Hello fanfiction world!
So Sorry I haven't updated this story since, a while in fanfic time. I wrote about half of this chapter, then literally wrote myself into a corner. Then fixed it! :D
Yayness. So yeah, this is the shiznat. Just sayin.
I have a poem in this chapter-duh it's by yours truly. =D
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Ch. 7: Day Six, Piecing
Everything around me has become extremely awkward. Oh my God, May? Freaksville! I would know, I'm the mayor there.
"What exactly do you think you can accomplish?" Kelsi questioned, she and I were on the porch swing.
"I don't know, but isn't there something in the world called forgiveness?"
"Point?"
"Yeah she did a freaky, taboo thing." I shrugged, "But there was no sex, no substantial relationship. Just a kiss."
"But." Kelsi loves to argue, "What if she had stayed?"
"That's just it, she didn't. So doesn't she get points for that?"
She shrugged, "I guess, but still..."
"Judging others sucks, we should know."
..:….:..
"So are ya excited?" Katie smiled at me from the cashier's spot by the bar.
I was sitting on a stool completely oblivious, "For?"
"Aw come on!" Katie laughed, then stopped when realizing I wasn't laughing along, "The...Harvest Festival. When all of us gather for the success on our stock? Man, Troy wasn't kiddin' about you forgettin!"
"Ummm...yeah. Sorry."
"No worries." She smiled, "It's tonight! Troy's excited. I heard he's plannin' a skit fer the entertainment part of the festival."
"Really? Wow." Tonight? Honestly! Why didn't I see a flier or something...?
"Don't seem to excited?" Katie gave me a look.
"I just had a rough night sleeping."
"Well since you moved back, I wouldn't be surprised on failed attempts." Cosette barged into the 'employee' side of the bar from the back.
"Failed attempts?" I looked to her.
"Oh don't think we don't know Ms. Stephanie." She gave me a malicious glare that reminded me of May. Come to think of it, she kind of resembles May. They both have a fat face...
"Know what Cosette?"
"You're tryin' to rope Troy inta goin' back with you." She still sported that glare, "I heard it from my Mama herself. After she visited ya'll," Fat face confirmed, "She told me that that's all ya wanted. How dare you!"
"What." I laughed, "You think that he'd date a little tramp like you, Cosette? Here's two bits of information your mother left out: One, she did all the accusing and ended up in dead water. I'd never do that to Troy. And two, Troy has enough common sense to realize your fake actions make you as ugly as you inheriting not only your mother's face, but obviously her conniving nature."
She was slack-jawed, "Well-Ma's gonna run you outta town. She will-"
"She can't."
"What do ya mean?" She gave me a challenging look.
"You should know." I looked at her with as much of a challenge, "I know something she doesn't want me to tell."
Even though I had no idea what it was, Cosette obviously thought I did. She sounded afraid, "Y-You wouldn't!"
"Give me a reason, and I will."
She tritely "hmmph"ed, and left the bar.
..:….:..
"Hey Steph!"
I turned from walking, spotting Troy a little while down the road. When he finally caught up, he sported a huge grin on his face.
"Guess what?"
"What?"
"May thinks itsa good idea for ya to talk about what happened last year at the Harvest Festival."
Are you kidding me! Oh...Nerrgh!
"Sounds great." I strained my lips into a smile.
"Yeah, I think it'd be good." He shrugged, "Do you think it'd be good?"
"I'm not too sure." I shrugged back, "Taboo-ness, and all."
He sighed, "I just want it to be over ya know? I'm tireda seen' May look at ya like ya don't matter." He enveloped me into a bear hug, "Ya do matter. To Dad, Ma, Mandy, Katie, yer friend Kelsi, and me."
"Even after what I did?" I asked as I felt his chin rest on my shoulder.
"No matter what, we're twins. You're the missin' part of me." He sighed dramatically, "And all that mushy relationship stuff."
