AU: I told you it had to get better before it got worse! Dun dun dun dunnnnn.
The doctor looked over the screen again with a soft smile on his face. Lily clutched Jon's hand even tighter as they both gazed up at the screen.
"Mrs. Lambeth, I do think you're going to have a little girl. Let's get a closer look." The doctor said as he zoomed in a little, "That is definitely a girl. Congratulations, guys."
Lily looked over at Jon as his smile spread across his face. He was going to have a daughter. The news tugged on his heartstrings a little and he bit back a couple tears as he looked down at Lily. He could only hope she would be half as courageous and beautiful as her mother.
"Alright, her new nickname is flower petal." Lily giggled as she watched the nurse cleaning the gel-substance off her belly. Jon bent over and kissed her sweetly on the lips.
"Are you happy now?" Lily smiled softly up at him.
"I've been happy since the day you told me, Lily." Jon stroked her cheek.
Lily sat backstage, watching as Jon paced back and forth a little bit. Jon wasn't nervous, he was just anxious. Tonight he took a step up to another company, NWA. He took drastic measures the week before; he attacked the current champion, "ICE", the week before. Now he was to show up again. Jon didn't know it but she saw the track marks in his forearm when he handed her his jacket earlier. She knew needle injections didn't normally scar you unless it was recently done. Jon had been home almost a month now; the injections he done in Puerto Rico should have been gone by now. Once again, she didn't want to bring it up to him. She always seen these things way too late but this wasn't something she could have passed up.
"Jon," Lily whispered as she tapped him on his leather clad shoulder.
"Yeah babe?" He asked as he stuck a piece of gum in his mouth.
"You..you wouldn't lie to me about anything, would you?" She asked, crossing her arms behind her.
"Lily, I don't have time to talk about this right now. Afterwards we'll talk, okay?" He trailed his fingers under her chin before bending down and pecking her bottom lip softly.
"Promise?" She mumbled against his lips.
"Promise." He kissed her once again.
She could have kept him in that moment; not let him go for anything. She felt as if she let him go he'd go out and get another fix. The two sat in the lobby area as they listened to ICE talk about winning the Tri-state championship. Lily wasn't in a very good mood right now; her back hurt and she felt as if she was going to melt at any given point. Even in the mid-December coldness, she felt like it was a thousand degrees in the building.
"Well I would've thought you would have learned your lesson by now." Jon said as he stepped out from the hidden compartment as the security guarded him, "But here you are again! Parading around with the tri-state champ; like you're somebody. You think that belt makes you some kind of tough guy? I don't think you're a tough guy at all. Don't even act like you're going to come down here and try to fight me because we both know you don't have the gut."
The guards hard to keep Ice back in the ring as he slung obscurities at Jon and screamed at him. Jon on the other hand, aside from talking his shit, was as calm as he'd ever been in a confrontation.
"C'MON DOWN, MAN. NO SNEAK ATTACKS, WE'RE FACE TO FACE RIGHT HERE, C'MON DOWN." Jon shouted back at him, "But I promise you, you walk down this aisle to me right now, you'll never walk again because I swear to god I will cripple you."
"JON MOXLEY, YOU WANT ME? YOU WANT MY BELT? YOU COME INTO MY HOUSE, YOU COME INTO MY RING AND YOU GET IT." Ice shouted back as the crowd cheered.
"Alright, well let him go! Alright, fine, we'll do it like this." Jon said as he held his hands up, "We'll see what kinda guts you got, we'll see what kind of tough guy you really are, champ. I'm going to challenge you right here, I'm standing right in front of you. I want to challenge you for May 29th right here in Cincinnati, Ohio in this building, in that ring right where you're standing with the tri-state title on the line." Jon watched as Ice shouted something back at him, Lily couldn't really make out what he was saying due to his lack of not using a microphone.
"Hey man, you better know you got lucky last week. I left you laying but you still got to go home with that belt. May 29th? I'm taking it with me." Jon said as he took a few steps back and his music hit.
After he walked out of the performance area, Lily watched him talk with the other wrestlers. She knew who Richie was; the guy who had given him the coke over in Puerto Rico. They had previously met and she got a little annoyed once Richie pulled Jon out to the side of the room and whispered something in his ear. Jon gave a soft smirk and they bumped fists before walking off. She knew he had walked past her and expected her to follow him; instead she sat still. She was upset with him.
