Originally posted on 09/11/2011
Song used: 'If Walls Could Talk' by Celine Dion
The ways it started
It started with a kiss.
A kiss that charmed her but confused her at the same time. It was sweet, patient and irresistible. A kiss he gave her, because he found it easier to kiss her, than to talk to her. "You know there's a selfishness to the silence of the cowboy, forcing everybody else to carry the weight of the conversation." Or maybe he just intended to make it clear that he wanted more than just talk to her. It was their very first date, but they were both adults. It was clear to them what their attraction was about and with that kiss he made sure there wouldn't be any misunderstandings.
He wanted her and even though she tried to escape from him afterwards, she found herself kissing him again. And after another try, when she actually managed to make it outside the room, away from him, it didn't take long for her to find back to him. It was a desire that had to be fulfilled, because it couldn't have been stopped in any other way.
They were both experienced lovers and whatever political differences they'd had at the dinner table, it simply didn't show behind those closed doors, where they were alone, where no words were needed. They let their desires take over, forgetting about time and space. For a short while she ceased to be the classy liberal lady, and him the honest republican cowboy. They were just a woman and a man, who both knew what they wanted, the other.
Two people making memories
Just too good to tell
These arms are never empty
When we're lying where we fell
But this night soon became just a memory, along with a few others that followed. The affair didn't last long and it faded away with each passing day that they spent apart. But the recollection was with them again the next time they saw each other, just like the desire that couldn't be suppressed. And when they were alone again, behind closed doors, far from stranger eyes, it didn't matter any more whose fault it had been that they had been apart, they just wanted to be together.
We're two shadows
Chasing rainbows
Behind closed windows
Behind closed doors
They weren't strangers any more, they had a common past with intimate moments like that. Maybe they didn't fit on some levels, but on this level they were in perfect unity. It was awkward from the moment they met again, but only until their lips finally found each other and reminded the other what they'd been missing during the long time they'd spent apart. There were no questions or answers. There were just kisses, touches, sighs and screams. Nobody saw them, nobody heard them. There was no way anyone could have gotten to know their secret.
These walls keep a secret
That only we know
But how long can they keep it?
'Cause we're two lovers, we lose control
It had already happened once, right after their first time that what they'd thought had been their secret became a target of others. They knew they couldn't have let that happen again, but they almost did. They could have gotten caught, they were careless, but it just felt good not to care. Someone could have come in, someone who wouldn't have bothered knocking before. But she sent away the one who did, and sank back to those arms again, that held her tighter than ever.
If walls could talk
Oooh...they would say I want you more
They would say
Hey...ever feel like this before?
That you will always be the one for me
It was the passion that brought them back together, that made them forgive and forget. But behind the surface there was a different kind of feeling. It had been growing secretly inside of them right from the beginning.
It started with a smile.
A smile that charmed him but confused him at the same time. A smile that was sweet, glorious and irresistible. A smile she presented him with to tease him. "Oh my goodness, you're like something out of Melville." Or maybe she was already letting him see through her usual façade from the very first moment. It was the first time they met, and it was a business meeting, but they both knew right from the start that it was more than that. Beside the mutual attraction, there was a mutual sympathy, they made each other smile, they made each other laugh. And without noticing it, they started falling in love with each other with the first mutual smile.
He was the one who realized his true feelings first and it led him to propose to her leaving her with a difficult decision. She'd been there, she'd lost him once, but it was harder to lose him again, because this time he asked her to go with him and she said no. She couldn't regret saying no, but the minute he turned away from her, she felt that she wasn't ready to let him go that easily. She needed a last touch, she needed a last kiss to ease the pain. She started missing him the minute she let go of him and after he disappeared from her eyes, she began to wonder if she'd done the right thing letting him go.
It wasn't over yet. It couldn't have been over, because there were feelings already. It started out as an affair, but sometime during those lonely nights after he'd left again, she discovered her feelings for him. Feelings she couldn't hide any more, that haunted her each night. She wasn't used to missing someone from her side, until she had to learn how to deal with his absence.
He came back eventually. Part of his life was there, he couldn't have stayed away forever. And they only needed to see each other again once to realize what both of them had been missing. They'd tried being apart, they'd tried it twice, but they couldn't forget. And they finally decided to really try it together. They already had something to build their relationship on, there was the passion and there were those feelings. They just needed to listen to that common voice that came to them so naturally in those secret moments.
And after they finally talked everything through and made those decisions together that had to be made, it was all too natural for them to get lost in each other's arms again. But this time it was different. This time it wasn't just a few moments of pleasure with no tomorrow. They didn't have to rush things, to be eager. They knew they had all the time in the world.
We're painting pictures
Making magic
Taking chances
Making love
And at a certain point they finally said those magical three words that they'd been hiding from each other.
If walls had eyes
My...they would see the love inside
They would see
Me...in your arms in ecstasy
And with every move they'd know I love you so
They both knew it wasn't easy to find love in this world, especially not in those stages of their lives. It had been love from the very first smile, and they knew it was a love they shouldn't have let go.
