we hardly ever made eye contact. I remember one day he didn't even stay for ten minutes before leaving me, and when I asked him to stay, he flicked his eyes up at me for a split second and walked out, leaving me alone, still wanting to at least see his face. Every waking moment of those weeks, I keep telling myself that I probably ruined my last chance at starting over with him. When he's away at school during the day, I anxiously anticipate when he'd come back. My thoughts are being taken over with glimpses and flashes of him, his enchanting caramel irises, his flowing paradisiacal golden river of hair... it was almost too much to bear. The weeks then became months and our "relationship" had not gone any farther than mere aquaintances. I fucked up big time. This pain I'd caused him, it's irreversible. Yet, I'm hoping to make things better between us. I've got to. I need him, more than he knows. I can't stand thinking that maybe someday I'll never see him again. I'm truly sorry for taking advantage of his feelings and asking for his forgivenes seemed like a damn good idea.
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Two and a half months had passed. Nothing new and I still hadn't gathered the courage to get his attention to apologize. Today he didn't seem the least bit angry, but he hadn't spoken to me at all since he'd gotten back from school. It was about five in the evening, we had just finished eating together. If one was sitting in the living room and the other in the kitchen qualifies as together. Yylfordt came over to me in the kitchen and grabbed my plate asking me,
"How was your day?"
"Usual."
"Define 'usual'."
"Waking up, showering, walking, eating, and waiting for you to arrive. Is that good enough?"
"Sounds exciting. Maybe I should try being handicap." I stared at him as he chuckled softly. This was the first time in a long time he'd even smiled in my direction so of course I'd be awestruck.
"Hey, you alright? You seem distracted..."
"Yeah, well I might be surprised you're speaking to me."
"Suprised? I can't have a conversation with you?"
"I never said that, Yylfordt. You had not said a word to me ever since you exploded a couple months ago and now you're acting as if nothing happened. I think have a reason to be a little shocked."
"Hmm. I'll give you that, but there's no use going around ignoring each other when we're spending this much time together." Still, this made no sense whatsoever.
"But I haven't apologized for what I did-"
"And I haven't forgiven you."
"So why?"
"Because I care." That hit me so hard, it took me a minute to comprehend. He cares? I knew that much, but it just did not make ends meet in my mind.
"I thought if you cared, then you'd make me apologize a long time ago. Why bother with me at all?"
"Must repeat myself?" Yylfordt set down the plate in his hand and sat in a chair in front of me.
"You must not understand, Szayel. I may not have forgiven you, but that doesn't change the way I feel about you." He leaned in closer and place his hand on my knee, looking at me with the most sincere eyes.
"Yylfordt, I'm sorry."
"It's oka-mmmph!" His words were cut off as my mouth touched his, kissing him tenderly. At first the suddeness of the kiss had caught him off gaurd, but he let down his defenses and returned the kiss with more passion and desire than we had begun with. Our toungues danced in each others mouth, stroking and caressing, making sure not to forget the taste. He pulled away and left his chair to sit on my lap and begin placing delicate kisses on my neck and collarbone. I laid my head back and moaned faintly, letting Yylfordt know what he was doing was definitely right. Patiently, he removed my glasses and attempted to raise my arms to take my shirt off, but I gasped at the quick pain that shot through my still-healing left arm.
"Shit, I'm sorry..."
"No problem." He went back to sitting on his chair across from me but he remained close. I reached towards him and held his hand, not breaking eye contact when I spoke to him,
"Yylfordt, I truly am, from the bottom of my heart, sorry for the mistake I made. I'm sorry for not taking you're feelings for me into consideration. Forgive me, please?" Without hestation, he replied,
"You're forgiven."
"I won't say I love you because I don't love you. I do however have strong feelings for you and if it's uh... fine with you, maybe we could be together...?" Immediately after I'd asked, I directed my eyes towards the floor of the kitchen, hoping not to see his face when he rejected me.
"I'll take you up on that offer."
"What?" My eyes shot back up in disbelief to lock with his.
"I accept."
"Really?"
"Sure, let's see how things go."
"For the best, I hope." I could stay like this until the end of time. Seeing him smile at me knowing we felt the same way about each other and not caring about anything else.
"Kiss me, you fucker." I grinned widely at him,
"Whatever you want, blondie." Once more, we locked lips and this time I was sure I was doing the right thing with the right person.
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"Morning, sunshine."
"Fuck off... sleeping still." Can't Yylfordt stop being so damn awake every morning? It's annoying as hell...
"Nope, get your ass up right now or you get no food the rest of the day."
"I hate.. you."
"I know, now get up. You need that sling and bandage removed for good today."
"Noooo. I don't wanna."
"Fine, I'll just drag you out of bed."
"Oh, wait no-" Too late. Yylfordt had already torn the bed cover away from my exposed body. I guess going to sleep naked wasn't a good idea. My shower the night before left me drained and I just fell into bed with the towel around my waist.
"Uh. I'll just... wait for you downstairs."
"Yeah, maybe you should." Awesome start to my day. I'll see how long Yylfordt can stay silent this morning, and I will enjoy the awkardness of it all. I'm glad we're getting to know each other better... I'm sure he is too
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