A/N: I am so sorry for the delay but I went on vacation, if you want to call it that. I am currently out of state handling some left over family affairs from where my grandfather had passed away this past November. Between what all I needed to do and the inability to have some time to myself to gather my thoughts it took me a while to get this chapter out. I want to thank everyone that gave this story a chance even when I was leading everyone to believe it wasn't Alex. I don't say it enough but thank you so much for taking the time to read what I throw together. It really means a lot to me and you guys help me keep my sanity. What little I have left after years in Law Enforcement.


Alex happily walked with Olivia to their favorite pizza place. Most people would have shaken their head at their choice of dinner considering where they were going to originally have dinner but in truth this was more them than any five star restaurant.

"Alex, can I ask you something?" Olivia hesitantly asked once their waiter had walked away.

Alex smiled as she reached across the table and took Olivia's waiting hand in hers.

"We were going to spend the weekend together, what were you going to do if all this backfired or better yet why didn't you just wait till this weekend."

"I was going to hand you the keys to my car, the keys to the cabin, and my credit card and tell you to have the time of your life." Alex answered looking away "Actually I already had everything set up for just you and I didn't want to tell you there in case you hated me or didn't want to be near me."

"Hate you or not want to be near you." Olivia said with laughter "I would have to be a fool to do that. Hell I know for a fact that half the lesbian population and every blue blooded American male would shoot me if that was the case. I would shoot myself if that was the case."

Alex blushed as she stared at Olivia.

"You have never once realized your beauty." Olivia whispered as she leaned across the table and caressed her face "I have no clue what has made me so lucky for you to be interested in me but believe me I am thankful."

"Made you so lucky?" Alex whispered as she swallowed past the lump in her throat. Olivia always had a way of making her feel so beautiful and not realizing it "Olivia my life is better simply because you are a part of it. If you ask me I'm the lucky one."

Olivia winked as she took a slice of pizza and bit into it. She couldn't help but stare at the blonde beauty across from her. She had to be the most beautiful woman that walked the face of the earth and Olivia had fell for her hard when she had met her. Then as time moved on and they became closer the feelings intensified even more. Olivia was shocked she had never seen the signs that Alex had felt the same way.

"Alex, why were you so scared to tell me, even if I wasn't interested we could have remained friends and still done things together.

"No we couldn't or should I say I couldn't." Alex choked out trying her best to keep her tears at bay. When the hell did she become so emotional? "It would honestly kill me to continue being with you, at least until I could figure out how to stop loving you not that would ever happen."

"So you were going to do what?"

"You mean after you laughed at me and realized you could do so much better?"

Olivia shook her head. Having seen Alex so often in court she often forgot that in personal life she was very insecure and doubted herself.

"There is an opening in Appeals in Albany that I was going to transfer to. Logically it would be my next step up to the senate so no one would have thought twice when I moved there."

Olivia sat her half-eaten slice down and wiped her face. The next step up to the Senate that was Alex's dream, make it to the senate. She couldn't stand to look at Alex as she spoke the words she was about to say.

"You should take the transfer and never look back."

Alex dropped the pizza she had and covered her mouth with her hand. There was no way that Olivia was telling her to walk away not after she had just told her that she couldn't buy what was already hers.

"Your dream has always been to go to the senate and if you're with me that's not going to happen. Not only will they question your lifestyle choice but once they start to investigate me…well we both know how that will play out, with my background. I can live with a lot of things but I can't live with the fact that I would be the one to keep you from your dreams."

"Honestly it's no one's business but mine who I share or don't share my bed with." Alex held up her hand to stop Olivia from talking when she saw her about to protest "Yes, I know it matters to some, but who cares, lord knows I don't. The people who matter to me know that I am gay and support me. Once they start to investigate you they will discover what I know. That yes you are a product of rape but you have turned into this amazing woman who is a beacon of hope for women in their darkest hour. They will discover that you have a heart of gold and are quite possibly harder on yourself than anyone else could ever be. If they can't support me because of who I love, a woman, who I know would never hurt me, a woman who is willing to give her life for a stranger, a woman who I don't want to live without, then I don't want their support. If I have to lose you to gain that then I don't want it, Olivia."

"But your dreams."

"My dream is to find a woman who I love that will love me in return. A woman, that I can share my happiest moments with and who will hold me in my lowest moments. To find a woman, who will encourage me when I want to give up and then be my biggest supporter when I succeed. To find a woman to marry, have children with, and grow old with. That woman is you, Olivia Benson." Alex stated as she smiled "Yes, I would love to be elected to the Senate but what is the point of achieving all your dreams if you have no one to share it with. I want to share every failure and achievement with you, no one else, just you. So if you're thinking that telling me to move on and forget about you so that I can become Senator Alexandra Cabot you can forget it."

"So you want to give it all up for me?"

"No I want to achieve it all with you not give it all up for you, there's a difference." Alex answered as she took Olivia's hands in hers once again "I want to know I can do what I did today and not do it secretly. Even though I know that's not what you want or need. So what do you say?"

"I have to say that depends." Olivia said with a shit eating grin on her face.

"On."

"Can we still go to the Cabin this weekend?"

Alex couldn't help but laugh God how she loved that it was the simple things that made her happy. "Yes we can still go to the cabin this weekend and every other weekend that your heart desires."

"Then I guess it's a good thing I'm accustomed to having to dress up and have my picture taken constantly since I plan on being with the next New York Senator."