Smothered

Chapter 7

Emmett and I have been dating for three months now and he's helped me through a lot and he's stayed by my side, through all my bad times as well as the good.

The school year is almost over and I know he'll be going off to college, since he's the same age as Alec.

I'm worried about our relationship when he does leave, where will we end up? Will we be O.K.? Will we be able to survive a long distance relationship? All of these things bothered me, especially when I knew he'd had sex plenty of times before and hasn't had any since we started dating, he's going to want it soon or later, is he going to cheat on me? Should I let him go when he goes away to college, so he doesn't feel obligated to be true to me?

All these thoughts and feelings coursing through my body are taking their toll.

Dr. Carmen has suggested I try medicine for my anxiety, but I don't want to be a zombie, I'm trying to get on with my life and live.

We haven't had any contact for Edward, since the flowers, so I'm doing better, although I NEVER go anywhere by myself, and I'm never left alone either.

"B, what's got you so out in La La Land?" Emmett asks.

"Just thinking. I'm under a lot of pressure right now." I shrug.

"I hope I'm not the cause of any of it. I never want you to doubt my feelings." he hugged me tight.

"Em, are we going to be O.K. when you leave for college?" I asked.

"B, I told you. I'm going to Washington State, I'll be 4 hours away. I'm coming home every chance I get. I know I'll be busy with football, but when I'm not, I'll be here for you, us! Plus your brothers are going to be coming to the games and Alec will be here, so you can always come and visit, no matter what." he kissed my head.

"I'm just scared of losing you." I hugged him tight.

6 MONTHS LATER…

"Bells!" Emmett yelled as I walked across the quad with my brothers.

I ran up to him and he grabbed me twirling me around.

"I'm so glad you're here! I can't believe I haven't been able to get home! 2 months is to long!" he pouted. I kissed it away.

"I'm here now Bear." I tugged on him.

"Will you two stop! I'm going to hurl!" Mike snarked.

"Jealous?" Emmett teased.

"Nope, because I got some before I left this morning." he laughed and then stopped when no one joined and he realized his mistake.

I took off running and I could hear them all fighting and Alice yelling after me.

"Bella. Please slow down." she shouted.

I finally stopped and sat on a bench, sobbing.

"Mike's an ass, he didn't mean to hurt you." Alice rubbed my back.

"I know. It's just I feel like Emmett's going to leave me, because I can't take the next step in our relationship." I cried.

"Bells. He's not going to do that. If here was that type of guy, he'd have left by now." she hugged me tight.

I wiped my tears away. "I haven't had these thoughts, in months and then BOOM! My asshole brother makes me feel like shit!" I spit out.

"Just kick Mike or something." Alice laughed and I smiled.

We walked back to the group and Emmett and Mike were being held back.

I walked up to my brother. "You need to stop thinking with this." I grabbed his crotch and squeezed as he yelped. "And start thinking with this!" I smacked him upside the head.

"Damn It Bella!" Mike cried in pain. "No, you don't get to complain." I snapped and grabbed Emmett's hand to walk off to his dorm.

"We'll meet back here at 6 for dinner." James yelled and Emmett waved to let him know we'd heard him. I had four wonderful hours ALONE with Emmett.

We talked about school and any new friends. I told him our school was the same, nothing new. He told me of some of his friends. I can't say I wasn't jealous when he mentioned girls.

Things kind of went quiet for a few minutes, until his door slammed opened and his roommate came barreling in.

"Em! Who's this cutie?" he asked wiggling his eyebrows. I moved closer to Emmett and clung to his arms, trying to take slow, deep breathes so I wouldn't panic.

"Demitri, this is my GIRLFRIEND, Bella. The ones who's pictures are all over my side of the room." he growled.

"Oooppss… My bad, I thought it was one of the others." he laughed and I paled, jumped up and ran out.

I heard him yelling my name and cussing at his roommate.

I ran back to the car and waited, knowing the others would be back in while.

I sat on the ground, leaning against the car, full out sobbing.

"Oh, so sad." I heard the one voice I NEVER wanted to hear again.

AN:

Sorry it took so long to update…

I've started working and then the entire family got the stmoach flu and I THOUGHT I'd posted this, but no… I didn't…I fail!

Sorry!

I'll try to update more often, esp. since I'm getting a laptop for my bday! YEAH!

Thanks for reading and PLEASE REVIEW!