A/N: So I decided my next up date will be next Friday so I can sort through my life. Hope you enjoy a few new characters coming into this story. I suspect a few more chapters until the end. ENJOY!
Chapter 7
Beware the Limes and Lemons. M for a reason.
"Fuck." Gajeel growled. I smirked slightly at him. He had a long stroke of beige paint on his tanned arm.
"You really suck, Mr. Redfox." I teased him. We were repainting Lily's room. He chuckled.
"Don't think I am below fucking you here." He dropped a hint in a husky tone. I tossed him a glare.
"Don't you even think about it."
"I'm always thinking about this." He squeezed my right butt cheek and I yelped. His laughter rolled throughout the room.
"Oh shut it and finish the wall. I'm taking my shower." I waved. He yanked me close and pushed his lips on mine. I smiled and gripped the front of his pants, teasing him.
"Shrimp…" He warned. I blew him a kiss as I waltzed out of the room. I was tempted to shower with Gajeel, but he would never get to work. I showered peacefully and dressed in gray sweat shorts and a black bra. It was hot. It was also a week after our little incident at the beach jam and things had kinda soothed over.
I paid in bed quietly as Gajeel finished up. He went straight into the bathroom before I decided to make something to eat. Gajeel had a soft spot for my very unhealthy taco dip. I smirked as I walked to the kitchen, getting excited for the praise I was sure I would receive. I listened to Gajeel's faint singing from the shower as I hummed along with him. When the shower cut off, it was the same time the doorbell rang. I cut off the stove and went to answer it.
"Oi, Levy. Get that for me. I'll be down in a moment." Gajeel shouted. I shook my head and opened the door.
"Hello?"
"And what have we here?" A sickening voice drawled out. I looked up and stared into devilish eyes. The man in front of me looked dangerous and menacing. His very presence had alarming bells ringing in my head.
"Umm… Can I help you?" I leaned back as he leaned forward, towering over me.
The man gave me a mischievous grin. "Is good ole Gajeel around?"
As if on cue, I heard footsteps clomping down the stairs.
"Hey, Shrimp, who was— what the fuck are you doing here?" Gajeel growled angrily while yanking me away from the door.
"Hey now. That's no way to talk to an old friend."
"Jose, leave here and don't ever return." Gajeel said tensely. His shoulders were bunched up, as if he felt threatened.
"Oh, but I came here to say something. Why don't you let me inside?"
"The hell I would. You need to get going. What happened before happened so you have no reason to come to me. Leave."
"Oh, come on, Kurogane." He sneakily drawled out. Gajeel's back tensed defensively. He looked furious.
"I am not below fucking kil—" He stopped short when he remembered I was behind him.
"Oh, but I heard that a little someone has been try—"
"Shrimp, go upstairs. Now." He snapped. His arms he flexed and his fists tightened. I placed a hand on his shoulder. He turned an eye to me as I looked to Jose.
"Mr. Jose, I don't think today is a good day for catching up. Have a nice evening." I gave a polite smile. He smirked before glancing back to Gajeel.
"Well, I guess I will call you for my favor. And take good care of your little girlfriend. She is definitely a keeper." The way he licked his lips made me worry. He stepped away as Gajeel slammed the door close. Gajeel locked every lock before he growled and marched to the living. I was on his heels. He went to the liquor cabinet.
"Gajeel, start talking." I said as calmly as I could. He raised a finger before bringing two shot glasses filled with dark liquor. He sat me down and made me drink a shot. I coughed lightly as he sat across from me with his now empty glass and the liquor bottle.
"Levy, I wasn't always the best man. I made a lot of really bad decisions in the past. Some of these scars are from those mistakes."
"Who was he?"
"I worked for him. For a very long time. I was blinded by fame and money and… God Levy, I was a really bad person. Sometimes, when I get really mad, the violence and drugs pulled on my conscience." He took another gulp. I reached out and grabbed his hand. I kissed his fingers.
"I'm stuck with you. Tell me everything. From the beginning." I encouraged. He sighed and looked down.
"My mom was killed when I was younger. I was pissed and very impressionable at the time. The human world was changing. I bounced back and forth for about a century and a half, watching the changes. I was fascinated by the distraction. About two decades ago, I met Jose. He isn't normal like you. He has certain abilities… And he was very persuasive. He promised me that he would find my mom's killer in exchange for dirty work." He stopped suddenly and took a harsh breath.
"What did Metalicana have to say?" I asked shocked. He chuckled humorlessly.
"Nothing. He didn't know until about ten years ago when I confessed. He beat the shit outta me, but I needed it to screw my head on right."
"Tough love." I said gently. Gajeel cracked a momentary smile before it dropped.
"My relationship with him is… complicated."
"I'm sure you can fix stuff later."
