Okay I know you're mad because I didn't update but I've been dealing with a mental breakdown and play pratice and drama and I've been busy and just haven't really been inspired to write. To be honest life has been kicking my ass and it sucks. So because of my life sucking and not giving you an udate here's the next chapter for I Care. Just to let y'all know ((Yes I say y'all cuz I'm from Iowa)) Ciel does suffer from a relapse. So enjoy.
Warnings
1.) Fem! Ciel
2.) Self harm
It had been a week since that first kiss between Sebastian and Ciel and Ciel felt like instead of getting better she was getting worse. She was feeling depressed and would not hardly talk to anyone. She had isolated herself from people and when Sebastian did he tried to make her feel better gently kissing her and giving her gentle caresses. But nothing seemed to work in lifting her spirits.
Ciel sat in her room late at night thinking about everything. Dark thoughts filled her mind and she sighed and stood up walking over grabbing her old razor blade. She knew it wouldn't do much damage but she just needed to feel the familiar feeling that it gave her.
She sat on her bed dragging the blade across her wrist watching the blood pour from it for a few seconds before the wound closed and healed itself but not before blood had got on the sheets and stained them. Tears flowed down Ciel's face and she continued cutting. As soon as one cut closed she opened another one. By the time the sun rose the white sheet had turned red around her.
Ciel was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't hear Sebastian's footsteps approaching her door. He opened the door and his jaw dropped at what he saw. Here she was the girl that he loved cutting herself over and over again. He ran over to her removing the blood soaked blade from her hands and throwing it across the room so it embedded itself in a wall. Sebastian pulled her off of the bed and hugged her tightly. "Ciel why?" Was all he could say as he looked down into her blue eyes.
She continued to cry burying her face in Sebastian's chest. "b-Because I needed to...I couldn't go on any longer without it." She said holding onto his shirt like it was a life line. Sebastian ran his fingers through her hair rocking back and forth before standing up and standing up in a chair. "Ciel how many blades do you have?" He asked looking at her biting his lip slightly. "Just the one in the wall." She said looking down at the ground.
Sebastian nodded standing up walking over to the wall and removing the blade from it and taking the sheets off the bed. As he walked to the door Ciel looked at him with wide eyes. "Sebastian what are you doing?" She asked biting her lip.
He looked at her sighing softly. "I am going to throw these thing away. The blade for sure. I won't let you hurt yourself again Ciel." He said walking out of the room leaving Ciel to sit confused and a little worried.
When he came back he hugged her tightly and kissed the top of her head. "Ciel I love you and I hate seeing you hurting like this. Please for me try to stop. I will always be here and no matter what you think and what anyone tells you you're not alone. I love you more than anything and I always will." He said kissing her lips deeply and passionately.
Ciel kissed him back and hugged him back burying her face in the crook of his neck and sighing softly. "I'll try. For you Sebastian. I love you."
