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Alexis's POV
I looked at my ceiling. I hadn't really been taking my pills. I'd use my entire hand to block out if you could see me actually putting it in my mouth. I have an entire stash of them in a little bag I have under my pillow. Yeah, maybe I really do want to be dead. I just don't wanna sleep through everything. It'd be exactly like if I were to be dead. It was Gabi's turn to watch me. It was 7 AM. I still hadn't "taken" my pill yet.
"Guess what! No more sleepy meds! Woo!" She put two thumbs up as she walked in
I smiled at her
"So now what?" I asked
"I'm not quite sure. How you feeling?" She asked
"So much better!" I said relieved
"You gonna miss Cody? I mean once he moved the 4 of us were so close" She looked at the picture I still had of all of us on the beach
"I don't know. It's just better for us move along then to just pretend everything is okay when it's not" I moved the picture face down
"I seriously thought you were going to die in there" She let a tear slip
I hugged her tight as she quietly sobbed.
"Hey, shhh, I'm not going anywhere" I hushed
She pulled away & dried her eyes. That's when it hit me. No one was talking to anyone. Looks like it's just Gabi, Greyson, & I. I smiled to cover up the worry in my eyes
"C'mon Greyson's taking us somewhere" She dragged me out of bed & to the bathroom
"I'll be out in 10" I told her as I closed the door
My shower gave me time to think. Everything was different & it's my fault. I wrapped my towel tightly around me. I opened the door. Fresh clothes there. Gabi obviously chose the clothes out. It was jean shorts & cable stockings for the bottoms, a white tank top, and an off the shoulder love shirt. I dressed dried my hair & straightened it. I put on white sparkly eyeshadow and silver eye liner. I came out & showed her my outfit
"Cute, perfect!" She smiled and circled me
"Let me grab my shoes" I laughed & walked towards my room
I saw a small box. It was a green & blue thread bracelet in it.
I saw a card next to it. It read:
"Gabi helped me make this. I thought you'd like it. - Campbell"
I tied it on to my wrist. I smiled at the beauty of it
I put on my converse & ran back to Gabi.
"Let's go!" I said. Greyson had just pulled up. We got in to the car.
"Where are we going?" I asked
"You'll see. But first blind fold" He pulled out a tie
I sighed and let him tie it. We were there in about 15 minutes. They helped me out of the car & in to some building.
"Okay ready" Gabi asked. I nodded yes
"1...2...3" They ripped the blind fold off. I saw Cody there... along with Izzy in his recording studio. I shook my head no
"I said that I never wanted to see him once I got better. I'm way better. I don't wanna be here!" I said in a harsh tone
"Then at least say goodbye" Gabi touched my shoulder
I shook my head no
"You know I'm better off just not talking to him" I looked down
"Hun, I know you hate goodbyes but, for the sake of your guys's closure" She motioned me to go
I looked at him. I saw nothing but pain & heart break.
I ran out of that building. You could hear Greyson yelling my name. Once I got outside, I sat on a bench. I wasn't crying. I just couldn't look at him. Knowing how I broke him too killed me inside.
"Alexis?" I turned around & saw Campbell
"Campbell, I've caused so much pain." I said as he sat next to me
"It's not your fault. Its our own. The secrets we've kept killed our relationships & friendships" he wrapped his arms around me
"Then why did Cody blame me? Maybe I am the problem" I weeped in to his arm
"Cody's an idiot. You're never the problem, you just somehow get stuck in the middle." He ran his fingers through my hair
"Campbell, sometimes I think you're the only one I can trust" I whispered
He didn't say anything. He just held me.
"I told you she only goes like 3 feet away from the building!" Gabi yelled at Greyson
I pulled away from Campbell
"I'm sorry. I just can't" I apologized
"You can't leave Cody forever or what?" Greyson asked
"I can leave him but I won't forget him" I replied
"Wait, what's going on?" Campbell asked confused
"Alexis & Cody made a promise to each other. Once she got better Cody would leave her & they'd never see each other again" Gabi said
"Why would you do that? Cody's my best mate & he's going to be over a lot. I mean since our parents are engaged & all" he said
"Wait what! My mom never said anything about marriage" I was confused too. He face palmed
"She was going to tell you today! I'm sorry! Be happy it's only been a day" Campbell lifted his head up
I began to think of my dad. When he died Cody had made so many promises. All of them, gone to waste.