"I vanished, and he grieved without me. I was forced to kill people, Levy. Scare. Torture. Murder. Sometimes I had to wipe out families just to get to the target. I killed a teenage girl, who cried out Kurogane. At a certain point, I grew to enjoy it. I loved hearing their screams when I hurt them. I used my magic to kill people who had no chance against me. I was feared in the crime world. They called me Kurogane, and they were lucky if I wasn't given a card with their name on it." His voice deepened. I snatched the bottle away and he raised his hands to his face in shame. I stood up and brought his head to my stomach, hugging him.
"You were frantic Gajeel. You don't enjoy it anymore. You enjoy hanging out with your best friends, fighting, and being with me. You don't like spicy foods and killing. You aren't that Gajeel. That man, isn't a part of you. Kurogane isn't your name. It's Gajeel Redfox." I tried coaxing him away from his memories. Gajeel buried his face in my stomach while gripping the back of my thighs with his hands.
"I can still hear them, Levs. Those nights I wake up suddenly and get up, I go to spar with Lily. I still get nightmares. I can hear them all." His voice was broken. I stroked his raven black mane of hair.
"The next nightmare you have, wake me up. We will deal with it together. No more avoiding it. You have me and all of our friends to scare away those terrors. I love you too much to let you ruin yourself."
"Goodness, Levy. How the hell do you put up me?"
"The sex is good." I said gently. He looked up at me with a small grin and I ducked down to kiss him. "And you have a sexy voice. And you love me. And you sing to me and Lily. And you spoil me even though I despise it. And you hold me, hug me, kiss me, cuddle me. And because I don't have the will to leave any of that. We are stuck with each other, Gajeel. A past like that won't break us. We can't change it, but we can plan to move forward. We can't let our past experiences ruin us." I had to hold my voice together because it felt like it was hardening. I knew I would have to confess my last little demon to him as he was me.
The two emotions in Gajeel's eyes set my skin ablaze. Lust, which was always present, and so much love. He stood up kissed me hard. I let him touch my body as he grasped me desperately.
"Fuck, shrimp. I love you so much it hurts. Tell me you love me again."
"I love you." I whispered in his ear. He took a calming breath before he straightened. I stuck my hands under his shirt to feel the muscles moving on his lower back. He stroked my cheeks with his hands.
"I'm making taco dip. I was gonna make you a plate for work." He had to go into the bar today. He nodded.
"Do you want to go?" I asked him.
"Not really. I'm not comfy with you being home alone. Jose is an… Exceptional man." He said indifferently. I moved my hands higher up his back.
"You go and I will call Lucy and Natsu. I have to toss the stuff in a dish and bake it for an hour." I said calmly. He caught onto my drift quickly.
"I'll get the phone call, you do the food. Meet back in here." He kissed my nose.
We separated, and two minutes later, we were in each other's embrace on the couch. We cuddled silently until the oven went off. Gajeel promised me he would be home in about two hours as Lucy and Natsu came inside. I kissed him heavily, giving him a preview of what awaited him.
"Tonight, I want to just hold and kiss you while I'm rested inside of you. I just want to come at the feel of you, Shrimp." He whispered softly to me. I blushed but nodded at him. He kissed me once more before he left me in the driveway. I watched him drive down the street on his motorcycle before I went inside of the house. Lucy hugged me hard.
"Is everything okay? Natsu told Gajeel told him about some Jose guy. Natsu hella pissed, might I add." She whispered as we walked back inside. Her voice was hard.
"We are okay. What aren't you telling me?" I asked. She pulled me to the living room where Natsu paced impatiently. I watched him.
"Levy, Gajeel is going to take care of you. You have to listen to what he says." Natsu said firmly. I furrowed my eyebrows.
"What is going on?" I asked worried. Natsu looked frustrated.
"Jose… His last name is Porla."
A name I knew. And feared. And it scarred me. Joshua Porla. The boy from the orphanage… I doubled over, trying not to vomit. Lucy came to my side and hugged me tightly.
"It's okay, baby. Joshua won't get to you. He is gone, remember. Natsu and Jellal took care of him." She reminded me.
"That man… And Gajeel worked for him. I'm gonna be sick. Porla. Natsu, what if… What if he came to finish what his son couldn't have… What if—"
Natsu kneeled in front of my and grabbed my hands. "No, Levy. He gave up Joshua. Probably knocked up his mom. Jose doesn't know about you. And Joshua will never hurt you again. Gajeel knows what I did to Joshua, not why. You have to tell him. Everything."
The scar on my cheek burned. I could remember my cries for help. Natsu was gone that one summer, the worst three months of my life. Only few people knew about what happened. And those people were my closest of friends.
