Chapter 20

Jaspers POV

I have never felt pain like that in my life. I knew it wasnt physical pain, although it might cause her physical pain, it was purely emotional. It was heartbreak. Heartbreak. The worst heartbreak i'd ever felt. Excruciatingly painful. This was the worst pain i think i've ever felt. Even my days with Maria, i had never felt that kind of pain. It was terrible. I was trying to be strong for her but i was hurting at the same time. I knew she could sense that as she had guilt and worry mixed in with the other emotions. It was enough to bring me to my knews and Peter was trying to help me. He knew, more than anyone, how others emotions effect me. He understood me more than anybody else did. Nobody, except for him and Char, knew that i could feel others bloodlust and knew how it effected me. Thats why on Bella's disaster of an 18th birthday party i lost control. I was not only fighting my bloodlust, but I had to fight Esme's, Alices, Roses, Emmetts and Edwards. She was also Edwards singer which doubled the want, the need. I also had to fight my own bloodlust. Six vampires. One human with amazingly smelling blood, pouring from her arm, and lots of bloodlust. All piled onto me. I just had to be the weak one though. Its not that i couldnt have controlled myself, it's the fact that everyone was trying to stop themselves from draining her.

I really need to stop thinking about that! I'm going to make myself thirsty and i am holding my Bella in my arms.

My Bella? MY? I think i like the sound of that. I know Bella is my true mate. I understand that now, having spent a few days with her, getting to know her a bit better. Shes my other half, my perfect soul mate. I knew Peter knew. And i think Char and Rose suspected it. Emmetts of course, was just so happy to get his sister back he didnt pay attention to the fact that i was with her most of the time, held her while she slept. Hell he didnt even pay attention when i kissed her. He could be really obtuse sometimes.

"mmm...jazzy" Bella mumbled moving so her head was lying on my chest with her arm draped across my waist. I could lie like this forever and hear her talk in her sleep. Now i understand how Fuckward could go watch her sleep every night. I thought he'd just lost it, as did everyone else, but it was really an enjoyable experience.

And to hear he mumble my name, was amazing. Did she love me? I hoped she would fall in love with me. SO far her emotions show, adoration, happiness, guilt, fear, and lust. Thats when shes around me. I find it hard to be appart from her. Last night for example when i went hunting, i felt odd. Like part of me was missing. Thats when i figured out she must be my mate. What other explanation was there? She was my mate and i was uncomplete when i was without her.

I felt whole when she was around. Like she was my missing puzzle piece. Thats exactly what she was. That explains how we got on so well after just being reunited.

I felt Bella's breathing start to get uneven and her heart beat picked up speed and i knew she would wake up any minute. She stirred and smiled up at me.

"You stayed" she mumbled, snuggling back under the duvet.

"Of course" i said, kissing her hair. "Are you not getting up?" i asked after a few minutes of her just laying there.

"mmm...no. I like laying like this" she replied. I smiled. I loved laying like this. Thats good if she ffels that way to right? She must be starting to love me.

"You've been asleep for eighteen hours though" i said smuggly. She jumped up shocked and gasped loudly. Looking around she sighed and sank back into the pillows. What the hell? "ARe you ok?"

"Im jus fine. I just feel weird after having slept for eighteen hours. I knew i felt like i'd been asleep for longer than i should have been. I know i needed sleep though. Were is everyone? Did they go home? Is Lucy sleeping?" she rambled question after question of making me laugh.

"You did need the sleep. You had a stressful day yesterday. Yes they went home. They said they would be over at 9 oclock on the dot though and Lucy said to tell you she went to stay in Marks. Whoever Mark is, she seemed to really like him" Bella squealed when i said this and i looked at her shocked. I had never heard Bella squeal. Mmmm...id never heard her moan either...Stop them thoughts! No need to start projecting lust and get into a situation you cant get out of when big brother, aka Emmett, comes over.

Bella hopped out of bed and jumped up and down while squealing. She looked so excited about something and she was radiating pure happiness and excitment.

"Ohh i knew she liked him! I knew it! Oh my goodness! This is the first boy shes properly liked! I wonder will they get married? Awwwwwww! She will be beautiful! Oh i need to talk to her!" she said excitedly and ran to her cell phone.

I climbed of the bed quickly and grabbed her phone, gently, at vampire speed. "HEY!" she protested, crossing her arms across her chest and scowling adorably at me. God she was to damn cute for her own good! I smiled placing a kiss on her pouted lips.

"Darlin', your awake. doesnt mean the whole city is though. Its 7am and i doubt she will be happy if you wake her. Just wait until later, call her then and talk about whatever you need to talk about. Right now i think you should get ready and we'll go over to Peter and Chars before they can leave to come her. You should bring a change of clothes as you know Char will want you to stay." i told her. She stopped scowling and smiled widely moving towards the bathroom. I took that as my cue to leave the bedroom to let her get ready.

Peters POV

"God Char! WEre'd you learn to do that" i asked in a moan as i came down from my high of having some fun with my wife. She just giggled and winked at me.

I got the feeling that Jasper and Bella were coming here. Soon. Very soon.

I got up and began getting dressed, "As much as i would love to continue, Major and Bella are on their way back. They'll be here pretty soon," i told her.

I heard Rose and Emmett begin to get ready. I swear, they could give us a run for our money. Char smiled at me and ran out of the room, i supposed to clean up the mess both couples had made last night.

A few minutes later Bella and Jasper came through the front door, smiling and laughing. Holding hands. Young love. How sweet. Haha.

I walked downstairs in my shorts and nothing else. I saw Bellas eyes widden and i laughed, "Like what you see, huh?" i teased her. She stuck her tounge out at me. "Be careful with that tounge, Bella darlin', naughty girls like you need their tounges" i winked at her and she blushed. Char slapped my arm giggling and told me to wise up.

"Bella!" she squealed and launched herself at Bella. Shes always been a hugger. Bella hugged her back gratefully and Char tugged her towards the stairs. "C'mon, female bonding time. Boys out!" Char said pointing to the door as Emmett came downstairs and kissed Bellas cheek as he passed her.

"Charlotte! You cant throw me out of my own house! Theres a game on i want to watch" i whined as she glared at me. I knew she wasnt really angry but she would be if i refused to go when she wanted to talk to Bella and Rose. They were obviously going to discus yesterday and how Bella felt about Jasper. I already knew. She was happy, for them to be here, us to be here. She did love him. But she was scared. Every other relationship shes had, serious or not, has ended in a disaster. I cant blame her, i would be scared to if that happened to me. But she needs to trust Jasper. He will love her like shes supposed to be loved.

As i was leaving i heard Char squeal, "I know exactly what we need! We need a night out and we need to go shopping for new clothes...Rose you need a red dress. Red is so your colour! I want a black one, i havent wore black in a while and Bella...mmmm...any colour suits you really! Ohh im excited! I havent been shopping in so long! Lets go!"

I chuckled joining Emmett and Jasper outside were we discussed going out tonight.

This should be fun.

A drunken Bella.