Dawn stood up nervous, anxious, confused, too many things for her to handle. Before she knew it they were in the basement. Dawn was stairing up at Spike a nervous look on her petite face. She wanted this, needed this, but she was afraid, unprepaired.
"Don't be nervous pet." Spike said cupping her face in his hands. "I love you." He whispered into her ear gently nibbling on it.
"Spike I want this." Dawn said weekly.
Spike placed kisses along her jawline down to her lips. Spike sunk his mouth into Dawns letting himself lose control completely. He let his mouth discover hers sinking his tongue in devouring every inch of her. Dawn ran her fingers through his bleach blond hair. Spike wrapped his hands around her lower waste pulling her up onto him. She wrapped her legs around his waste entwining her body with his. Spike lay her down on the bed gently as he staired down at her with lust-filled eyes. Dawn looked up at him urging him on without words. Spike leaned on top of her on the bed his hands on opposit sides of her face. He ran his hands down her curves his hands running all over her body. Dawn moaned weekly as Spike pressed his body against hers. Dawn pulled Spike's black t-shirt over his head tossing it onto the floor. He pressed his lips to hers as she arched her back. Spike ran his hands up her shirt caressing her bare skin as he slid the shirt over her head and tossed it to the floor.
The passion between them was undeniable, something Spike never shared with Buffy. Something was different something between them was new to even Spike. He knew it wasn't really the fact that he loved her, it was something else. How for once the girl he was with wanted him as much as he wanted her, for him it was always one sided. Either the girl wanted him more or he wanted her more, this was equal, completely. They needed each other now to survive to make it through the rest of their lives. Dawn was what Spike was missing, she was his, something no one could take away from him something that belonged to him for once. Spike was the only person Dawn ever really wanted, and he wanted her. For once she felt wanted, needed.
They both knew they didn't have anyone else now. Spike never had anyone else the only person who cared about him before besides Dawn was Angel. His sire would hate him now that he was with Dawn. Dawn had told Spike Buffy still loved him, but it wasn't love if your ashamed to be with someone you can't love them. Dawn had given up everything for Spike, her family her friends all felt sickened by her. She was shunned away from the family just for falling in love with the wrong vampire. Maybe if it had been Angel things would have been different, sure they would have been angry with her not descusted. But it couldn't be she loved Spike, wanted him since she first saw him, the real her. Not the memorys that had been planted but the first day she really saw him, standing there with his sweeper lighting up a cigarette. She wanted him then she lusted for him now. Spike had finaly fallen for her, everything she wanted was comming true. Every time he touched her skin it sent a shiver down her entire body.
"Buffy!" Angel yelled into the kitchen.
"Yeah." Buffy popped put from the other room a bright smile on her face.
"Everyone left. Do you mind if I stay here tonight?" Angel asked expressionless.
"Of course." Buffy nodded.
"Thanks." Angel turned to walk up the stairs and Buffy followed. She grabbed him before he left her sight.
"I really did miss you, ya know." Buffy said looking up into those dark eyes.
"I missed you too Buffy, every second after I left." Angel said a frown firmly planted on his dark face.
"Why did you have to leave?" Buffy asked a sadened look playing it's way through her features.
"We both know why the curse." Angel nodded.
"Yeah, but is it enough?" She asked weekly.
"Buffy, you know we can't conrtol ourselves and if we don't...Angelus is far too evil to let loose again." Angel said being the strong one as always.
"I don't care anymore." Buffy whispered. "My sister is in love with a demon, everyone has given up on making me happy." Buffy looked down tears filling her eyes. "Your the only one that ever really made me happy." Buffy admitted. "Seven years of this and you don't think I deserve a little happiness."
"You deserve all the happiness in the world Buffy." Angel asnwered her retorical question as he weekly allowed himself to lean in for a kiss. Just one kiss. He thought as he gave into his desires.
"I love you Angel." Buffy whispered as he kissed her.
"I love you too Buffy, always have, always will." Angel admitted kissing her again.
They both tumbled into Buffy's room and onto the bed. Tearing each other clothing off along the way. They both knew what was going to happen next neither one could refuse. They wanted each other far too much to stop now, they both needed this. They loved each other for years there was no one else, flames for sure, but not anything like this they belonged together.
"Spike." Dawn moaned a wide smile on her face.
"Yes, luv." He answered looking over at her across the bed.
"Wow, that's what I was missing." Dawn giggled.
"Enjoyed it that much eh pet." Spike smiled wide pulling her into him as she leaned on his chest.
"It was perfect." Dawn answered shyly.
"God help me I love you." Spike admitted looking down in to his Nibblets eyes.
"I love you too." She smiled placing a kiss on his unprepaired lips.
"Your my one and only Dawn." Spike said cupping her face in his hands.
"Forever?" Dawn asked looking into his eyes.
"Forever." Spike answered.
Angel stumbled his way out of the bedroom and outside. "Buffy!" He hollered at the top of his lungs. "Buffy!" She woke to the sound of her lovers screaming voice.
Buffy ran outside to dicover Angel on the floor screaming her name.
"Angel whats wrong?" She asked clueless as his stopped his cries.
"Nothing lover, I'm just fine." He answered in a deep voice. It was no longer her Angel, his soul was gone leaving her with only Angelus.
"Angel?" She asked. Buffy didn't realize what had happened, mainly because she didn't want to she was in denial.
"No, he's gone." Angelus stood up and looked down at her shock filling her eyes. "Forever." Angelus snickered.
"Oh, no!" Buffy shouted stepping back in tears.
"No worries Luver, I don't intend on taking you out, just yet. Your not the one with the most power here." Angelus walked down the street leaving Buffy in tears.
