The sun has risen, the pawns are set, and so our story of tragedy continues. . .
--Kagome's POV--
Koga had his hand extended out towards me and a wicked, triumphant smile played across his face. I turned around to see the looks on my comrades' faces. They eyes were a bit weary, but their faces said nothing. I knew they didn't want me to go, they probably thought that I only wanted to go with him, just to prove how much I hated Inuyasha. That I was letting my own rage get the best of me. But that wasn't the case. Not this time.
I took Koga's hand and before I knew what was happening, he had swooped me up into his arms and we were on our way. It was exhilarating to be inside his whirlwind and it had my adrenaline rushing. I had a feeling that today was going to be very different from what I was used to. We stopped at a stream and I sat on a small stone while he panted and took a drink from the stream. He assured me that he only stopped for my sake, but I knew that wasn't the case.
"I don't think that I'll take you back to the pack. So where do you want to go?" He asked between chugs of water.
I was astonished, mostly because I usually had to worry about sensing shards or going where Inu- well where HE wanted to go. Never was I asked what I wanted to do. There were so many things that I could choose from. I settled on just walking. Not particularly anywhere, just wherever our feet took us, and with Koga sense of smell, there was no way we would get lost.
So we began our journey, I could tell Koga wasn't used to the slow pace I had chosen but not a peep of annoyance rose from him. After awhile his fidgeting stopped and it almost seemed like he was comfortable.
"So Kagome, now that the half breed mutt is gone. Will you be my woman?"
Oh god, I knew this conversation would come up if I decided to go with him. But even though I had be this point had about an hour to come up with my answer I had still come up short. I wasn't sure what I should do. My feelings were scatter brained everywhere. I had frozen my heart over for Inuyasha, or at least so I thought, and I hadn't even thought about Koga. Then again I found ironic that he had shown up right after Inuyasha had left… maybe he had known all along. Picked up his trail or something, and realized that Inuyasha was a big fat as-. I'll be nice.
"Koga," He looked over, ears pricked. "Can you do me a favor?"
"Of course, anything."
He answered with such assurance that it made me feel worse for having to ask for such a thing. In fact I myself couldn't understand why I was about to ask for this. I knew I was setting my own trap and now I was about to walk through it for the bait. But, I couldn't help it.
"D-Do you know…do you know where he is?"
I could literally see Koga's good mood hit the floor, causing mine to almost stumble with it. I knew that asking him something like that was stupid, foolish, heartless, and inconsiderate, but I had to know.
"Yeah, I knew before I came. I thought with him gone I had an ace in the hole… guess not."
"Will you take me to him?" I asked warily. Then I saw a side of Koga that he had never expressed to me before, maybe Inuyasha but never me.
"What the hell for Kagome?! He LEFT you why do you refuse to admit or see that. He picked Kikyo over you! Why would you so desperately want to be with someone who very clearly doesn't want to be with you? Why can't you just accept that he's gone… why can't you accept it and… and be with me?! I love you Kagome, I love you and that mutt doesn't! He doesn't care about you and he sure as hell doesn't love you as much as you love him. You deserve someone who can love you too. And Kagome, whether you see it or not that someone is me!"
I shrunk back, unable to come up with anything suitable to say to him. He merely stood there fuming. I could tell there was something else… something more that he wasn't telling me, and probably with good reason. But he was right, everything I was doing was stupid and I knew he didn't love me but I had only one answer for him.
"I love him Koga. He may treat me badly sometimes and he may not love me back but I love him. We can't control who we love and my who just happens to be him. I'll do anything for him no matter what. I can't help it Koga and if I could I would be with you. You deserve it, but I can't because of how I feel about him. You don't deserve to be with someone who can't keep their mind off of lost causes instead of you. I battered and broken, and the only one capable of fixing me is him. Whether he chooses to or not is up to him to decide, but I can't help but still chase after him anyway. Now you can choose to help me or not, either way I'm not giving up."
I stood with my hands on my hips as I poured out the very truth I had been hiding from even myself onto Koga. I was still going to hang out with him even if he said no, I would let him take me back to the others then I would look for Inuyasha whether he helped or not made no difference. The wind whistled lightly and I walked toward the river where I could get a drink. Koga followed slowly behind and I was still unsure of his next intentions.
"Kagome, I know where he is. And I'm going to take you to him, but I'm warning you. You might not find the view very pleasant. The mutt found his play toy."
I figured as much. Inuyasha found Kikyo, and Koga was trying to keep it from me. That's why he blew up, not only because he really felt that way but also because he was trying to dissuade me from looking for something that would only make me feel horrible. Either way I still wanted to see him. So I nodded and stood before Koga. He sullenly sighed and lifted me tenderly into his arms, taking off into an unknown direction.
We surprisingly didn't travel very far before coming up upon a small cave. The sun was setting and the view was gorgeous. Koga let me down on the ground softly and stepped back one or two steps to give me room. I looked over at him, knowing there were unfinished things between us and mixed feelings.
"Koga," I started, not sure which direction to put this in. "I really am sorry, but you'll find someone for you. I'm just sure that I'm not that someone."
He smiled, though I knew he wasn't so sure of my words. I leaned up and kissed him lightly on the cheek and gave him a hug.
"Will you stay, or are you going?"
"I'm staying right here. That mutt is going to hurt you and he's going to leave a scar this time. I want to be there to make sure that I can be of some help."
I smiled my thanks to him, taking a deep breath and turning around to face the cave entrance. I hadn't seen him in a while and I was sure that seeing him now was not going to be a simple matter. I saw the hanyou emerge from some opening in the woods. So he hadn't been in the cave, he was somewhere else. He looked a little worried, maybe a little misguided. Whatever it was sure wasn't it was good. Something was bothering him.
He stopped though… and he sniffed the air. Oh god he smelled me, and he probably smelled Koga. To late to back out now. He turned in my direction and I took a step forward.
"Inu- Inuyahsa."
"Kagome?"
Mwhahahahahaha!! Cliffhanger, yeah I haven't updated in FOREVER!! I should be punished. And I could have stretched this out to be a really long juicy story but I've been writing to many other things so I'm kinda half-assing this one. . Maybe if I have some time I'll go back and redo it to be better later. Truthfully only reason I even did this is cause I'm on a 14 hour road trip and was going through some stuff while on the road and found this and began writing. . Well, Adios.
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