Secrets Exhumed (14x14)
Dana to Olivia: Would you please tell him that I could never do something like that?
I am just like you. I have dedicated my entire life to justice and to doing good in the world. You know me!
"Are you OK?"
I hadn't seen him since that night in the bar and had almost dreaded seeing him again, but in that moment I was so glad it was Barba who had found me sitting on the outside steps of the precinct.
"No."
He sat down beside me, a coffee-cup in his hands. Every time I saw this man he was eating snacks or drinking coffee. I had no idea how he managed to stay so slim.
"I've got to tell you, Detective you sure know how to pick 'em."
A sad smile appeared on my face, "Yeah." I looked up at him, "What are you doing here anyway? This isn't your case."
"I had some paperwork to follow up on." He spoke in a soothing voice which irritated me. I didn't need his pity.
"Does everyone at your office know?"
Barba nodded with a sad look in his eyes, "These kind of news travel fast."
These kind of news. A dedicated FBI-agent turned out to be a murderer and was brought to trail 25 years later.
Although I didn't want him to pity me, I found myself opening up to him,
"I've known her for years, she was the closet thing I've ever had to a best girlfriend." My voice shook, "We were so alike."
I remembered her words exactly. I am just like you.
"How come?"
I sighed, "Dedicated to the job 100 percent, now it turns out she was just trying to make amends."
"I'm sorry."
"She was so...so good, I'd never thought she'd had it in her. That she'd be able to murder somebody...it just makes you wonder, you know?"
"No." He said honestly, "No, I mean you're not wondering about what you'd be capable of, are you?"
I didn't answer and he slid closer to me,
"Just because you have something in common with a murderer, doesn't mean you're capable of ending another persons life. I am very sure you would never be able to do that."
"No matter the circumstances?"
Dana had been hurt. She had been used and was upset. If that was enough to send her over the edge, I didn't know what could trigger me. She had always been the stronger one of us.
"Yes." Barba was sure, "You're not a murderer, Detective. Don't waste your thoughts on it for another minute."
"Thanks."
There was a silence between us as he continued to drink his coffee,
"I'm going to visit her in prison, you know, and be there for her, like she would be for me." I was surprised to find his hand on my shoulder and when I turned to look at him our faces were just inches apart,
"Don't overburden yourself with this. It's not your job to save her."
It was too late for that.
I nodded and he took his hand away, moving up a bit again, "We can go out for some drinks, if you like. I won't be long."
"Thanks, but...my mystery-man is picking me up, so..."
"I understand." He stood up to leave, "I'll see you later."
"Thanks for...being there."
"You're welcome." I watched him leave and stared out into the loud city before me. I hadn't felt this lonely in a long time.
Barba wasn't actually in this episode, but it's such an important one for Olivia that I decided to write a small scene anyway. It's a bit different than the rest, so tell me what you think. Thanks for all your reviews.