Buffy ran into the house and picked up the phone she rushed to warn Giles and everyone else not filling in the blanks. Buffy ran up the stairs and threw on her clothes. She felt like breaking down, why did this happen to her. Why was she niave enough to hope that Angel wouldn't lose his soul. It was as if her entire reality had crashed down before her. She lost Dawn to Spike, lost Spike to Dawn. Now she had lost Angel to Angelus. Her life was crumbling to nothing. Her reality was fading away.
"I'm really gonna like living here." Dawn smiled as she got dressed.
"I'm gonna like having you here all the time." Spike smiled sitting on the couch.
"Really?" Dawns asked playfuly.
"No I just said all that to get you into bed." A bright smile played across his face.
"Oh really. I'll just leave then." Dawn said acting as if she was really hurt when she knew Spike was playing around.
"No, little bit I was kidding." Spike shouted jumping in front of her.
"I know." Dawn started to giggle uncontrolably.
"Oh that's how it's gonna be then." Spike smiled. He jumped on top of her pushing her onto the bed. He started tickling her entire body as she giggled.
"Spike stop." She pleaded as she laughed. "Spike i'm gonna kill you." Dawn shouted tears filling her eyes as she continued to giggle.
"All right." Spike stopped and leaned into kiss Dawn on the lips. "I love you Nibblet." Spike admitted once more.
"I'm glad." She toyed with him.
"Oh really." Spike said sarcastic raising one scarred eye brow.
"I love you too." She giggled.
"Good thing you said that otherwise I would have had to tickle you again." Spike smiled.
"I love it when you smile." Dawn offered.
"I smile a lot with you luv." Spike admitted.
"I noticed." She giggled confident.
"Don't get too cocky." Spike slid his body on top of hers. His bare chest pressed up against her thin shirt which he had his hands inside now. "Remember who has the ability to make you beg for more." He smirked evil glinting in his blue eyes. He slid his body down pressing his lips against her stomouch as he slid her shirt up. Dawn let out a week moan. Spike slid off of her slowely.
Dawn sat up and looked into his eyes, she almost looked sad. Spike couldn't tell why, he never meant to upset her. He tended to do things without knowing exactly what he was doing or saying. In this case it seemed like he was telling her he was in control, like he meant more to her then she meant to him. Like any second he could rip it away. What he was really saying was he was the one with more "experience". Spike was in deeper then Dawn, he loved her and for him that meant forever. Summer's women had a way of pushing through the pain surviving, Spike didn't.
"Is something wrong little bit?" Spike asked leaning closer.
"I already know I need you more then you need me...you didn't have to rub it in." Dawn got up and walked away.
"No Dawn wait." Spike chased after her grabbing onto her before she could get out the door. "Don't be rediculous pet."
"Wasn't that what you were just saying to me?" Dawn frowned tears filling her eyes but never escaping them.
"No." Spike shook his head. "I was just being...uhm." Spike skipped over his words. He had forgotten how innoscent she was and how saying something sexual to her was like saying it to a child. "Just forget it Dawn, it's not what I meant all right."
"Okay." She frowned. "But how can I believe you when your such a good liar."
"Trust me." Spike begged.
"I could try." She smiled. "Just don't say things that I might take differently then what you mean." Dawn ordered.
"I'm sorry Nibblet." Spike apologized.
"Your always sorry." Dawn nodded. "But never wrong."
"Huh?" Spike asked confused.
"A poem I wrote it just reminded me of it." She giggled.
"You write poetry?" Spike asked confused.
"Don't know me as well as you thought you did huh?" She smiled coyly. "I keep secrets too."
"Read me some?" He begged.
Dawn just laughed shyly and Spike continued to beg.
"All right but its not that good."She explained.
"I highly doubt it can be any worse then mine is." He smiled wide and sat next to her.
Dawn reached into one of her bags that she brought over and pulled out a notebook.
"This is a different one than the one I was talking about but I like this one better." She began to read.
"This is a speech of my heart
Give up as you want but everyone has to start
dig deep into the depths of my soul
youll find nothing but d hopeless hole
you should recognize the marks
you caused them when you left me in the dark
Your the only one who can make me feel this torn
I adore the rose and yet I still love the thorn
theres something deeply wrong with this
the way every day I live I dream about your kiss
I know you'll only cause me endless pain
You will always dig yourself into my every veign
Living inside me not knowing it at all
and no one will be there to save me next time i fall
every time i jump I pray youll find a way to catch me
maybe youll find a way to blind yourself so I can see
no one will ever be enough or ever compare
So for me to be with anyone else really isnt fair
No one knows the way your face makes me feel
the way theyll think what we have is real
I know I'll spend forever thinking of you
so living in this twisted reality is what ill have to do"
"Dawn, thats incredible." Spike smiled. "You are an amazing poet."
"Not really." She smiled shyly.
"I think so." Spike leaned into place a kiss on her lips. "Maybe if I were as good as you they wouldn't have called me a bloody aweful poet." He smirked.
"There's no way you could be bad at anything Spike." Dawn smiled.
"Really?" He smiled coyly. "So earlier then that was..."
"Amazing." Dawn admitted turning a shade of red.
"Sorry to break up this nice little moment between you two but, Angelus has a bone to pick with the little power house." He smiled and evil glare seering through his dark eyes.
Authors Note: So its kinda short but im working on a few other things right now. Ive been terribly busy with cheerleading. And there is my sequel to Dark Desires Ive been working on and another one I just started that is very Dark and that I am liking a lot hint hint read it lol so hope you like this and REVIEW review review!!!