"I… I can't relive it. His eyes are the exact same. Jose and Joshua. Natsu, I can't tell him. He has too much—"
"Levy, you are his everything. He will be broken if he isn't told by you. He wants to chase away those fears. Let him." Natsu rubbed my fingers. Lucy pulled my head to rest on his shoulders while Natsu sat at my other side. My terrible demon wouldn't scare Gajeel off. Natsu was right. When I composed myself, I took deep breaths.
"Let's just… focus on something else. Gajeel was really bothered and I want him to come home to something nice soon, especially after I tell him." I mumbled. Lucy understood with a frantic nod.
"I thought about you wearing my graduation present. It reminded me of Gajeel when I bought it."
I made a face. "I meant something like a dessert or a movie. Jeez."
Lucy laughed and sat next to me on the couch. Natsu sat near the fireplace calmly with his eyes closed.
"Hey, Natsu. Can you tell me about Gajeel's mother?" I asked softly. He opened both eyes and looked at me.
"She was great. I was young when she passed away, but Gajeel really loved her. Uncle Metalicana too. I adored her as well. She had this… Air about her. She was the energy brought into the room. I can remember her talking to my dad after my mother passed. Just being there lifted my father's mood." He said with a peaceful smile.
"She sounds lovely."
"She was. Even on her deathbed, she made our home a home. After she passed, my father was kinda forced to step up in Metalicana's place since he could barely function. That night, Gajeel and I got into a nasty fight. I tried to keep him from leaving home. He is the one who gave me the scar on my stomach. And I gave him the scar on his shoulder." Natsu looked sad.
"What was her name? Gajeel's mother?"
"Grandine the Great. Daughter of Shadow Dragon Skiadrum. That's how Gajeel became mixed blooded. He was the first one born with mixed blood. His brother, Rogue, is also mixed."
"That's cool. What about you?"
"My pops was the Mighty Igneel!" He said with excitement.
"Tell me stories. I want to fall asleep happy." I whispered. He grinned and nodded before my two bestest of friends grabbed a hand and comforted me. I fell asleep warm and content.
The calm before a storm.
"Shrimp? Wake up. Come on, Shrimp." I heard Gajeel. I stretched and moaned slightly. My head was on a pillow. I looked around.
"Where is… Them?" I yawned as I sat up on the couch.
Gajeel chuckled. "Babe, they just left. Come on, let's go to bed."
I grabbed his wrist when he turned. "Wait."
"What's wrong?"
"I have something I need to tell you."
He raised a studded brow.
"I'm sure it can wait until morning." He murmured while turning to grab his phone and keep going to his bedroom. I shut my eyes closed.
"No."
There was a moment of silence. I felt my hands close into fists as I controlled my breathing. I looked down to see Gajeel's hands covering mine.
"Okay. We can talk. Stay here." He mumbled. I wrung my hands together nervously, watching them instead of him. I looked up when a wineglass filled my grasping hands.
"Gajeel?" I asked. He stood in front of me sipping on his drink and watching me with calm eyes.
"Talk, Levy." He said. I grabbed his jeans belt and tugged him.
"You might want to sit down for this." I said evenly. Gajeel sat close enough that my thighs rested over his. He stroked my legs with one hand while watching me over his drink.
"You know you can tell me anything." He mumbled.
"I know. I just… I never thought… I'm not perfect… And when we first slept together… It meant a lot to me. You mean a lot to me." I raised his hand to my lips as he smiled slightly.
"That night was the best night of my life. You are the best thing that ever happened to me." I tried to smile, but a dreadful feeling came over my heart.
"This demon of mine… I need you to know it is a part of my past. You saved me from him. In more ways than one… I just couldn't tell you then…" I looked down. He gripped my thigh in his rough hand, forcing me to look at him.
"Levy, tell me baby." He said. I took a large gulp of my drink.
"I wasn't a virgin when we slept together." I breathed. Gajeel tensed up. I kept my eyes on him, scared to continue talking.
"I could tell. What happened?" He asked as he raised his glass to his mouth.
"Eight years ago, when Natsu went to visit you at your home, was the first time I was molested then raped by Joshua Porla—" Gajeel's glass broke in his hand as his drink spilled over his mouth and shirt. I moved my legs as he stood up muttering a curse. His eyes were wide with hard emotions. He looked at his bleeding hand and turned to the kitchen.
"Wait here." He mumbled to me in a rough voice. I finished my glass and closed my eyes. I covered my face, scared that I had lost Gajeel. I didn't want anyone to know what had happened, but Gajeel deserved to know.
"Levy." I moved my hands. Gajeel stood in front of me holding another glass full of a dark liquid and his hand wrapped in his shirt.
"Are you hurt? Is it bad?" I asked. Gajeel sat on the coffee table and grabbed his knee in his free hand.
"It'll be fine in the morning. Can you tell me more? How this happened?" His voice was harsh. I took a deep breath and looked into his fireplace.