"Lily, you comin?" His voice interrupted her thoughts but she still didn't want to talk to him; the more she thought about it the more the signs had come clear. "Lily, c'mon." He stretched his hand out to her.
"Don't touch me." She almost growled at him as she stood up and walked a head of him.
She walked out into the cool December air and took a deep breath; the air stung her lungs. Nighttime in Cincinnati was a lot more beautiful than it was during the day. The streetlights gave off a ominous orange glow to the city as the steam rose up from the gutters. This was home to Lily, nowhere else. If you looked closely enough from where she stood, you could see the Roebling bridge. This was exactly where her and Jon had first met.
"What the fuck is your problem?" He huffed after he caught up with her.
"Whats my problem? WHATS MY PROBLEM, JON?" Lily turned to look at him over her shoulder.
"I don't think I stuttered." He rolled his eyes.
"Why do you keep FUCKING lying to me?" Lily turned sharply on her heels.
"Lily," Jon sighed, "What are you talking about?"
She marched up to him and jerked his arm from his side as she pushed his leather sleeve up, "THAT'S WHAT IM FUCKING TALKING ABOUT. You lied to me, Jon. You promised me you'd stop. But you didn't. You lied to me and broke a promise. DOES THE FACT THAT WE'RE GOING TO HAVE A CHILD IN FOUR MONTHS NOW NOT REGISTER IN YOUR HEAD, JONATHAN? IS THAT IT?"
"IT DOES REGISTER AND IT'S FUCKING SCARY, LILY." Jon shouted back down at her.
"YOU DON'T THINK I DON'T KNOW THAT? YOUR BODY ISN'T THE ONE GOING THROUGH ALL THESE CHANGES. I HAVE YOUR CHILD INSIDE OF ME, JON. YOU DONE THIS."
"It takes two to tango, Lily. This isn't just MY FUCKING FAULT."
"YOU DIDN'T EVEN FUCKING USE A CONDOM, JON."
"Oh, here we go AGAIN." Jon rolled his eyes, "And you sure as hell never told me to stop."
"Fuck you, Jon." She poked her finger into his chest roughly, "You are the one that's going to be missing out on this child's life. NOT me."
"Oh, so now we're done? Is that what you're telling me?" Jon threw his arms in the air.
"I'M TELLING YOU THAT I DON'T HAVE TO SIT HERE AND TAKE YOU BEING ON WHATEVER YOU'RE CURRENTLY ON, JON. I grew up with coke addicted parents. The drug is the reason why my Dad is dead, Jon. AND I'LL BE DAMNED IF IT HAPPENS AGAIN TO OUR CHILD."
"Look at you, Lily." Jon chuckled as he realized where he was standing, "You're still that same scared little girl you were when we first met here."
"What happened to that Jon?" Lily quickly turned his topic around on him.
"He's gone Lily. No matter how hard I try to find him, no matter how hard I try and grab ahold of him, he just slips farther away." Jon said after a few minutes of silence, "He's gone."
"I don't like this new Jon." Lily shook her head.
"Why are you being like this, Lily?" Jon shook his head as he lit a cigarette, "Everything I ever done for you was for your own damn good. Why can't you see that, huh?"
"So now you're going to throw it up in my face that you took me in, is that it Jon?" Lily asked him with tearful eyes.
"No, I didn't say that. I just said that everything I've ever done for you was out of the kindness of my heart. I felt sorry for you and I still do. You fell in love with me, there's something fucking wrong with you for that." Jon sighed as he flicked the ashes from his cigarette off.
"You're just like everybody else, Jon." She hung her head, "I thought you would be different; that you wouldn't be a drug addict but I guess I'm just stupid for trying to believe that, huh?"
"I'm a far cry from those cunts that you call your friends, Lily." Jon walked towards her, "You should know that by now."
"Jon stop," She whispered as she backed up only to realize she was against the brick wall.
Jon placed his arms up on either sides of her head and brought his forehead down against hers. She was in tears now, slightly frightened but more-so pissed, as his glazey-baby blue eyes scorched right through her. She went to push him away but he quickly caught her wrists in his grip and held her tightly until she stopped fighting him.
"Give into me, Lily." He repeated himself over and over until she was nothing but an emotional girl sobbing into his chest.
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