So this is Janes POV again. Thanks Marcor...was a good idea.
As it is the last chapter (probably) I'm leaving you with a bit of light.

I hope you love it.

Thanks so so much for all your continued comments and interest and support. So happy this stretched and grew and we all loved it Xxx Jam


Without bad you cannot know good
Without dark you cannot know light
And without love you cannot know hope.

I'd like to say everything was easy
That there were no major problems
That being blind had some hidden advantages
That I could still do all the simple things on my own
But I would be lying

Everyone stepped up their game for me, And I'm so grateful for it
I didn't ask for it but I know I needed it
Sometimes they make me ask for help and I'm ok with that
It has been an unexpected adventure, a brutal training ground
Hell week is nothing in comparison

But I've always tried to keep my head up
I tried to stay true to who I was before and who I've always been
But I've had moments I regret and attitudes I've learned to curb
Yet, i've never let it all get the better of me.
It won't get me down and it definitely won't define me.
Life isn't always easy, it never is for anyone.

In life there are plenty of darker moments, especially for me, i'm surrounded by darkness
But dark moments are only dark because there is something less dark to compare them too
Otherwise dark would be normal, and light wouldn't exist
And we wouldn't know the beauty of it

And with love comes light, so the dark moments don't seem so dark
Darkness is the bridge connecting two moments of perfect light
And I know light when I see it

It's at the end a of long day when your body aches all over
And two knowing and gentle hands silently caress away the tension between your shoulders

It's when things go wrong and frustration steals your joy
But that sweet laugh brings it right back you

It's when you get lost and confused and you're about to scream
Gentle words whispered closely brings you out of your nightmare

It's at the end of a bad day and you want the earth to swallow you whole
Arms wrap tightly around you and you are swallowed into a warm embrace that melts away the bad

It's when you're mad that things are harder and more tiring than they should be
You're reminded of all the things you haven't lost and the blessing's right in front of you

It's when you fall and scrape your knee because something wasn't where it should be
It's the hands that pull you up and the promise that tomorrow will be better

It's when you've had a fight and you sit in the corner crying in self pity
Honest truths and gentle kisses that easily steal away all of your tears

Those things are my light

There is no relief from the darkness, from the struggle, from the fear or the comments
But the love and light penetrates the darkness to bridge the gaps between
Without love, that darkness would be unending
It would be despairing and I would be despondent.

I'm sure it's hard on those around me, but they never mention it
I'm sure guiding me to the many places I go becomes laborious and tedious
But they all keep encouraging me to never stop, to keep moving forward

That's love
That's sacrifice
Sacrifice is love than penetrates like pure light, it scares the darkness away.

And I can't find it deserving, I'm not even owed it.
Life isn't fair so I couldn't possibly ever earn it.
I can only say I'm blessed to be surrounded by so much love
So much light.

Light I didn't even notice until I was surrounded by darkness
Love I didn't value until it was the only thing I could see

Sometimes when I feel the sun on my face
And I imagine I can see it
The darkness lifts like a heavy curtain opening and everything is a hazy white glimmer
Sometimes I blink and it disappears
And I think it must have been a memory

And then I woke and I thought I was in heaven
The blurry yet recognisable contour of her face pinkish against white sheets behind
I blinked and it got brighter
And then I think I see her hand moving towards me

And in the haze I can't judge the distance as it moves closer
I wince just a little and the movement freezes
It doesn't feel like a dream, my hearts beating too fast
I close my eyes and hold my breath and wonder if she notices

The longest second passes and I'm scared to look
And then I feel the back of her fingers trace slowly across my cheek
She doesn't ask what happened
And i'm not quite ready to say

But when I open my eyes again I can tell she is smiling
I can see the shape of her face has changed and there's a brighter white than before
It's like a memory only new and blurry and bright
Oh so bright

Without darkness there would be no light
And without light there would be just nothingness

And I think perhaps there was something I saw then
And once or twice again every so often
And perhaps there is hope of an easier future

Im not excited because I don't need to see
Because the love that I have is light enough
And what I already have is bright enough

With love there is hope
And with hope there is light
And with light there is love.

xxx