"I was an easy target. Natsu was always there for me. The foster home we stayed in together wasn't the best since the country was in a crisis. Natsu used that time to leave, promising me he would be back at the end of the summer. Just a week before he left, he got into a fight with a young boy. I was about ten or eleven and he was fourteen. The other kids told him that I was Natsu's favorite."
"Fuck. He came for you." Gajeel downed his drink.
"That same summer, I found Jellal. One day, when Jellal was visiting me, Joshua called to me. He threatened to hurt Jellal. I went to him, and Jellal lied to me, saying that he was leaving. He followed me, and found Joshua about to… and when he told Natsu, they both swore I would never ever hear from him again. The city went on a hunt for Joshua, and found him dead a week later in the sea. Jellal and Natsu, they have been very protective of me since." I curled up. Gajeel roughly set his empty glass down and grasped his face.
"Fuck! If I had known—"
"Gajeel, don't do that to yourself. There wasn't anything you could have possibly done."
"Levy, he hurt you. He touched you. You took away something very special to you. If I hadn't been working for Jose, maybe his empire would have crumbled. Joshua wouldn't have been born." His uninjured hand covered his face. Tears ran down my cheeks.
"No, Gajeel. You don't understand. You saved me. Please see that." I begged while I placed my hands on his neck. He stayed immobile.
"When Natsu told the other dragons about what he and Jellal did, the others couldn't believe it. Killing a little boy to protect a girl was extreme. I sometimes wanted to criticize him for taking such measures. But then again, I was going through some major withdrawals. I never thought that little girl would be you." He moved his hand and gave me a pained look. I felt crushed. I fell back into the couch, crying.
"What is it?" Gajeel asked urgently.
"You're different. You're looking at me different. Like I'm a wounded animal, not the girl you love."
"What? Shrimp, I need time to process this." I looked up at him. His eyes only told half of the truth. I fisted my hands.
"I'm not hopeless like that anymore, Gajeel. I don't want you to feel sorry about something that will never change, damn it." Gajeel stood up furious.
"Then what the fuck do you want, Levy? You just told me that you were raped!"
"You. I want you. Just like before."
"That has never changed. Nothing will ever change how I feel about you." His voice was hard. I shook my head.
"No, it's different. You are looking at me like last night we didn't go at it like rabbits. What happened to you staring at my body and lovingly acknowledging my scars? Do you remember when you told me that just looking at me makes you hard? Is it true right now, or is my ugly past ruining your image of me?" I cried. He grasped my wrist and pulled it in between his legs to feel his hard erection. We lunged at each other.
Gajeel pressed me against the cushions and I gripped his erection, feeling him. When we ran out of breath, Gajeel pulled away.
"Is that hard enough for you, damn it? Nothing will ever change how I feel about you. I will always want you, and I intend to have you completely. Fuck him. You are mine now, mine tomorrow, and mine for the rest of our lives. You will never be embarrassed or nervous of anything that happens between us because you know me, Levy. Christ, you have me by the throat." He raised a hand to my throat and pressed his fingers down gently. Instead of feeling breathless or scared, I felt secure and complete.
"And you are right. Our past can't tear us apart. I won't let it." He said with a fierce growl. I kissed him hard again. I needed him to touch me. Gajeel lifted me and carried me to his bedroom. He laid me flat on my stomach and kissed the back of my neck.
He kissed every scar on my body before he went down on me. It was like never before. Gajeel christened my body with kisses, cleansing me, all the while whispering soft promises. I hadn't touched him at all, under his demand. My thoughts cleared as Gajeel brought me to yet another orgasm. I cried out in exhaustion.
"No more. I can't take it." I grabbed his hair and pushed him back as his tongue kept moving. Such a devilish thing, his tongue. His mouth, as a matter of fact.
"One more, Levy." He whispered while turning his head to kiss my quivering thigh.
"Stop. I can't take it anymore. My heart is going to stop." I panted. Gajeel began kissing up my stomach.
"That's what you said the last time, and the time before, and the time before that…" He kissed my breasts gently before sliding his rock hard length into me. I tried to push him off, feeling too sensitive.
"Gajeel. Stop." I begged. He pressed his lips to my hairline as his hips rested over mine.
"I told you before. I just want to rest inside of you. Until I come. Hold me." He murmured. I wrapped my shaky legs around his waist and felt up his back. Gajeel turned us so he rested on his side while he was still fully sheathed in me. Tears streamed down my cheeks as Gajeel kissed them away.
"Do you understand now? How much I love you. You're my rock, Levy. My world." He pulled me into a tender kiss before he groaned. I could feel him coming in jets of thick cum. I cuddled him and rested against him as he caught his breath. He stayed inside me as I fell asleep in his arms.
"I love you, Gajeel." I breathed.
"As I love you." He stroked my hipbone.
A/N: Check out my Bonus Chapter!
