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"Something wrong baby?" Gideon asked me, looking at me with a worried look.
"Nothing to worry Ace, I'm just texting Cary." I answered winking at him. I needed to make sure Cary understood I was fine and staying with Gideon tonight. But I could tell Gideon wasn't happy about my answer because suddenly he turned his gaze away from me and gripped the steering wheel so hard his knuckles were turning white. I could also see his jaw line tensing up.
"Eva, I need to ask you something. And I need you to be completely honest ok?" he asked me, still not making eye contact with me. Damn, he was mad about something already. What a roller coaster man he was.
"Ok" I answered back, starting to get anxious about his unexpected reaction..
"Do you love Cary?" he asked me almost whispering.
"Of course I do. He's like a brother to me Gideon" I answered, chuckling a bit. He could be so cute sometimes, worrying about me and Cary was ridiculous. We were family, nothing else going on.
"Stop laughing Eva! I saw the way he was holding you earlier. He was too protective for my taste. I wanted to punch him in his fucking face Eva! If your father wasn't there I would have made him regret getting in my way!" he snapped at me making me wince a little. Fuck, he was really pissed. But why? Cary was my friend and he knew that.
"Gideon you know damn well Cary is my oldest friend and I care about him just as much as he does about me. You're just going to have to learn to deal with it and keep your temper in check if you want me to stay in your life." I tried to sound as serious and unaffected as I could but his reaction was making me feel pretty uncomfortable and a little sad too.
"I don't respond well to ultimatums Eva so watch your tone." he barked at me, looking me dead in the eyes, clearly pissed at me because I could see his heavy breathing and clenched fists. And now I was mad at him.
"Then stop imagining ridiculous things about me and Cary. He's my friend and I won't change our relationship because you feel threatened by it Gideon." I bit back, this time avoiding his stare because I could feel some tears creeping on me. And there was no chance in hell I would cry in front of him, not when I was this furious and wounded. He was the most aggravating man I had ever met let alone loved.
"Try to put yourself in my place. If one of my friends, that happened to be a woman, tried to protect me like he did, how would you feel Eva? You would go crazy with jealousy and you know it! So stop diminishing what I'm feeling! I know you trust him. But he's still a man and you're a beautiful woman. And you guys live together for fuck sake!" he snapped back, this time grabbing my hand and squeezing it gently. I could feel he was confused and a little nervous about this. But what could I say to make him feel better? I knew damn well Cary felt for me exactly what I felt for him, brotherly love. But Gideon was taking this too far. I just wished he didn't make me choose because I couldn't choose him over my family, and that included Cary.
"What do you want with this conversation Gideon? Are you trying to create a wedge between me and Cary? Because I will tell you right now, that will never happen. We have both gone through hell and back together and I will never stop being his friend or care for him. So please, don't ask me to choose. You won't like it if I do." I finally managed to say to him, after taking a few deep breaths.
"I see. Well, good to know where I stand with you." he says back, looking away from him and letting go of my hand. He was hurt. But how could I manage this situation at all? I wouldn't put him above Cary, I couldn't. He deserved better from me. But so did Gideon. I guess I just didn't expect him to be so possessive, even Cary would be a problem for him.
"Gideon please. You know how I feel about you. Can't you just trust me and stop being so jealous about Cary? Please, I miss you. I need you Gideon" I whispered at him, reaching for his face and trying to appeal to his heart. Deep down I hoped he had missed me as much as I missed him. But after he pushed my hand away I knew the moment of passion and lust was over.
"I don't trust him. And knowing you would choose him over me doesn't make me feel better about any of this. You are my life Eva, there's nobody above you. It's just hard for me to understand you don't feel the same way." he whispers back, still avoiding me and staring at the road in front of us. My heart broke hearing him say those words. I was the most important person in his life, but now I had made him feel like shit. Fuck Eva, nice going!
"Gideon I love you. I will never love anyone else as I love you. I will never need any other man as I need you. I want to share my life with you. I want to be with you for as long as you'll have me. Isn't that enough to prove how I feel about you?" I whispered back, keeping my hands in my lap but searching for any sign he was back to loving mode.
"How can you love me so much and still put him first? It doesn't make sense Eva. I'm sorry but it doesn't." he says back, shaking his head and covering his mouth with his hand.
"I don't know what else to say. I love you so much it hurts Gideon. But you want me to do something I just can't do. I'm sorry" and after that I couldn't bear it anymore and I let the tears flow down my cheeks. It pained me to see him hurt because of me, but what he was asking of me wasn't something I could give him. I would do anything for him, but not this. I tried to hide the tears from him, I wanted to look strong and sure of myself. But as always, failed miserably to do so.
"Eva please. Don't cry. I don't want to cause you more pain. I just need time to deal with this ok? Just give me time baby" he whispered to me. But this time touching my wet cheek and forcing me to look at him. And when I did he closed the space between us and kissed me like his life depended on it. I could feel the earlier fire and yearning coming back. My entire body was calling for his. And I knew he felt it too, because when he pulled away from me,his breathing was heavy and uneven.
"Jesus Eva, let's just drop this ok? I need to get you naked and thoroughly fucked until the sun comes up" he whispers into my lips, smirking at me. My sexy man was back and I couldn't wait to be under his rock hard body.
"Yes please! I'm in serious need to be properly fucked." I smirked back, winking mischievously at him and biting my lip to make him even more excited. It worked like a charm because he growled at me and immediately started to drive us back to the Hotel. Despite what it seamed a few moments ago, tonight was going to be all about making up for lost time. Fire, passion, lust, sex, love. For the first time in a long time, I had no desire for tomorrow to come!
