A/N Enjoy. Have you ever had people who lie to you or about you because of something they did? And then they ruin a relationship for you? I have. And it makes life HELL.
Chapter 7: Fights :/
I woke up to that annoying beep that the heart monitor makes. I didn't open my eyes because I knew the hospital lights were hella bright. I squinted my closed eyes and groaned in pain from the gnarly headache I had. "Nice going Bells," I thought. I slowly opened my eyes, and noticed…nobody was there. I didn't expect anybody to stay around long enough to find out if I was okay. They probably left me, and where out eating pizza and drinking and having a good time. But that was okay, that was fine, screw them. I don't need anybody!
I tried moving but reliezed I couldn't. I examined myself quickly and I realized I had a broken arm in three places, a gnarly road rash, and a broken leg. That was one hell of a wipe out! My collar bone was shattered, and it would take four, or five, weeks to heal, and even then it wouldn't be fully healed. Sighing I laid my head down and just closed my eyes. Suddenly I heard the click of the door latch being opened and I looked up alert. I noticed a tall silouttee in the door way, holding what looked to be a giant teddy bear.
Emmett stepped into view and noticing I was awake rushed over to me. Behind him was Oliver, followed by Alice, Jasper, and finally Joey. Wait…what the fuck? Joey?
"J-Joey?"
"Isabella Marie Swan! How could you! You were sent here to not do this kind of shit! And you completely disobey me! Guess what dad said to me when he called me. He said you can't live with me! Bella you can't be with me anymore because your to much of a fucking dumbass to follow the simple rules set infront of you!" Joey ranted.
"Guess what bitch, I don't fucking need you! You aren't my dad! Hell your not even my brother anymore! I don't know you! Ever since I became famous all you've been using me for is my fucking money to buy you, your fancy cars, your big ass house and all your fucking booze! With out me you'd be fucking nothing! So don't come in here and act all tough when all you want is my money!"
"You're an ungrateful bitch Bella, I hope you know that. You know that none of that is fucking true, and you know I really do love you. " With that he stormed out of the room and left me there to do what ever I wanted to do. I felt like shit now, both out side and inside. And I wasn't going to cry over a moutherfucker like that, not now, not ever.
"Damn it!" I yelled suddenly. Everybody looked up startled, and rushed over to me all at once asking if everything was okay.
"Can…can I just have a few minutes to myself. Oli can you please go check on him?"
"Sure thing, come on people lets give her a second." Oli said. Emmett walked over to me and kissed my forehead, and whispered, "none of that is true, I love you." Then left with the rest of them.
Sighing I ran a hand through my hair. Then I noticed something metal-ish and sharp on the counter. I walked over to it and held it to my wrist. I took a deep breath and gently set it on my skin. Then in one fluid swipe I slashed open my skin. My heart monitor went crazy, but I ripped the damn thing off. I sliced my skin again and again, and my tears mixed with the blood and began pooling on the hospital floor.
"This is for you Joey, I hope your fucking happy now bitch." I thought as I continued to cut myself. It stung alittle in the begging but I liked that pain that's why I kept doing it. I loved the pain and the fear it brought. Suddenly I felt light headed and started to get woozy, and suddenly I fell to the floor.
I kept crying I couldn't fucking stop no matter how much I tried. I hated the fact that we just had a big ass fight. I hated that I kept crashing no matter where I went. I fucking hate my life in this moment. And nothing anybody said or did would change that. Fuck my life sucks.
I'm tired of all the fighting I've been doing with the people who mean the most to me.
Joey, was my brother, he was always there for me and I knew that every word about him using me was just a lie. A fat ass lie, based off something that Elena said long ago. I know it was true but I couldn't contain that rage, and when I get mad I accidentally say stuff I don't mean. Like that.
Emmett, I loved him with all my heart, and he loved me too. I knew he would never hurt me, and I hope that I never hurt him again. I love him too much to be without him anymore, I'm tired of fighting with myself and holding myself back, from now on I'm throwing myself into having a good relationship with him.
And Sara, my girlfriend back at home, I am mad at her, and I'm not ready to…talk to her yet, because she didn't want me to stay. She wanted to be with Tyler instead, and I'm okay with that but I wish she would have said so instead of just let me go. That's how I ended up here anyway, because she pissed me off and I was cocky and thought I could beat James, well no I knew I could beat James, but I lost focus in that fit of rage I had, and I…made a bad choice and I have to live with the consequences.
I picked up my laptop and logged into my Yahoo account and sent my dad an email.
hey daddy, it's been a long time since I emailed you. I wanted you to know that everything that has happened in the past fourty-eight hours were completely my fault and not Joey's, because Joey wasn't even here, he was in California. I hope you know how terribly sorry I am that I keep scaring the hell out of you, and that I'm sorry I disappointed you, I've disappointed everybody so far, and I can not express how truly sorry I am. Please don't be mad at Joey, don't be mad at anybody but me. I'm sorry this has happened but daddy I want you to remember that I love you, and that I will never ever stop loving you or joey. Take care of each other for me….
3 Bella
I pressed send and turned off the computer. He would get it and Joey would read it, but its time I move on again. Maybe I will go to Florida, and visit my favorite race way, and the stage I sung my first concert on and take a walk on the beach, and clear out my brain. That's what I need to do, that's what I'm going to do. As soon as Oli leaves for his tour and Emmett goes hunting I will leave, taking only things I really absoulutly need. Good-bye sweet life.
A/N Heyyyyy do you guys like this chapter? Please review I love getting reviews from you guys it makes my shitty life better. ~Kaitie