"Can we just go inside now?" I asked
They nodded their heads and lead me in. I opened the door & saw Cody & Izzy again. I walked up to them
"Goodbye Cody Simpson. Have a happy life" I said & stuck my hand out as an offer to shake it
"You're really going to go through with this" He said heartbroken
"Yes, Goodbye & like I said have a happy life" I shook his hand
"Goodbye Alexis Collins. Or should I say Carsley?" He asked
"Carsley" I said
"Goodbye Alexis Carsley" He looked me in the eyes one last time. I took a step back & walked towards the door. There he was, just standing there watching me. I left. Campbell just so happened to be also walking towards the room.
"It's been said & done" I told him. He wrapped his arms around me.
"What's gonna happen when he comes over?" He asked
"I'll ignore him. Don't worry about me Campbell, I know what I'm doing" I said to him
"Get used to it starting tonight. Dinner with our parents & your family." He pulled away
"Well, I'll see you tonight" I replied as he walked in to the room
I walked out of the building. Greyson's car driver drove me home. I thanked him & ran in to the apartment building & in to my room. I sighed. I looked in my closet. My 6 string right there hidden behind hung clothes. I haven't played in a while. I watched my fingers strum the strings. I pulled out my tuner & fixed the sound. I kind of sing but there's absoloutely no way I could get signed. I'm not good enough. Cody never knew that I played. Just Gabi. Next thing I know I'm playing Kissing in the car by pierce the veil. I hummed the lyrics. I missed playing. My phone began to buzz
"Hello?" I said
"Hey, it's me Campbell. I just need to tell you that dinner is at 5" He replied
"Okay, & it's 12." I looked at the clock
"How are you holding up?" He asked
"Okay I guess. I picked my guitar back up. I miss him Campbell. I just, can't stand the suffering we put each other through."I confessed
"I never knew you played guitar. & I know you'll miss Cody, but you're trying to figure out what's best for you" He told me
"Yeah, I am. Thanks Campbell. You're the best brother ever" I smiled
"Anytime, I'll see you at 5" He hung up
I fell back on to my bed. I ended up watching American Horror Story. I was half way through an episode when I looked at the clock. It was 4:25. Campbell opened the door of my bedroom.
"You ready?" He asked
I grabbed my gold headband that went around my head, like thos hippy ones. I nodded. I walked out of my room with him & saw Cody waiting in the living area. Damn, this guy. I saw my headphones & ipod on the counter, I quickly snatched them. I saw Izzy come out of the restroom. I shook my head no & walked back in to my room. I locked my door. I heard knocking
"C'mon, Alexis! For our parents sake, please?" I heard Campbell
"Fine, but I'm not talking" I came out
"If you want to walk ahead of us you know where the Italian place is" He lead me out. I walked way ahead of them. I was drowning in my music. I accidently bumped in to a pretty cute emo guy. His headphones came off exposing the same music I listened to
"Sorry" He said
"It's fine. Love that song" I said
"You listen to My children my bride?" He questioned
"Yeah! One of the best bands ever. I'm Alexis" I said
"Skyler, you can call me Sky though" He introduced
I smiled as we shook hands.
"Do you maybe wanna hang out sometime?" He asked
"Yeah sure. Uhm should I give you my number?" I asked back
We pulled out our phones & exchanged numbers
"I'll see you around" He said
"Yeah, you will" I waved goodbye
He winked at me & in return I blushed. I noticed Izzy, Campbell, & Cody staring at what had just happened between Sky & I. I blushed an even deeper red & walked ahead of them. I entered the resturaunt & saw all my family there. Aunts, uncles, cousins, the whole shabang.
Everyone greeted me. Campbell, the slut, and the guy that now hates my guts walked in. I introduced them to Campbell and Campbell introdiced his friends. All of my girl cousins flipped when they figured out Campbell knows Cody Simpson.
I was in the middle of telling them about Sky when someone called my phone
"Hello?" I asked
"Okay I'm just making sure you didn't give me a prank call number" Sky said
Its him I mouthed and pointed to the phone
"I'd never do that! So what are you doing?" I replied
"I'm at an Italian resturaunt with my parents actually" I could hear an echo of his voice
"I think we're at the same place" I smirked
"I know, that's why I called you" I heard him from behind me. I turned around & saw his crystal blue eyes & jet black hair.