We both laughed, and I realized that he was okay with what happened between him and Steph.
"I can't believe yer leavin' tomorrow." We both stared at the sky.
"Yeah, sorry for being such a tease." I smiled; we laughed again.
It was good laughter; the kind that twins should share.
..:….:..
I've been researching on Steph's life like a madwoman. I ransacked that red trunk at least sixteen times, and had extensive conversations with "Mom", Mandy, Troy, and Katie. I've tried putting together this entire puzzle since I first got here, and definitely had a breakdown with Kels in the barn. I have no idea what I'm going to do tonight. The festival starts at seven; I have an hour till it starts. It goes until...whenever? Ugh...
I'm the last to go on in the entertainment portion of the night. The skit is first, then about ten different people sing, and then I close with "talking" about what happened to "me". I'm dead, I am so...dead.
I talked with Kelsi for a long time today, and somehow I compiled a poem with her much-needed help. Maybe May will enjoy the artistic setup, and leave me alone till tomorrow? Pleasepleaseplease...
I cleared my throat, "U-Ummm..." I stared out to the crowd of faces from the Festival's stage. Somehow, all of the acts before me finished quicker than I had anticipated, "May has asked me to talk about what happened last year, and the whole ordeal. I couldn't think of how to put it into a sort of speech-equse format, so I wrote a poem. It's called Unsafe." I thought to myself that if there was any possibility that Steph and I shared a brain, now would be a good time to take over!
I took a breath.
I watched the dark clouds
tumble into view while thinking
that I, somehow, could stop the
impeding rain. I wished that
things could've somehow ended
better. No bruised fingers, twisted
lips to form disdain, or malice
forming in our eyes.
I thought foolishly.
I thought anger could solve
impeding darkness. I thought
sadness could solve impeding
darkness. I thought breaking
apart could solve impeding darkness.
I never thought it could just be me.
Myself-one person, one chance to
say the 'I'm sorry' everyone wants to
dance around. Well, I am.
I don't think forgiveness will
satisfy you. You'll look at me, and
wonder why you thought forgiving
would make things better. You only
seem to think things are worse.
Knowing I-me, I'm here. I'm back.
So you spread your disease you've
labeled as 'Me'. I know I've done some
things I'm not proud of. But you,
you're not a saint yourself.
All the little horses; the ones
that I were promised. You tore them
away from me. But I don't want
this to come across as self-pity.
Though breaking apart didn't help
the darkness, by doing it I saw that
I, me, could stop it.
Now, I need to ask you;
Have you stopped yours?
I looked out to the crowd; I purposely tried to delude the whole situation. Since I'm not Steph, I can't tell her story. But I know I tried. It was silent for a long time, but slowly people began clapping. It was the kind of clapping that happens when you've touched the audience in some way.
"How could ya'll be clappin' for this senseless bitch!" I watched faces turn; I looked beyond the bright lights to see an outraged May.
"How could you say somethin' like that May?" Katie cut in, "That was beautiful!"
"That was a whole load a bullshit that's what it was!" She hobbled up onto the stage, "Get out of here! You mangled hussy! You senseless, incestuous whore!"
"On what grounds!" I heard Kelsi call from the crowd.
"On the grounds that my dear Cosette caught the two huggin' all close-like while walkin' home. Then kissed." She stared at me in a challenge, "You little, sinful bitch!"
"That's not what happened." I saw a grinning Cosette from the crowd, "What do you know about acceptance! You're no saint at all; you're just as damned as I am." I mentally read through the journal entries that were left behind by Steph in my mind. Of course...,"How about it-feeling Lucky?"
She struck me with such force, I thudded onto the stage, "You...!" She looked angered, running out of swear words to say,"Who would listen to your tramp mouth anyway!"
"I think I would." I saw a flash of crimson, and a girl stepped onto the stage. The crowd gasped.
I looked up; we shared the same face.
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To be concluded in the next chapter! =]
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