A/N: Heeey! I'm sorry it took me so long to update but I have just been really busy, you know? So yeah, my excuse this time is school (we had an exam that lasted for three days) and handball. I am really pround of myself because I went to all of my handball practises this week EVEN THOUGH it was cancelled because of the exam! It was only me and two more peoople who did that!

But anywaaay! This chapter is Katie's chapter. Because we don't really know so much about her, so I thought she needed to explain her feelings for Chad in this chapter. Yeah I know... you probably think that it's really lame of me to do that. BUT I DID IT ANYWAAAAAAAY! So haha!

Shoutout to: MiiMyselfandTime

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AND A SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO: VeVe2491 for being the first one to guess who Chad was playing the song for in my one-shot 'Kiss the Rain'. I will not tell you who he was playing it for (because that may ruin the magic), but if you really want to know you can read who VeVe2491 thought he played it for in the reviews for the story and you'll find out!

Disclaimer: I do not own Sonny with a chance. I DO own Katie, the plot and Katie's parents though. And Chad's parents of course.


Katie's POV

I woke up the day after the fight with Chad feeling sad. I couldn't quite remember why I felt this way, so I got up from my bed and stretched. But then my eyes landed on a picture of me and Chad, and the memories from last night started to flow back in my mind.

When I got home last night all I managed to do was to storm up to my room, close the door and fall on my bed, crying my eyes out. My mom tried to get me to tell her what was wrong, but I refused. She didn't need to get the information about my love life.

Chad's words stung like a thousand daggers in my head. He never knew how much I liked him. I bet he thought it was just a crush, something that would go over in a few weeks, but it wasn't. I loved him.I mean, really loved him. So that's why it was so hard for me to hear that he thought Sonny Munroe was more beautiful than me.

I have nothing against Sonny, I still think she is amazing. But it was just that I thought Chad loved me back. But all this time all he has done is making me look like a fool. He didn't even like me.

Chad has always been a player, and I have no idea why. I always hated the way he acted around girls, but not once did I stop him. And now he had done the same thing with me. He said that the only reason he still was with me was because I was his best friend. That was the most hurtful thing he said. What he basically said was that he had hated to be my boyfriend and that I was a pain in the butt to him. And it meant that none of the things he had said to me was true.

I heard a car outside and I looked out the window. Chad's car drove away. In all this mess I felt sorry for Chad. It was Sunday and he had to work. I laughed sarcastic over myself. He broke my heart and I feel sorry for him? There must be something wrong with me.

I felt the hot tears race down my cheek and I let a small sob escape from my mouth. I usually don't make any noise when I cry because I don't want people to feel sorry for me.

I sat down at my bed, holding my own arms around me. How could he do this to me? He should have just talked to me when he found out that he didn't have feelings for me. Maybe he was afraid that I would misunderstand? Am I really that hard to talk to? The tears continued to run down my face and fall to the ground.

I looked up and got a look at myself in the mirror. Is that really me? The sign was horrible. I got up to study my face. I was ugly. My face was read from the tears, and yesterday's makeup was smashed all over my face, seeing that I was not able to remove it yesterday. And not only was I ugly, I was fat too. I must have gained lots of pounds since the last time I checked the mirror!

No wonder why he doesn't like me. It's my own fault. If I wasn't this ugly and fat, he would like me. I was angry at myself. I never wanted to look at myself again. I hated the mirror. So I formed my hand to a fist and smashed it in the mirror. The pieces of crushed mirror fell to the ground. Much better.

I was afraid that my parents had heard the crushing noise, but no footsteps were heard. I guess they're in their deepest sleep. Lucky people. Or maybe they're not that lucky. I mean, they have to look at me every day.

I fell together on the ground, right in front of the crushed mirror. I almost had forgotten about Chad, but when my eyes landed on the same picture again, the pain came back. It was like someone had shot me in my heart. I wanted the pain to go away. I wanted to punish myself for letting Chad slip away. So I grabbed the sharpest piece from the mirror.

I placed the object over my wrist, my whole body shaking of fear. I didn't want to kill myself. But I had do get some kind of punishment, so I brought the piece a different place on my arm, a place where it wasn't going to cut my pulse.

I jumped a little when the sharp side hit my skin. But the pain I felt was nothing compared to the pain I felt inside, so I figured out that I had to continue. I slowly drifted the blade through my skin, making it a long scar. The blood was dripping out, and I nearly screamed. I deserve it, I deserve it. I couldn't think of anything else.

I had to suffer, I had to get the pain outside. If it was outside, maybe I would forget the pain inside. I removed the piece and placed it another place, to make a new scar. This is for being fat! That scar was made faster than the first, and with more anger. Now I had two bloody scars. I found a new spot and made a third scar. And that was for being ugly. Three bloody scars.

The blood dripped to at the floor, combined with my tears and my pain. I sighed. The pain inside was finally gone. For now. I took the piece of crushed mirror and hid it in under my bed. I was going to need it when the pain came back.


A/N: YES I KNOW IT WAS BAD! Or at least that's what I personally think. What did YOU think of it?

And FYI, Katie isn't cutting herself because she feels sorry for herlself, she does it because she want to punish herself for being 'ugly af fat'. And maybe a little because she feels sorry for herself. I don't know, she's very complicated.

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