"Hey" I stood up & hugged him
"Hello" He replied
"Sky, these are my cousins! Natalia, Annette, Julianne, & Jaquline" I introduced them
They exchanged hello's. They fled the table & left us to talk. We mainly talked about music & our interests. That's when Campbell came over
"Hey, Alexis... who's this?" He asked awkwardly
"This is Sky, Sky this is my brother, Campbell" I pointed at Campbell
"Hi" Sky shook his hand
"Hey" Campbell intimidated
"Uhm, Campbell why don't you go talk to Cody" I suggested
He nodded & walked away. I noticed a fairly beautiful woman & a man who looked a lot like Sky.
"Sky, we're going home. If you wish to stay you may" the woman said
"Uhm okay, bye" he waved
"Oh, where are my manners! I'm , this is , you must be Sky's girlfriend" She shook my hand
I saw Cody's head whip around as soon as he heard girlfriend.
"She's a friend" Sky interupted
"I'm Alexis" I replied
"Well it's nice to meet you Alexis." She said
His father also shook my hand & said an almost silent hello.
"We should be going, we'll see you kids later" said . They waved goodbye & left.
"Sorry about that. So what brings you here?" Sky wondered
"My mom is getting married to Campbell's dad, she's telling everyone tonight" I grinned
"Oh, so is Campbell not related to you?" He asked
"No, step-brother. & you see that blond guy right there & that skank in the dress that looks like a tube top? Yeah, that's his best friend,& best friend's girlfriend. A lying cheating little bitch!" I covered my mouth. I had never said bitch.
"Listen, do you like that guy or something?" Sky grabbed my hand
"No, an ex actually. He was just like the rest" I said back
He sighed in relief
"Okay good." He smiled
"And why is that?" I asked leaning closer
"Because I... have the biggest crush on you" He leaned in closer
"Is that so?" I flirted
"I don't know, let's find out." He came closer & closer. Our lips finally touched. His lips tasted sweet like ice cream but his mouth tasted of mint. All I could do was savour the taste before being ripped of his lips.
"Do you seriously think that's a good idea with Cody around?" Campbell asked me, stern
I looked at Cody, apparently he'd been staring ever since he heard girlfriend
"I know what I'm doing" I whispered
Gabi & Greyson walked. They said they'd be a little late. I smiled & waved at them. My smile faded once I saw Jake & some new girl.
"Campbell, help me to make sure Gabi doesn't see Jake" I grabbed his collar
"Okay okay, geez" He pried my hand off
"Hey Gabi, uhm let's get a slice of pizza off the tray" I sat her down next to me. I put a slice on her's, Greyson's, & Mine. I saw Jake getting up.
"Gabi, dance with me!" I grabbed her hand. We listened to the violinist & celloist play. I twirled her around & handed her off to Campbell. I ran back to the table.
"Jake's here!" I said to Greyson. I interupted his & Sky's conversation
"That's not good" He said wide eyed. As if on cue, Alli & Dante walk in. Crap. Thank gosh his back faced them!
"I know, uhm Greyson Sky! Come dance with me!" I grabbed their hands. I didn't know what to do. I told Greyson to close his eyes & count to 150. It gave me enough time to tell Sky everything. He understood & sat and watched as Greson & I danced.
"I have to use the restroom." He said
"Uhm no! Don't really nasty restrooms!" I realized on the way you'd pass Alli.
"No! I need to urinate now!" Greyson argued
I kept taking a step back as he took one forward trying to stop him. Then we all ran in to each other. Cody was trying to stop Alli & Jake. Campbell was stalling Gabi. I was in the center of the circle. I watched as they all argued. Then came for the worst part
"It's all your fault!" They all pointed at me except Campbell
I felt really dizzy and woozy.
"No, no, no! Alexis stay calm breathe breathe" He caught me as I almost fell back. I saw Sky rush me a cup of water. I fell in to a chair. Campbell handed me the water. I drank every last drop. I wished at that moment that Campbell had never saved my life. I let my sobs come out.
"Can I die this time?" I asked cleary & loud.
"Don't start that crap! You're just a pathetic cry of attention" I heard Cody say. I pulled my knees up to my chest & tugged on my hair.
"You know he's right" My mind said to me
